*hugs mark*
if you put less water in the tub and sit the cuts wont soak, right?

I dabbed at them but didn't really clean the injured area and it didn't seem to make them bleed much again , I Feel so stupid , and what am I going to do today? I'm already ugly enough and I just add scar after scar and I can't help myself :(

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Charlie*

How is everyone?

*huggles all*

Sorry I've been so quiet - I've had the startings of another week from hell. Things really haven't stopped since I got home from hospital. I am ... extremely over it. It doesn't help that I'm depressed and suicidal. But I guess I just have to "pull my socks up and get over it". By the way that was my parents suggestion. I don't normally wish someone dead, but I'm changing that rule for my parents. I've had enough of being treated like sh*t whilst my older brother and sister get everything they want from my parents handed to them on a silver platter.

*Squishes Kahlia* I'm sorry you are having such a rough time Hun :S

So my Dad comes to see me for a second consecutive day , and Tries to open the door to MY flat , my HOME andlet himself in , FFS I had the chain on I could be shirtless , injuring , in the bath anything! Is it reasonable for me to be pissed off ?

I'd be pissed off too, Mark. It's invading your space.

I had the housing inspection this morning and passed so i'll hopefully be getting an official offer of a house move very soon.

*hugs all* my friend who I'm staying with who is also trans is planning on coming out to her mum in a bit, her parents dont know I'm trans and she is going to tell them, cos atm they just think I'm a guy. I'm anxious.

*Hugs Oliver* Good Luck Mate .

*Hugs Lindsay* Congratulations Hun:) !

*Cuddles everyone*

*hugs all* my friend didnt do it, I feel so bad for her, its one of the hardest things to do. this time last year I came out to my mum and I remember how hard it is to just do it.

congrats on passing the inspection Lindsey

Mark I'm sorry your dad is invading your space, that is really is crap *hugs*

I'm sorry your having a tough time Kahlia *hugs*

*hugs Charlie* how are you?

*Hugs Oliver* Feeling a bit empty, but otherwise ok. You?

*Hugs Charlie*

*Hugs Oliver*

*hugs Charlie* feeling ill, I've ran out of meds as my doctor gives them to me in weekly dosages and I see her tomorrow, but one of them has severe withdrawal symptons.

*hugs Mark*

What meds are you withdrawing from Oliver? , If it's Effexor I've done that :S

*gives everyone hugs*

Kahlia -- I can def sympathize with that, cause my parents do that all the time in my family, except its my younger siblings XD

This week is not going well, it really sucks. I hate it when people tell me "I'm here if you need me" and aren't when i need them most... then complain at me when i end up hurting myself. WTH

its venlafaxine, I will get it again tomorrow, but its just making me feel so sick not having it.

my friend is coming with me when I go to the doctors and counselling tomorrow, I'm sort of glad as last week when I was at the doctors I had a big panic attack and ended up in hospital cos I thought everyone was going to kill me, but at the same time I'm a bit meh about her coming. I feel I need some space

*hugs everyone*
It is reasonable to expect some privacy in your own home, Mark.
Oliver, I'm glad she's there for you and like wise that you can be there to understand and help her with her transition. *offers mint tea to help not feel so ill*
Congrats on passing inspection, Lindsay.
sorry everyone, that's all the individuals I can recall after catching up on all the pages...

*hugs everyone*

I have not been sleeping still not, having nightmares.

"I'm proud of you" WTH does that mean? I tried talking to one of my friends that knows and thats what i get? No wonder i shut up XD

Some days I love my job other days I hate working here. :(
I found out that everyone got a slip to fill out for staff appreciation day (on what they pick for food)... everyone but me. I picked up the one on the shelf by the mail drop and filled it in anyhow. I am part of the staff damn it! I refuse to be pushed out of participating. On the other hand I just want to sit and cry... I spent all of last week covering the front desk, on tuesday afternoon my office got thrashed and i'm still cleaning it all up, the head boss is the only one that seems to notice or care and everyone else i just get bitched at from. It makes me want to quit. And I probably would if it weren't for the fact I'm buying a house and I have kids that rely on me. FML.
On to a better topic to mayhaps make my mood better...
*~advanced warning for WoW-speak~*
I finally got a character to lvl 50!! It's not so much that it's hard as much as I usually get bored with them and start a new toon around lvl 20 or 30... and even when they don't get tiresome I sometimes just can't be bothered to even play... :)

And I got 3 new records to use in my phonograph thanks to T doing a spring cleaning :D