well I had my group for psych-social interventions this afternoon , I'm no good in groups , I just sat there and hoped I woulden't have to say anything , In the coffee break I snuck into the toilet and took a Diaz , I think I've said this already , I'm not over it yet though

*Hugs Claire*

*Hugs Heather* Thankyou for wishing me luck with my group earlier :) how are you ?

*hugs* I'm not very good in groups either. It's something that takes practice I think to get used to.

Right tomorrow, I have been told by my nurse(Sharron) that I should tell my befriending Woman (Becky) about my self injury so that she can properly support me , I agree that I should tell Becky , she probably knows if she has read my risk assesment but I am SO VERY anxious about telling her and don't know how to do it , any advice would be very gratfully received :)

yeah im not either >< *hugs lots*

hmm i dunno... write something out maybe? [i dunno, find it easier sometimes] <3

Yeah, I agree you could try writing something. It allows you to say everything you want to and means you won't forget or try to cover it up.

Yeah I could , I've done that before but gone and blurted it all out before I can given them what i've written heh.

curls up

*sits in corner sleepily*
on my own for dinner AGAIN... sick of this

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Heather* Do you live alone Heather? I do and eat alone most of the time , It can get lonley yep I hope it helps to know you're not alone in it :S sorry if it doesn't help.

Right I've pre-warmed my bed with a hot water bottle and an extra blanket , I hope everyone has a good evening / morning wherever you are and I'll be back tomorrow :) *Hugs Wardies goodnight*

not live alone [kinda wish did] but both parents working laaate.
but if stuck home by myself easier to listen to head =[ blech.

night mark, hope you sleep good =]

*wakes up and stretches* well that was a long nap i had since yesterday morning... 5 pages worth of napping.. lol just kidding - finally done with uni exams for the week.. been busy studying, definitely not sleeping.

*hugs everyone* sorry so many are struggling. My PM box is always open for anything.

*spys oliver and glomps* I'm happy to see you around! i've missed you.

lauraaaa :)

Erm got some really stuiped thoughts running through my head. Sorry I know it's late.

*huggles all*

Mark: Re the Raynaud's: Hopefully it won't have too much of an effect. I'll just have to keep an eye on things when I get cold. Like making sure my extremities don't get too cold in cold situations and stuff like that. Always carrying a jumper and so forth. Keeping myself warm wherever possible. It can be a sign that I'm going to have problems 10 to 20 years down the track but I'm impotent against anything until they strike. I guess I'm just struggling with the fact that I'm going to have tingling sensations in my face for the rest of my life unless it just stops of it's own accord. And the sensation really isn't pleasant. *shrugs*

Getting a bit tired of feeling sick, tired and stressed. It would be so easy to give in to the SI and SU urges right now ... And I keep asking myself if it would be such a bad thing just to give in. I don't know ...
I just don't know ...

*leaves hugs, cuddles and soft squishy stuffed animals with safe love and care packages for all in the common room and then seeks out a safe place to disappear into*

*Hugs Amy*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry you feel so low :(

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Jill*

Hey Amy :) How are you ?

I'm tired , up early for an appointment :S FIlling myself full of coffee heh :)

Thankyou Amy :) are you tired too ? yawning away:P

Wow , you're exactly 12 hours ahead of me :P

*Spots and Huggles Kahlia*

*hugs Mark back*

Just got my first assignment back. Have to keep pinching myself. Got a Distinction - nearly a HD. At one of the top 8 uni's in Australia after not having to write an academic assignment since 2000/2001. I literally can't believe it ... especially since it was with me being very mentally and physically sick and my computer dying all going on.

*Hugs Hugs hugs Kahlia* Thats Great!! I'm so pleased for you :D

*hugs Mark back* Thanks!! I still can't believe it. It just won't sink in.

cuddles all,. just being signed off work. and i get an phone call full of atatude(sp) from work. its so nice to know the managers there give a sh%t. hahaha that will be the day.

*Hugs Jill*

thanks mark, its just damn crap, dont think they would have cared if i had done somthing stuiped and killed myself. and the laugh of it is they are the ones that are causing all this. and im now dreading going back to work. **** might have made this all worse. curls up and hides.

sorry mark hows you today?

Jill , I would care if something would have have happened to you.

Me eh . Well I told my befriending woman Becky I S.I. which was a pretty big deal for me , I was so totally worried about her reaction but she was calm and I think concerend (Which made me feel guilty) But I told her and it should help to have another person to talk to about it , and will help me get the support I need ,Becky is a mental health befriender so she has probably heard it all before but it was a big step to tell her

thanks mark there just a bunch of a holes .
well done mark, i know how hard and scary that can be telling anyone that you selfharm. so well done on telling becky.
becky is worried because she cares about you. very proud of you mark. big bear hugs

*Bear Hugs Jill Back*

*hugs ward*
I'm reevaluating friendships... This is never good.

*Hugs Felicia*I don't understand what you mean , sorry but if it's never good is there something else you can focus your energy on , sorry crap advice I think.........

Basically it means that I think none of my friends are really my friends, which means I'll more than likely pull away from all of them. I don't like this, but I can't stop it. None of my friends have shown me they're real. They're all letting me down.
Or maybe everything's just getting to me. I can't tell.

*Hugs Felicia*

Life.

Life Lia? *Hugs*

Felicia ~ Sometimes it can be good to reevaluate your friendships. I have had to do this twice. One of the people I care deeply about but every time I was feeling better he dragged me back down to where I was so miserable that dying seemed the only way out. The other had lied to me and it hurt not just me but my family and that didn't help my mental state either. These were good times to re evaluate friendships. Just try not to push everyone away. I know this is easier said than done. And I know that sometimes we push everyone away without the step of reevaluating the friendships as well *hugs* No matter what happens though us wardies are here for you :) (I hope that all made sense...got kinda rambly and wordy...)

*hugs Mark and Lia*

Yesterday got quite busy for me... but I've been reading along as I had the chance. I may not get another chance to get in here till Tuesday but I'll try :)
*leaves hugs, care packs, and chocolates for everyone*

*hugs everyone then hides*

That is great news, well done. Proud of you. *hugs*

*hugs back and thanks for the chocolates* Watch yourself.

How are you nicole?

*hugs everyone else*

I'm not great today

*cuddles everyone*

Feeling rough today, slept badly, had problems with my gallbladder and just generally feeling down. Had awful nightmares too last night when I was asleep. *shudders*

*Hugs Louise* Whats the matter ?

*Hugs Nicole* How are you ?