*hugs lia* i especially hate when i feel triggered and cant find a reason for it. :-/ Stay strong, try to do something distracting.

*hugs mark*

thanks for the offer to talk both of you... but i can't. Too worried about how it would affect other people if i did talk. Bad things. i'm even too worried to put it in my r/v so.. yea.. i should just keep my mouth shut.

Oh :) Do you find that tool useful?

You talking to me Mark?

Yes , sorry I think I duel posted with Laura . Yes I was talking to you Lia

Yes actually. It means I can't now even if I want to. Which I do. Feel good :)

:) I'm glad it's working for you , Glad you're safe for tonight Lia:)

Forget cut. I just don't want to do this anymore full stop. I can't because one day I am going to fail. I want to leave them before they leave me. I want out now. I don't know what I feel anymore. All I know is that two options seem like great ideas now.
Option 1: taking all 82 pills in my pot.
Option 2: run and never look back.

Sorry Mark, I've just totally rained on your parade.

Don't worry about it Lia . Seriously are those pills you have perscribed meds? , if so put them back in the cupboard , if they are just plls you bought throw them away if you can (Toilet), You could do serious damage taking 82 of anything , Please please please either way get those pills away from you right now

I cant get the thoughts of killing myself out of my mind the devil isn't helping
am not safe

*Hugs Ryuu* Can you try to distract yourself Ryuu? Maybe an earlyish night would help , You're in the Uk right , well it's gone 9pm , totally reasonable time to go to bed . Thats what I'm doing soon.

No, they're just pills I've picked up here and there. I don't take perscribed. I haven't been diagnosed with anything.

Oh okay Lia , Pleeeease Get rid of them , I would hate for anything to happen to you*Hugs*

Hugs lia tightly don't do anything stuiped. Argh!!! Yeah that was so going to happen tonight, on top of what I had going on allready. Muppets hahahaha

*Hugs Jill* Are you okay?

Lia?.

EDIT:- Lia I hope you decided to throw those pills away where you cannot get to them again or at least to put them back in their drawer/cupboard wherever , If you think you may have taken too many call 999 right now , don't bother to read the rest of this post , call an ambulance . I am always here to talk to you . PM me if you need to and I will try and be helpful , I can't promise a instant reply but I will reply :) *Hugs and hopes you're safe*

Not sure I, hahahahahahahahahaha. =\

lia are you okay and safe ? fu$k i cant do this, really cant do this its way to much sorry. curls up

*wishes i could help every single person in here* :(
<3

i hate feeling triggered with no ****ing reason... especially when other people actually HAVE reasons and they're staying strong. pathetic *sigh*
oh and i get to research ed's for class... goody :/ wannaresearchonbadsites :/

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Heather* Please stay safe .

Am starting to make plans to end my life the devil wants this i want this
i have to write something to my husband but am unsure what to say what do you write in these sorts of things i need to find the words because its important
that i explain by am doing this so he understands the reasons