*crawls in quietly and hides under blanket* I am just going to hide here until my depression magically disappears and I can be somewhat okay again. I highly doubt that will happen considering this time my depression has been getting quite bad and I am on my sixth month of misery. I am going crazy I mean my depression never goes away completely (and while hard I have managed to deal with it for the last 12 years) but this time it is at it's absolute worse and I am hopelessly stuck in it and there isn't any way out.

I'm back again after yet another hospital trip and all I want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. After an event in hospital I've started having flashbacks from before my first ever ECT sessions. Losing those memories is part of the reason I'm still alive. Right now I don't know if I can cope with this or even if this is just the world telling me my time has come. It's getting harder each day to get through and I'm not sure whether it's worth fighting or even possible. For now I'm just going to hide in a corner with my pillow, blankets and bears....

*curls up in corner with some books and a warm blanket*
Life is bad sometimes, I just wanna get away for a little.

*curls up in a corner crying and cuddling my bear*

My GP accidentally triggerred me into a severely suicidal situation where I've been planning out my next suicide attempt and ensuring that my husband will not be the person to find me, that noone will find me until it's way to late for me to be recovered and that the plan will work perfectly. Am I doing the wrong thing? Does it even matter? What am I supposed to do to stop the flashbacks, the overwhelming depression and the almost constant and frequent triggering..... Especially when I'm not able to take medications to help me cope... Maybe I just need to accept that my time is coming and I need to b e prepared for it when it does. Or I can just keep hiding in a pillow fort for the remainder of my life....

*sigh*

I'm so over having kids right now. I can't handle all the meltdowns. I just want to craw into my son's fort and never come out. Just let me curl up with a blanket and pillow and I'll be alright. Maybe.

*disappears iinto a corner to cry*

It's time to listen to the song lyrics and just "let it go".....

I guess I will stay here for a lil while... very suicidal and trying to stay safe but its mot working very well :(

-Finds her little curling up space and her teddybear- don't wanna....

How are you doing today Matt?

Can I disappear from this world for a while? I can't handle daily life and right at the moment I can barely manage to stay alive for a day. My brain, the flashbacks and the hallucinations are encouraging me to just give up and give in but I don't want to hurt those that I love.

So torn right now so I'm going to hide away from the world in a pillow fort with my teddy bear.....

Im in rough bout gang, I feel worthless, not important unloved, i been trying to draw but yeah

*quietly creeps back into her corner*

Its been a while ward, but life has just beaten me down and now I feel like I need to be back here.

*gives Shattered N Scared a blanket and some hot tea*

Thanks KneeSocks, I needed that =)

I have some chips to share.

Anytime! Ohhh yay chips *takes one* thank you!

never been in this ward hope its different than my last
*sits in the corner alone*

checking in for an extended stay once again

*curls up in the corner with a pillow, blankie, and teddy bear*

hugs are always needed and very welcomed...pm me if anyone needs any in return...im a great hugger in return as well! *hugs to all who need them*

*hugs caiden* Welcome back, did you find a warm corner?

*hugs for everyone, especially caiden *
Feeling on the verge. Not quite bad enough yet.
Keep wondering why I come back... It's not like I know anyone.
I've missed ryl. And everything.
It's all a bit stirred up. I'm triggered, I wanna but I can't.
I think all my protective factors have turned into triggers.
Eh... Ain't good. But never mind.

If this was a real ward I'd be trying to hide or trying to look after someone.

*looks hopefully for a volunteer*

Comes in and asks ktanaya if i can hide with you . Like you i dont know anyone anyone . I feel so lost and alone i thought leaving here was for the best but here i am again x

*hugs for hurtnpain*
Course. Feeling rather crappy myself. Wanna hide under something soliD?
Just wanna give up. Too tired. Too... Something. Dun wanna be adult. Barely wanna be alive.
Why can't I ever stay stable?

Overwhelmed. Tired of being an adult. This sucks.

I just want to disappear. Scattered my nanna's ashes this morning and leaving for hospital tomorrow. Don't want to be here anymore but can't stop life. I was badly hurt by two boyfriends leaving me alone in this life and can't leave my husband that way

*sneaks into a corner with Bear and my blanket*
*huggles for anyone who needs them and can accept them*

*huggles back*

*huggles to everyone* feeling a bit better today so I decided to drop in to see if I could possibly be a help to anyone else. i'll be around on & off today, so if anyone needs me, just pm me and i'll do my best to get back to you as quickily as possible. if you live in the united states, you can always hit me up in text. my name is betty, my cell number is 417-499-3158

Betty, I'm not sure if giving out phone numbers is a great idea, or even within guidelines. It's a lovely sentiment, but probably better to give out via pm.
Glad to hear you are feeling better tho.

Not doing well tonight. I was at the shops today and saw the man who abused me as a child. To be honest I don't know if he saw me, or would even recognise me, but when I turned around after putting my trolley in the return bay and he was looking straight in my direction I completely freaked out. When I got home I switched to Eliza - my 4 year old alter - and she believed that he knew where we were and that he was going to try and kill me. My husband gave me some sedatives to help calm us down and we went to sleep for a while. Now I don't know what to think and the intense fear is hiding just below the surface. Maybe more sleep will help me to reset but until then I guess I just wait and see....

Right now I just want to cry and disappear, and maybe that is all for the best....

*hugs for Kahlia*
Hope you're doing better now

Self admitting. Is there an open corner? *ties bandage, wipes eyes*

Crashing
 

Crashing very quickly back to earth after a long time of being up!
Finding a spot to calm down!

Moon walks in. Spins. Grabs groin. Jiggles. Spins again and moon walks off.....

Just gonna sit here under a blanket cos I dun wanna see my reflection...

I'm back kind of after leaving about half way through the middle of last year. I'm feeling **** about everything right now. In need of hugs.

*quietly finds a corner to sit in with a blanket and a book*

*hugs for Caski*
I'm just drowning them out with music and avoiding the reflection.

*Setting up a minefield of Lego*
I need to cry. Can't. No reason for that bull....

Having a really rough night, so I guess i better stay in here for a lil bit

*puts some brownies on the table*

*snitches a brownie*
We just need to keep an eye out for theM. Need to stay here. *hugs the yodabear*
Hope it gets bbettter chookie

*hugs Ktanaya* hope that is okay

I am just going to sit here and rock in the corner

So I start the day rather unsafe. Nearly cry in the locker room. Now im creeping up. Today isn't the greatest, but it isn't ��Ed up
* hands out glitter squish balls*
Thank you yodabear

Feels like crawling into a corner and bawling, then SH. Wraps self in blankets and rocks back and forth.

I don't want to go to my appt this evening *sits in the corner*

But I have to go... sigh -- hopefully everything will go okay

walks in, looks atoung

*hugs all*

*sits in the corner staring at the wall*

Sigh... i wish this would all go away

*checks self back in and sits on the couch staring at the wall with Ktanaya*

**sits down staring at wall, whispering to self**

This thread needs some Kung-fu.

*adopts bruce lee stance and looks menacing*

...* throws a glitter squish ball at the penguin, misses completely and breaks the lamp*
I made cake, anyone want cake?

I need sleep.... Where are the nurses keys... Where are the nurses? I need a PRN.