*cuddles Helen back* - The surgery should mean that I have to worry no more about my shoulder popping out of it's socket. At least for 15 to 20 years or so. But all I can think of is all the things it's made me lose. Even though they are only short term losses. Kinda stupid I know.

*leaves hugs for everyone*

Not stuipd at all sweetie *squishes* When I last had surgery, I struggled to deal with it at times. :/

*Cuddles everyone*
Not in a fit state of mind to leave individual replies. Sorry.

kahila i had shoulder surgery 2 years ago now i was in a sling or 3 months and cudnt play netball for 6 and still havent gone bk to playing rugby properly. it nearly killed me not playing or getting my mum to do everything for me. i had an interior anterior capsular shift. i hope u get ur independence bk soon. if u wanna chat just pm me or sumthing. big hugs hope u recover soon

My sis is coming round tonight :)

Hugs to all.

I never ever want to end up in that f-ing hospital again.

I will try hard to maintain adequate mental health.

Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaah

Good for you Oly :)

And...er...good for you Pengy =P

*hugs all*

Struggling os bad.

*cuddles Helen*

Soo scared...so confused....tired of making everyone worry about me....
sorry i don't post except to get support, i don't give support very well sometimes....
will someone come hold me while i'm hiding in the corner?
*huddles and cries*

I have pills. I want to od. I just spent two hours talkign with my best friend which kept me safe. My sister's fast asleep so can't disturb her, she'd kill me for it. My sister's dog should be in his own bed but won't leave me either (he senses something's wrong?)....

*cuddles Rach*

*hugs Helen* - try and hold on hon and keep yourself safe

*leaves hugs for everyone*

When I have a day with nothing planned I get edgy like I am right now. Days seem so long ...

:( sorry need to hide away im so useless. heads all over place and just a bit of a mess right now. and to top it of ive just had to have my older foster sister/best friend admited to hospital im mkent to be there for her and i cant, im so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*hugs Katey*

thankyou, i cant handle all this right now. i tried to be there for her i really did but i cant look after me let alone her, i know that itsstresses her out to see me unwell n shes had to see me go through **** n ive been a major major major mess and its taken its toll on her too. why does it feel like everything i tough just falls apart, everything i try to do fails, and all my mates n close people just get hurt!!!!!

*hugs helen* please try to stay safe hun
*hugs kahlia* I get really restless on days where i do nothing as well, it sucks most of the time.
*hugs katey-lou* I'm sorry things are hard for you right now...

Things are going badly... and i don't think i'm even allowed to talk about it... so i guess i'll just bottle it up.

Haven't overdosed. Meh. Feel like I've been hit by a truck or something. In so much agony. :'( Need to go back sleep but means returning to that evil, horrible, blasted nigthmare :'(

*hugs Katey*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs Helen*

*hugs anyone who wanders in and needs a hug*

I made it through the day now I just have to make it through the night ... and I'm not sure I know how to do that. I slept okay last night so should sleep well tonight but I've been so edgy and restless all day so I'm worried this will affect things. Oh well.