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*huggles everyone and runs off again* just a little bit longer and i'll be back promise.
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*Hugs Crimson If I can catch you:P*
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huggles all, hides in a corner with invisible cloak on. :(
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Lifts Jills invisible cloak and *squishes* :) what's up Hun?
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squishes mark back, hmm really want to hurt myself really badly. just want my head to shut up. sorry. how are you today?
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Oh good and bad , Felt really bad with depression **** but I spoke with Julie and she said if I needed she would stay past 5pm at the office for me.
And I just petted my neighbours Parrot! it let me and didn't bite ! Score! |
squishes mark, sorry your feeling depressed hon, that is really nice of julie to do that hun. cool would love to pet a parrot, knowing my luck tho it would bite me. *high fives*
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*High Fives Jill*
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hugs mark and jill.
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*shuffles in and plops down on nearest sofa*
i didn't even know it was possible to be this emotionally and physically drained... I spent all day pissed at hubby for various reasons and went running (only home for like 10 mins all day) and now all i want to do is soak in a hot tub and curl up into bed and pray this head ache will finally go away ... |
curls up and hides. ugh my head is so messed up tonight. cries
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*hugs* I know how you feel
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*hugs all*
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*hugs oliver tightly* you need to know that u are loved and cared about... I know u hurt and I know that kind of pain can be overwhelming... know that we are here for you...
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*hides* sorry I'm a failure and a freak
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I don't think you r a failure or a freak! I think you are one of the most awsome ppl I've ever had the pleasure of talking to... you have been a great support to me when I needed it most... now it's my turn to be here for you ... never appologize for being you!
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I am a freak, look at me everything is wrong, I've been called a freak all my life by everyone soI must be
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people are stupid and always looking to beat others down to make themselves feel better. Trust me, as a friend I would never lie to you... this is a place of honesty, love, friendship, hope, and security... a place to feel safe about sharing how we feel without fear of being judged.
you are NOT a freak. you're an awsome friend who has so much to give. You give it every day you sign in here. I've seen it. No matter how much you are hurting you always have a hug for anyone in need of it... even if you don't have the words to say you always have a way of showing your love and support of others. I've been called stupid my entire life by those around me... we both know that I am far from it... but some times it is hard to remember that when you hear it so much... *HUGS* |
*curls up and rocks* I'm sorry really sorry
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don't appologize... we've all been there at some point
*holds oliver while he rocks and hopes it helps him feel safe and cared about* |
I'm sorry I'm so useless. I'm scared, even though I'm at my friends house, there is nothing here I can take, but I want to so badly, there are two close supermarkets which are still open, god I'm pathetic
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you're not pathetic or useless and I'm glad you're at a friends house and not alone. It's ok to be afraid... I feel that way every times I feel the urge to cut... I feel afraid that one day I could go to far or permantly damage myself or even more frightening... my children
you're not alone in how you feel... please hang in there... |
I really want to go to the supermarkt and buy some pills, even though thats not my plan and not how I want to go, the physical symptons would give me some release for a bit. *rocks*
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I understand the urge... especially the desire to disconnect and feel some sort of release or numbness from the pain. It's so hard to face up to what we feel sometimes because it feels so over powering that it feels as though you might drown in it or suffocate in the weight of it all, but whether you know it or not, you are strong enough to beat this... maybe not alone, but you DO have people who care about you and who are willing to stand by you and help you in any way we can. You're so special because you have such a big heart ... and to maintain that kind of spirit under such crushing emotional pain is a sign of the most powerful inner strength you can imagine...
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curls up and hides under blanket. sorry guys.
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*runs around ward* sorry i've gone really hyper and manic suddenly, want to go for a real run, but my friend is scared of letting me out on my own
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it's ok, hun... sometimes we all need to hide under a blanket... i know i wish i could some days *hug*
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ask your friend to go with you then... i know that when i'm feeling really triggered going for a walk or a run can sometimes help it pass... it's like i can run until my lungs burn out all those horrible feelings inside and i can exhaust myself enough to sleep off the rest...
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*curls up again* manic mood has gone, this is why I hate BPD so much, just rapidly gone through about 9different moods in the last 15 mins
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I understand... not from personal experience, but my MIL has BP as well so I've been around it a lot. It's not your fault and I really hope your mood stabalizes soon.
I should go soon and get some rest. Are you going to be ok? I really don't want to go if you need some one to talk to... and don't think you'll be a bother if you need me to stay, because NOTHING is more important to me than my family and you're a part of my RYL family and that counts! |
whats an MIL? its ok if you need to go, I'm watching Hollyoaks and sleep is beginning to creep up on me. thank you though
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MIL = Mother in law BIL = brother in law and so on... lol ... i'm still learning text talk myself, but I'm getting better and better at it...
you're very welcome and I'm more than happy to stay and chat any time you need it... all you have to do it ask... :) *hugs* sleep tight *tucks oliver in snug as a bug in a rug* enjoy the rest of Hollyoaks |
ahh ok, thanks for explaining, it sounds obvious now you say it. thank you Kelly *hugs*
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*sits in ward* my sleepiness has gone :( now I'm awake, depressed and suicidal
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*Hugs Louise*
*Hugs Kelly* *Hugs Jill* *Hugs Oliver* |
*Hugs everyone*
This hot weather is gonna kill me -.- |
*Hugs Charlie* I hate it too hun !.
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*Hugs Mark*
It's awful. I have college later aswell. I have no idea what to wear. |
It's quite cold here today. And I have a cold.
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*Hugs Lindsay* That sucks, I hate having a cold.
It's absolutley boiling here, swap? I'm about to attempt college in short sleeves.... |
*Hugs Lindsay* It's hot here I'd trade weather with you.
*Hugs Charlie* Good luck Hun! |
hugs everyone, it is warm here as well and it gets to much.
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*Hugs Mark and Louise*
Thanks Mark. I made it :) I got through college in short sleeves for the first time ever :) |
~Hugs for all~ Including Anna if ya want one.
I'm so relieved for you Charlie! |
*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Louise* Yey Charlie , Go you ! |
well done charlie, did so well.
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Thanks Mark and Louise. I was lucky as it's end of term so hardly anyone botherd coming in, only my friends saw them :)
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*hugs all*
well done Charlie |
*Hugs Oliver*
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*hugs Mark* how are you?
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