Cmht called. Doing nothing. Speaking to my psych. I'm so so knackered and low.

Did you express to them how difficult things are for you? I hope that your psych can offer something useful. They can't leave you fighting like this.

I did as much as I could. Cpn was sympathetic but told me just to go to A and E if things got bad before I do stuff.

I'm loosing.

Would seeing psych at A&E be more helpful?

No. They hate me there.

I'm stuck.
And don't even have a bed to sleep in cos bertie pissed on it again. Because today's not been shit enough.

:(

Would telling people at A&E that you have been advised to go there mean that they might treat you differently? Or is there an A&E in another area that is sort of close that you could go to instead to see if they are more helpful?

Maybe keep Bertie out of your bedroom for now if that suits.

I don't want to go unless I have an injury and even then I might not.

I feel so hopeless. Why is it so awful?

Bertie is usually kept out yes.

Do you know what you do want? Anything safe that you really would like at the moment, maybe we can help you figure out a way to get even a little of what you need.

I want some time to rest without my head making it impossible.
I want the assessments to be arranged for next week like I asked.
I want prn for just in case so hopefully I can avoid a and e.
I want the cmht to support me.

Been to A and E for self harm again. Things are really rubbish. The thought of work tomorrow makes me want to cut again.

Would it help if you did?

Couldn't make things worse

That might be true but equally it won't make anything better either so it wouldn't be worth it. =/

I wish I knew what to say. I am really glad you are getting medical attention when you need it though, I know that can't be easy.

I wonder whether you need some respite. Do you think you need to be on a
N a acute ward for little? Are you getting pIp

I didn't cut. But I haven't gone into work either.

I don't get pip no. Respite would be too detrimental for me.

I'm sorry things are still awful. Have you at least managed to take some time to rest and get some of the things you need from yourself today?

I've done nothing by sleep all day on and off. I called cmht but no one was available.

Sleep is good.

It must be frustrating to once again find no support available from the people who are supposedly supporting you.

How are you feeling? Did sleeping help?