It's okay that you didn't see your friend. It's also okay to text your boss and say no to Monday. Why will HTT shout at you? I understand that sometimes they want us to do things like go out, to enhance our recovery, but sometimes you know yourself best and you need to make decisions for your own self-care. If that means a pyjamas and rest day, then there's nothing wrong with that. You're not pathetic, you do definitely need their support. It sounds like your risks are really high at the moment. Please call them.

Ive text my boss that I need the time off ideally because I made plans when it was granted several weeks ago and that I need time away from work for my mental health.

*hugs* I think that was a good idea

I'm glad you text your boss, well done. I hope they are understanding and allow you the full week off. Do you know what you're going to be doing with your time next week? Will htt still be supporting you?

Am trying to decide if I should go back on aripiprazole.

Next week I have the vets, drs, hospital and a new sofa being delivered.

I don't know what the plan with htt is. They seem to be taking it slow with me which is ok.

Thought I'd let you guys know I've woken up feeling a fair bit better. Am hungry. Have some energy and my mood isn't horribly low. And I've decided to go back on aripiprazole.

:) I hope the day continues well. I hope you can start the aripiprazole quickly.

I'm glad things have been more positive and I hope the Aripiprazole and other support is useful. Have you seen HTT today?

I hope the start back on Ari helps.

I only got the aripiprazole today.

The man is bad. I need to self harm. I feel low.

Don't SH, give the new med a chance. *hugs if wanted *

I didn't self harm. I called htt instead and sobbed on the floor.
They called me this morning to see how I am. I'm tired and very low. They said it's ok to have a quiet day and to call of I need them.

They are right, well done for phoning them.

I feel like people hate me and don't want to help me because of my diagnosis.

I don't hate you. I want to help. I understand how a diagnosis can get in the way.

I don't hate you either.

I also don't hate you but can totally understand the diagnosis thing. It's not fair. Not everyone is judgemental though and I hope you can find those people in your life.

Thank you all.

Sorry I'm so pathetic. How do I make myself get better?

You're not pathetic at all. I don't think anyone can really 'make' themselves better, it takes time and kindness and support. What kind of better do you want right now?

Late to the Lillie appreciation party but I don't hate you! I think you are an awesome person and it's lovely having you around.

You're not pathetic.