well done being 2 months that amazing

*sobs in corner* am i really that unloveable and worthless.

*hugs all*

im a dirty disgusting individual :(

You are loved and valuable happiness. Hang in there

Im not honestly, no one loves me im just a nuisance and a burden to people. Im sorry everyone.

You are certainly not a burden to us.

Thanks laura people at home make me feel like i am just wish i could vanish to a new place and start again.

Happiness you're not a burden (hugs)

why the flip do I have stomach ache like I'm dreading something

Dylan - hope your stomach ache goes away!! Happiness you are anything BUT a burden. Stay strong dear!

Going to have a friend come over and distract me for the evening... I have this huge knot of anxiety in my solarplexus and it is making me want to be sick - the worst is I have no clue why it's there!

*hugs Faye* you are not a burden, or disgusting, or anything you seem to think. You are a fantastic person that we are all so glad to know.

*hugs Roots* anxiety sucks, hope you have fun with your friend!

*hugs dylan* hope you feel better soon hun

Had a good night with my friend - we made a cake off of pinterest and it was way too sweet to actually eat so we're sending it to people we love tomorrow and making them eat it... evil, I know :)

I start teaching my little kids camps tomorrow - beyond anxious for them and kinda wish I didn't have to go...

Another day to wake up, another day feeling like ****. Another day spent with people who trigger me. What have i done i mean really what have i done?

*hugs faye* who's triggering you honey? why do you have to be around them?

*curls into ball* think I'm losing my mind. Thoughts that aren't mine are pushing forward, but they're not talking to me. I can't make out what the whispers are saying. There's a rustling in the back of mind, and I can feel something screaming. My head aches.

i'm so ****ing scared of starting therapy again. my first meeting is next week.. and already my mind is racing with the things that i 'musn't' let her find out about.... :/ how the frack am i ever going to get better if i can never be honest wtith anyone all the way? i'm sick of being this weird effed up broken puzzle-masked lying fake fake fake

My family well my mum and brother they just make me feel so awful and my dad doesnt care. My mum talks to my dad and her friend about me behind my back. I hate it i cant bare it. I hide in my room as much as possible but i cant do that forever. I wish i could.

hun you need to get help, to get you through this. Are you going to see the dr?

*hugs all

Miss it here.

*hugs all*

Today was rough - had some really unruly kids who would not listen at all to me and I ended up being exhausted... Also - never try to explain vandalism to a five year old

*hugs Roots

I can't even imagine. Trying to explain it to a teenager is bad enough!

They were just rotten today and it didn't help my self esteem any at all

saw dr, referred to ED clinic. dont know when will see someone. keep cutting myself during the blank spaces. wish hed killed me. such a ****ing whore.

*hugs everyone* hope you're all ok