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Welcome pixie *cuddles* I shall reply to posts when I'm around.
REI and Ella I'm sorry your struggling, *huggles* however I'm glad Ella's husband is being supportive, maybe you could explain the distractions aren't working. *hides in the corner under a blanket* |
Are you okay Secrets?
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feeling really bad someone in chat had a go at us :cry we want to cut even more now
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I don't actually know whats wrong, I feel so pathetic though because I can't explain it. The nightmares are back and just argh.
Thanks for asking though. hugs REI |
*offers hugs to all*
As night falls the flashbacks increase both in intensity and frequency. I feel like I can't escape them and keep pulling myself into my room because I don't know how to deal with them. Now the sun is rising but I don't have my normal distractions and am scared that it might rollover to the day time. I just want it to stop. *crawls into denial tent and curls up in a corner* Has anyone seen puppy SinClair ?? I really need someone to put their arms around me and tell me that it's going to be okay - even if they are lying. |
Hi everyone,
Hi Pixie and Rei *offers hugs* Secrets - how do you feel about your exams now they are done (and do you have any more)? Feel like a big fat stupid blob, have put on more weight, bleugh. I cried at work today, whoops, if people saw they didn't say (not that they are nasty just that they know it is sometimes better not to make a big deal of it). Can't go to the gym as I have mysteriously pulled a muscle in my thigh, mysteriously cause it happened when I was alseep! He-devil promised to visit on Saturday then suddenly pulled out, then he wonders why I am upset, I hate it when people upset my plans I need order to function (for those of you who are new the he-devil is my estranged husband). *hugs Helen, Dayna, Jade, Ravyn, Jetforce, Secrets, Zowie, Kahlia and anyone else around* *curls up in denial tent with a duvet* |
*hugs all*
*cuddles up to Kahlia* It will get better, it'll just take time sweetie. Mary, sounds painful that you've pulled a muscle in your sleep, maybe you were doing something in your dreams/sleep to cause it? |
maybe we should leave sorry we are bad :cry we shouldnt have gone in the chat room we should just let Ella talk
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Fail. That's all I have to say, really
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wow, its hard to keep up with everything going on in here. so fast.
*hugs everyone* had my stiches out the other day, she said i was too beautiful to do "this" to myself. that makes it worse, i'm not anything special to look at and i'm definately not a beautiful person, personality wise. i lie, i hurt people etc. everything is sh*t and hurts too much. want to curl up under a duvet and never come out. |
Thanks Helen *cuddles in*
I just wish I knew how to make it stop ... |
Well HER voice has started again. I dont need to be told to kill myself.
My Hubby has taken all my sharps away and they are locked in the kitchen < sometimes I feel like I am treated like 5 years old > Feeling sooooo low, I use to have the odd good day but they are getting less and less. Whats the point of going to a dietitian tomorrow < diabetes > when all you want to do is end it !!!!!! |
*cuddles all and welcomes new members*
Wow, a lot of activity today... too much for me to respond individually; but I'm thinking of all of you muchly... if anyone needs anything, please ask.. |
Wow.
I'm being dragged out the house yet again tomorrow. Got to go upto uni, with all my stuff (including duvet etc) and then get my coursework, possibly meet up with a mate if not, go back to my friend in halls :D Have a huge natter and buy some food. Then get ready and go out clubbing lol, eventually go back to halls and crash there. Then I somehow have to get up for a lecture that day :o Then Wednesday I have a lecture and then go home with all my stuff, then my dad is picking me up to go out as normal. Then roll on Thursday although it will be an EXTREMELY long day. Got to be in uni 10.30 am-7.00 pm, then going out with the Christian Union for a social and then eventually come home :) Then eventually it'll be friday and I'm going out drinking yet again with a friend. Then on Saturday, got to go back to uni for choir rehersal then meeting up with Laura and then eventually tohers and go to Megs and gte pissed. Hmmm gonna be busy busy busy, hope I can surive. |
Wow, you have a busy week ahead of you... hope that it goes well and ends up being a lot of fun :) keep us updated!
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Thanks, I will keep you updated, I may not get on RYL tomorrow much, I'll be on in the morning, but after that I might no be on again until Wednesday evening.
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That's understandable; hope you have lots of fun with your friends :)
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I will thanks :D It'll do me some good!!
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wow mamma mia, busy is right! hope you have a lot of fun! xx
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Hey guys, :)
Puppy SinClair goes and curls up on Kahlia's lap, Rei, please stay, come and join us in the denial tent *offers duvet and a cuppa* Helen - good luck with the week, I hope it's a good one *hugs Jade, Shell, Kija, Snuffles, Secrets, Kat, Zowie, Pixiedust, Emma, MaryAnne and anybody else who ventures in before morning* please believe that people care, I care, *big hugs* if you're going through hell then keep on going and eventually things will get better. I know I've been there, more than once, but please believe in yourselves, and believe that you can get through this, because you can. I have to get up again in just over five hours so I ought to try getting some sleep, curls up in a corner of the tent under a big pile of duvet, so that all you see is a mound of fabric, nighty night, hope people manage to sleep okay. |
Ahhhh puppy SinClair.
*offers cuddles to all* |
Well well what do you know.. we have to be out by the 20th of Feb. The house sold today.. bugger it. This is ****. We havn't found a place yet. We're STILL waiting on the stupid letter from Miks dad so we can actually APPLY for places... FFS... This is just crap.. PLUS mums anniversary is on the 13th.. Guess how I will be spending it? Packing, stressing.. all that **** i don't WANT to do on that day.. oh well nothing turns out right hey? Dunno how we're going to get a place since none of us are working.. Grrrrr
Sorry guys, just majorally upset and angry and stressed *huggles* |
*cuddles all and returns cuddles*
Have to be up in 3 hours. Don't want to sleep but need to. I'm too scared to sleep. I'm sure, well I know he wants me to sleep so he can hurt agaim. Whatever. |
Stay safe helen.. hope he doesnt do anything =(
love you *cuddles tight* |
Hi everyone *Gives cuddles to everyone* just checking in. Am ok right now I think it is due to the 12 hour sleep I had sunday. Just wishing this pain would end. *pats puppy SinClair and goes back under the bed with denial teant over it*
Sorry am not being very helpful at the moment. |
Checking in. Feels like I should have a long stay.
Feeling totally numb and sad to the core. No fight in me today, Im totally empty........ |
*hugs everyone* theres too many names for me to remember.
All I want to do is sleep, I feel overwhelmed and deflated and just meh. Im so glad I get to go home in 3 sleeps, I need the bf. |
Checks in wrapped up in purple blanket with bear* i am okay.. for now
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*cuddles everyone*
more bad news. where is the button in the universe that says enough is enough? crawls into denial tent for another day. |
I want to come check in here...
But I have nothing to say :/ things are just a bit crap. *leaves hugs for all and hides in a corner* |
Afternoon everyone,
Helen - that's a busy week - hope you have fun. *Leaves hugs for everyone* |
*cuddles all* Just a very quick check in as I have to get back to my friend in uni halls...
I'm having a **** day- overslept, train cancelled which delayed me and now I've found out I've failed yet another assignment, meh |
*sigh*
gonna. sleep....in here for abit... &&... when I wake up.. maybe... someone... will love me.... |
Bleh *hugs all*. Council went okay. Don't owe as much as they said, 'cause they're twats. Looking at a house tomorrow. Losing my mind. Cba to go into more detail
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Welcome Becca and Katie *big hugs*
*hugs everyone else too* it's a good job the denial tent doesn't have a max capacity :) take care everyone, wishing you all the love in the world |
comming in to just give hugs is fine rockaroni
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Anyone know how to make the flashbacks stop ?? Am getting truly sick of them. Last night I started thinking one of my housemates was him. Took me ages to get myself in control. Would not be surprised if the house collection of knives found its way into my room. Twice last night had walked to the door of my room on my way to get a kitchen knife to defend myself with. Think I'm losing the plot .... that's if I ever had it to begin with.
Anyway, sorry for my ranting. *offers hugs to everyone and gives attention to puppy SinClair* |
that sounds horrible kahlia. *hugs*
*hugs to everyone* god i feel sh*t just want it all to end. |
dont know f am ok to eat someone said something about BMI in chat and it makes me feel so fat i dont think i should eat
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*hugs purple goddess* im sure ur ok to eat. sorry that chat made u feel bad. :(
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Hello Katie :) *big hugs* Wanna talk about why you feel so crap?
*Hugs for everyone else* Having a terrible day. Slept for most of it because of lorazepan and my care co ordinator never called me back. Cuts don't need stitches though, so I guess since I'm not SHing everyday I'm still two months free. Right? Or does anyone think I'm copping out? x |
*hugs Ella* - I have similar issues when people mention BMI/weights etc. Just try and hang in there. You will be okay to eat, I'm sure of it.
*hugs Arwen* - I'm glad the cuts don't need stitches. You can count it as a slip Arwen, it depends on how you think of it. *hugs Kija back* - Yeah it isn't easy or nice. Are you okay ?? |
thanks for asking kahlia. no i'm not ok. everything is just getting too much.
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*hugs Kija* I'm sorry your finding things too much, is there anything you can take a step back from at the moment.
Secrets is actually a little more positive though she can't stop eating...bad secrets |
Anything in particular Kija - pushing things over the edge I mean ?? Anything you'd like to talk about ??
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theres just so much going on, and im letting everyone down. plus my meds are being reduced and i think thats making me "low".
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I have no control over anything.
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*crashes*
burnt out. written off. broken down. messed up. Jeez. How can One person be soooo broken?!?!?! Is anyone else dreading Valentines as much as me? I think I may hide... It'll only make me feel WORSE |
*sniff* Not sure I can do this now =(
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*gives out hugs to everyone* sorry I get overwhelmed by replying to more than one post but I'll try to improve.
I got some sleep last night but still feel really tired today. Have felt a little bit better but my head is getting noisy now and it's too late to take my medication. The drink is tempting me too but I'm trying to resist. |
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