*runs in dazed and drunk and confused* i need to talk to someone *bangs head on wall*

i..
*checks in*

Hey If anyone needs to chat im here all night
My Pm box is open as is my Myspace box and my MSN chat okay

*hugs* for everyone not feeling to great just now

Aww, Nikki that's so lovely of you.. =]

*Curls up in a corner and falls asleep*

*sits in corner and rocks back and forth*
Two appointments today...one about my meds, the other a follow up after my last disasterous counseling session (where I learned a very valuable lesson...never talk about suicidal ideation with your counselor)...
SO anxious now I feel awful...anxious, depressed, tired, ugh.
Thanks for listening.
*resumes rocking*

*hugs* Ally dont worry im here for you and so are the rest of the guys in here!

*gently strokes your hair while you rock*

*strolls in with paranoid look on face* hey everyone hey nikki

Thanks nikki, appreciate it...everything should be ok, I'm not exactly suicidal now so my counselor should leave me alone...just don't want to go...
*pours a cup of VERY strong tea and offers the pot around*

*takes tea and wraps self in a blanket* i have to see my Psychiatrist tommorrow, i need to find the strength to insist on a med change and i feel horrible *hugs ally*

*Creeps in*

*Hides*

*pops head round door* anyone need to talk

*hugs shadowedseraph*
sorry your not feeling up to it...please try though, you can do it...

Went to my appointments today...weren't as bad as I thought they would be, at least when all is said and done.

*curls up in corner with blanket, pillow, and stuffed lamb* am EXHAUSTED now though...

:woot: i can fly i can fly

im gonna go and fly dont tie me down im going to prove it

*wakes up from slumber and goes and hugs carole* hun *mwah* i am here if you need me

*runs in and hugs everyone*

*bounces*

*tries to fly off top of cupboard*

need something higher

be careful jo *runs and places mattresses under the high parts of the room*

need to find higher things-does this place have a second floor or a third or a millionth

dunno i was investigating i gave up after a while lol

i need somewhere higher i need a building

what for exactly hun

i want to try and fly i need somehwere high to jump from

just play in here hun so i can keep an eye on you

i need to do it i need to prove to people i can

noone believes me but noone will let me try and show them

:crying:

well come one i know of a place that is safe and you can do it *strats walking to the matress room* *walks back and hugs corole*

i need somewhere high im sorry im sorry im sorry


need locking away im sorry

*hugs tortured beauty then starts to make more tea for everyone* im cold

*hugs Steve and Shadowedseraph back* Thanks.

How are we all today?

hugs everyone...

can i go to the soft cushioned room please - i'm so triggered and being watched like a hawk... it was easier when no one knew... argh... ra

*checks in again*

Hey guys, things were going great now there not!
I aint heard from my rock in like a week now and im really worried!
I need to speak to him!!! HELP IM GOING CRAZY

Hi all...
*walks to corner, sits down, grabs knees and rocks a little*
Feel awful...wish my meds would kick in...
*sobs quietly*

Never done this before....

Need to be somewhere safe where someone can keep an eye on me:-(

*wanders in* hey anyone need some one to talk to or just a cup of tea

Ill Take a cup of Coffee!! not tea!!

Anyone Need Hugs??? Im Good at Giving hugs Just now

Strong tea please...just woke up anxious...SO not fair...all I want to do is cry but I can't...oh well...
Hey Steve, you ok?

*brings out tea tray* i put labels on the cups so everyonme knows which one is which

your coffee is there to nikki

*takes a fortifying swallow of tea and gives a big sigh*
Bless you steve :) what is it about tea? It's good for almost anything

tea is great for anything i love it too enjoy do you want to talk about anything ally

Naw, trying not to think too much...I'd like to get through the weekend without having more than transient suicidal thoughts...if I have to fess up to serious thoughts at my counseling session next week...nothing good can come from that...
Huh, guess I did need to talk about something...:)
You? How are you doing?

Not sure if i ever left here, but des anyone mind if i check whats left of my mind in.

*hugs kim, offers a fuzzy blanket*
Come on in and join the crowd hunni...sorry you're not doing well...

*takes blanket
Thanks
How are things for everyone else?

i am okay do you want a cup of tea kim

Anxious...but that's better than suicidal so I'm thinking that's an improvement...
U ok?

aww just popping to the kitchen *goes to kitchen and brings out the tray* everythings there you just need to decide what you want *picks up some hot choclatand some biccies*

Hi everyone.
Hope everyone's okay.

*hugs Ally and Kim then accepts a hot chocolate from the tray and retreats back to my corner*

*checks in*
gets a blanket and hides in corner,quietly crying.

:jumpin: i need to fly i need to do something and prove im indestructable-i need to be i am i need to be

*sits down and starts rocking*

need to move

no tired no sleep no food no need

i whacked my head of the wall as was so high i need help

or maybe i dont- i feel fine

Splipping up again are you okay?

*hugs* Im here if you need to talk okay?