Don't know if they can help. Want help but don't think anyone can. I'm so tired of this.

It's ok for them to see you tomorrow even if you think they might be of no help, it's worth a try. Especially after all the fighting for support you've been doing recently. Give them a chance. I understand the feeling that no one can help, the hopelessness and loneliness, but at least let them be there in whatever way they can. Is there anything specific that 'help' means to you right now?

^ Was going to say something exactly along those lines. You don't know what they're going to say yet so don't give up hope.

Shall I ring htt and say the man wants me to cut? Is that what they help with?

I think it would be good to tell them x

I rang them. They said to stay busy until they come this afternoon.

Well done for calling. Do you think you will be able to stay busy, as they've suggested? I know you're having a low key day, are there some gentle things you can do?

I hoovered and went to the shop for laundry powder and did laundry and played with the cat again.

You're doing really well x

Keep going Lillie, I know it's hard but you can get through this battle.

Well done for reaching out. How's things now?

Thanks guys. Managed not to self harm yet. Have a tooth infection and leg infection and fibro is bad. I feel so low. Can't put it into words.

Well done for not self harming. Sorry to hear about the infections, fibro and lowness.

Leaving hugs

Be very kind to yourself please. You are going through so much. Keep fighting to not self harm too, you've been through enough. How are you today?

I went to work. Really shouldn't have. It highlighted how not fit to work I am right now.

Will you be having some time off now or do you need to go back quickly?

I did have next week bpoked off but they've said I need to go in on monday

Sucks about Monday, but hopefully the rest of the week you can try and relax and regroup. Sorry things are so tough right now lovely.

I feel bad. Felt too low to go out to see a friend. Now htt will shout at me so I can't ring them for support. I don't think I need their support anyway because I'm just pathetic. My boss want me to confirm that I iwll be in work on Monday and I want to text back no.