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Kahlia1981 05-06-2010 12:35 PM

*hugs/waves at all ward mates*

Heather: Your post made me miss summer, lol. I'm sorry it was so hot for you though. We get some nasty weather in summer, 34+ degree (Celsius) with high Humidity, so I can understand where you are coming from. *glomps*

Julie: Sorry to hear your foot hurts. Have you done something to injure it? *offers huggles*

Kathryn: *hugs* I have DID and schizoaffective disorder and have been treated with CBT, DBT and ACT at different times. The DBT did absolutely nothing for me, not even in relation to my SI, but I hope that it does something for you. I knew that ACT had touches of Buddhism as it is basically a therapy created from a mix of the two, but I wasn't aware that DBT did. Interesting. Anyway, to echo Mark, good luck with your therapy.

Mark: *cuddles* My day has been extremely interesting. Thank you very much for your well wishes.

Things today have been . . . interesting. I wrote about it in my thread, and to save re-hashing you can just read it there. I've only linked to the post in question, so please feel free to alter the URL if required.

Very, very cold and very, very tired. I think I shall sleep.

Doikers 05-06-2010 12:39 PM

Wow Kahlia thats a lot to read , I can't do that right now ( Focus of a knat) but I'll try to try again later ok , sorry

Scarletdreamer 05-06-2010 12:50 PM

I didn't cut last night... but I came pretty close... then Jarrod came home. :-S He doesn't know how bad it was... :-/ ...and I'm not going to tell him.

I'm really quite tired... got up about 20 minutes ago. I have to write my "midterm report" on my internship, and I have no idea how to do that!! It's supposed to be in APA style, which I know, but I don't know exactly how he (my advisor/faculty supervisor) wants me to do it - because I don't think I'll be using any references? So I really have no clue... feel so stupid. :( And I NEED to get this done, it's not just something I can "skip over" because I think it counts for a lot of points and I don't want to get a C or something on my internship. :'(

I'm so sick of this. I just want uni to be OVER WITH. :'(

*hides in a deep, dark part of the warren where no one can find her* :'(

jonikd 05-06-2010 12:57 PM

*hugs Mark, Kahlia, April, Julie tight*

April, I love your birthday pics and your cello rocks. Its nice to see you HAPPY! in those photos, hang on to it babe, you totally don't need to respond to my PM, I just wanted you to know I care 'K?

Kahlia, I read your post, as I read most of your stuff. Wish I could be here more for you, but that's cool. I am here, and one day you might want to talk *hugs*

Taz, you are quite awesome, and your replies must be hard work and are very much appreciated *also hugs*

Kat, your response a few pages back is epic, and don't think I'd ever be up to that level of detail and commitment. Thank you.

Laura, I am worried about you and feeling for you. I've offered before and I do it again, I'm here if you need to talk

Helen, I still here for you too hun.

Julie, what happened to your foot babe? Nice to "chat" to you today

To everyone else, I am thinking about you all, but once again have had meds and too much to drink [note to self must stop that]

I miss Nicole and Oliver and often wonder where they're at *sighs*

Hayley and Crimson you guys too I look up to and love it when you're around.

Today I have been "passively suicidal" which kinda sucks, but made it through and off to bed now. Rahhh.

Anyway, raving now, nite all
xx

xxjuliexx 05-06-2010 12:59 PM

dad thinks maybe i rolled my ankle and my combat fitness class

Doikers 05-06-2010 01:00 PM

*Hugs April * I'm sorry you are having a hard time of it , I Just missed you on FB I had set my P.C. to shut down and then you poked me and by the time I got back online you were gone , really sorry , I don't really understand your uni stuff having never attended myself but I'm sure you can do your internship and do it really well , you did the main bit of uni now how many weeks of your internship have you left? You CAN do it , I totally beleive in you April :)

Ohh April you added me as your RYL Brother , made me smile :) TY

one_step_closer 05-06-2010 02:35 PM

Hi everyone.

wolfos3d 05-06-2010 02:46 PM

*waves* hi.

MammaMia 05-06-2010 03:35 PM

*offers hugs to all*

Kahlia, I do take time out for me ;) Am still very worried about said best friend (and now my other one too), can't get in contact because her phone's either off or dead as it's going straight to voice mail =[

Scarletdreamer 05-06-2010 04:08 PM

*cuddles everyone who can accept them*

I spies a Hels!! :D and a Wolf. :D

Welcome, Wolf (I don't know your first name so is there anything you'd rather be called?) - both to this thread and to RYL. :) I'm April.

Hey Lindsay... how are you doing? & how are you liking the course you're taking? (sorry, don't know exactly what it is!!)

Hels, I'm sorry that you are so worried about your besties. That has to be really rough on you. *extra cuddle* I hope you take some healthy time for you... :) because you deserve it.

Kahlia, having a broken up night of sleep really does suck. :( No worries about "whinging" about it... it's really hard keeping up with, well, life, when you're exhausted. (Hehe - tell me about it - even though I get plenty of sleep I'm always exhausted.) How are you doing otherwise?

Laura, hon, I'm worried about you too... PM box is open whenever. Please remember that, 'kay, love?

Mark, love, how are you doing this morning/afternoon? Hopefully better than you were yesterday - so sorry we couldn't chat for longer, wish we could've. :( But I had to go out to eat with my parents and sister, otherwise I probably would've cut or something, I don't know. :-S I'm so glad that I help you though!! *extra cuddles*

JK, how are you doing, sweet? ♥ Hopefully sleeping as I type this... :)

Kat, Kathryn, Oliver, Julie, Nicole, Taz, Shaz, and anyone else I missed - how are you all doing? *cuddles all*

I'm really tired. Just got back from shopping, got a few things... and Taz, I'll try to take a pic of that panda shirt just for you. ;) Although probably not on me as I'm, erp... yeah... ugly. :-S

Jarrod's off doing his motorcycle safety training course now, it's 10:10am and he'll be gone for another while, makes me want to cut 'cause he's out having fun and I'm not really, and I'm stressed over my internship, and I'm alone and lonely............. :crying:

Never mind. I'll be okay.

:-S

wolfos3d 05-06-2010 04:41 PM

My first name's Jessica. I'm not really fussed what people call me, as long as it's nothing insulting. :) *hug*

Doikers 05-06-2010 06:30 PM

Hi Jessica *Waves*

CrazyHayley 05-06-2010 06:36 PM

Hello there my fellow wardies! I've popped in on an outpatient basis as I promised I would!

*goes around the ward to give appropriate tlc to all her wardmates*

So busy as usual with the unfortunate usual struggles :( I so wish that I could wave a magic wand and help you all more. *sends out positive thoughts and comforting prayers*

I've been doing ok. Wasn't sure on the 3rd of june if I could celebrate 11 months free or not as I had the slip up last month....but it was only 1 little cut....I just feel like I'd be lying if I said I was free....but then only you guys in here know that I slipped up, so to people IRL I am 11months free....hmm...

Anyhoo, Reggie the rabbit had his bunny health check and 1st injection yesterday and is settling in well but really doesn't want to be handled. I may not be cutting atm, but my arms have never looked so bad!! (though thats cos my place of choice was always my legs...anyhoo...) He likes being stroked when its on his terms, but when he wants to play he has none of it! Apart from the awkwardness in setting up the laptop cos of the wires and having to make sure he's in his hutch when I do my physio, our first week together went smoothly. I think its really good for me to have him now, the time passes so much more quickly and he keeps my mind focused on him other than random thoughts. So now with no PMDD to deal with, I think he'll be great furry therapy for me to help me cope with the depression I get due to my M.E.

Sorry to waffle about me, but I wanted to share my good news and improvements with those who I shared my struggles with. You all mean a great deal to me and are always in my thoughts and healing prayers.

*toddles out to smoking shelter*

"oh puppy sinclair are you coming out?!"

CrazyHayley 05-06-2010 06:43 PM

*sprays self with pretty smelling stuff so as to not stink of fags*

Eoghan will be round soon for dinner and a dvd evening, but I've just noticed that I'm one quest away from acheiving 250 quests! Whoop whoop!! So think I need to try and complete a quick quest before he arrives! Hope my fellow WoW'ers are still enjoying themselves and finding it a good distraction.

*extra tlc for all those who want it*

Doikers 05-06-2010 06:44 PM

*Pounces on Hayley*
Hey I think 11 months counts , Well done you!!! *Bounces* I Drank over a 10 day period and went back to sobriety and I know how a "blip" go's . Glad you are having fun with your bunny , It would be so cool if I could have a pet but wer're not aloud, although they have fish and a parrot in my neighbours so hummmm I don't know .
*Squishes Hayley*

Scarletdreamer 05-06-2010 06:52 PM

I spy a Hayley and a Mark!! Mark, I poked you on FB and you're not responding... *pouts* Lol, it's okay if you're otherwise occupied. :)

Hayley, so glad that you're doing so much better!! *cuddles* And thanks for updating us about everything... :) I've missed your posts. Have you played WoW lately? If so, how's it going? :D I just got off it actually, started mining on my hunter (level 39, has been for about a year, lol - she's the only toon I have that I don't play on without Jarrod, because she was my first toon and so is very special to me :D)... wheeee. I love leveling professions, hehe, and she didn't even have any!! :-O And I moved my miner to another server, so I decided she should be the one to mine. Woohoo. :) Anyway... glad that Reggie is settling in well. Yeah, rabbits can be cccrazy when they're playing!! lol... I'm sorry you're all scratched up though. :(

Mark, how are you?? *cuddles*

I'm really tired and I've a bit of a headache going on at the moment... my shoulders are tense too... I think it's because of all of the stuff that I have going on today. Well, I don't have anything going on but I REALLY NEED to write that stupid midterm report and I have no clue how to do it, so yeah... will probably just wing it. :( Hate doing that!!!

*deep sigh* :(

Jarrod should be home soon... yey.

Scarletdreamer 05-06-2010 06:55 PM

Oooh 250 quests... hehe... that's awesome. :D

And yes, I do think that 11 months should count!! even though you had a "blip" in the middle... so CELEBRATE!!! *does the happy dance just for you* :D

*huggles*

Doikers 05-06-2010 07:22 PM

How am I ? Hmm well I haven't cut , but I want to , I crawled out of bed at 10.30 am then went back to bed from 1 - 4 pm then got up shopped for cereal , made and eat dinner despite not feeling like food and thats brought my here , I'm really low . Horribly depressed right now , I want to hurt myself and I don't know why, well I know why , but I don't know the why of the why , make sense? , I a going to try a distract myself on WoW for a bit . I HATE depression :(

Sorry April I was dinner making / eating when you poked me :)

one_step_closer 05-06-2010 08:14 PM

*hugs Mark*

Doikers 05-06-2010 08:28 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* Thankyou :)

MammaMia 05-06-2010 08:48 PM

*cuddles all*

Good to hear from you Hayley *squishes you lots*

Sorry for the lack of individual posts...

Doikers 05-06-2010 09:24 PM

Helen ! *Hugs ya*

MammaMia 05-06-2010 09:35 PM

Maaaark *hugs tight*

Scarletdreamer 05-06-2010 10:04 PM

*cuddles Hels* What's up, love?

*cuddles Mark* Awh, sweet, I'm sorry you're feeling so awful. :( I wish we could've talked on Facebook, just went on there now and you were still "idle" so I daren't poke you again, heh. Hopefully you are feeling a bit better after/during playing WoW... I know that it usually helps me some. :) Are you glad that you started playing?

I spy a Laura!! *cuddles* How are you, hon? I'm worried about you...

I'm at my parents' right now, hanging out and just having fun, although I've almost fallen asleep twice. Haven't started on my midterm report because, well, I don't know what to say in it!! Very very frustrating. :( My prof hasn't emailed back yet about it... I didn't expect him to within a few hours but I was hoping... :( GRRRRR!!!!

Tonight there's a thing at our church for college-aged/young adults... I think that Jarrod and I are going but it's from 8pm-11pm and I am pretty sure that I will be dying from exhaustion halfway through. Ugh. Usually at the latest I am in bed by 10:30pm, and we won't be home until 11:30 unless we leave a bit early. :-S Gahhh... so I'm not positive that we'll be going.

*sighs*

*hides in a dark corner* :(

SoMuchMore 05-06-2010 10:07 PM

ok i'm going to try to catch up some...

*hugs hayley* you definitely should celebrate 11 months still! *throw confetti* Its good to hear from you too! Im glad you are feeling better!

*cuddles helen* How r u doing today?

*hugs mark* I hope that you were able to distract yourself. I'm sorry that you are feeling so poorly today

*hugs april* sorry that you are feeling so tense hun. Im glad to hear that you didn't cut last night though. Its hard, but keep trying to fight those thoughts. Good luck doing your write up. I hope that if you decide to go to your church thing you have a good time. How else r u doing today?

Ooo and I spy you!

*squishes JK* Hey! its nice to hear from you! Hope that you managed to get to sleep okay.

*hugs kahlia* Im gonna try to catch up reading your thread later today. Hope that you are doing alright.

*hugs kat, lindsay, taz, crimson, hannah, heather, oliver (wherever you are..), julie and everyone else* and *waves at the new people* Hi! I'm laura!

To everyone that said they were worried about me - please you dont need to worry. I never really do anything too bad. I feel like i have been spiraling downward lately but it has to stop eventually right? Thanks though. I really appreciate you guys and its nice to know that i am cared about, even if i cant see you guys in real life.. wish i could sometimes.

I had training #2 for work today. Hopefully the real work days will go better, i have a hard time working when someone is watching over my shoulder the whole time so i made a lot of mistakes.. stupid anxiety was thru the roof. I'm home now tho, so hopefully the anxiety will decrease soon.

katnovia 05-06-2010 10:23 PM

*cuddles everyone* no epic responses tonight *rubs eyes* so tired from just reading and I have to go get sleep. I ache after too much gardening today! I so need a gardener, and some homehelp, I just cant cope with this place, it's too big! Going to let the others have their say as i've had them locked up all day with all my barriers and stuff well up because my mother was here.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : Altars posting, long and uncontrolled.

I dont wanna be here anymore. Im so ****ed off with living. I dont wanna carry on with the police report. I hate it, and I hate Kat for making me go through it. Now I dont feel safe anywhere and it's kat's fault.


Me tired aand me want my barbie dolss but kat sold them a long time ago and its not fair becasue she didnt ask me if i still wanted them and I dont likt the nasty feelings we having


Kat needs to sort her ****ing act out and come out of denial, it's not doing her any ****ing good. Why am I even here. None of you like me. ****.

Hmm.
The system is a mess.
How to fix it?
All these questions.
Too many people.

SHUT UP. ALL OF YOU. YOU ARE ALL MAD. I AM THE ONE. I AM THE ONE. Ignore them all. They are liars and idiots. I am the controller. It belongs to me. You are all mad. All of you. I hate you all.

Back shadow.
You lie.
You are not welcome.
Back.
You will not destroy.
I will protect.


EDIT: decided upon reading it to hide that, got a lot more than I bargained for. sorry guys.

SoMuchMore 05-06-2010 10:29 PM

*hugs kat* your last response was pretty epic! It was impressive. :-) and we really appreciate you taking the time to try to reply to everyone. I hope that you can get some rest tonight.

*waves to rosie, amy, 'miel, and sarah* (i dont know if any of u like hugs so i thought i'd be careful and just wave for now)

I wish i knew what to say.. I know so little about alters... No need to be sorry though. Its prolly good to let them get their feelings out too.
*sets out a box of hugs for those who want them*

anarchistl0ve 05-06-2010 10:38 PM

*Finds empty comfy place and sits* I have returned to the place where for the most part I feel like I am a valued friend and person.

Doikers 05-06-2010 10:47 PM

*Waves to anarchistl0ve* How are you today?

anarchistl0ve 05-06-2010 10:53 PM

Could be better, Learned soemone I called a best friend for 7yrs does not feel the same way. She told someone else she calles a best friend that shes engeged i found out via some happy mass message on her status update.

Doikers 05-06-2010 10:55 PM

oh , I;m sorry to hear that , *Hugs if ok*

Doikers 05-06-2010 10:59 PM

Crickey I better be getting to bed , I'l; try and have a better day tomorrow , go out and buy the correct dressings ......... if the chemists is open on a Sunday . I Want to Harm , I want to harm seriuosly , but NO!! I'm going to bed and sleep and that is that

" Asleep is the safest place you can be" - Biffy Clyro.

anarchistl0ve 05-06-2010 11:02 PM

thanks *hugs to you too* be strong

shadowedsoul 05-06-2010 11:17 PM

Argh!!!! This keeps getting better and better not, was
told somthing yesterday that was hard to take and hear.
bloody hell why now, after 2 months. really can't go
back to that place, it was so messed up and crazy. Crap
not now. =[

risenfromperdition 06-06-2010 03:13 AM

*sits in corner*
rawr

wolfos3d 06-06-2010 03:20 AM

Rawr indeed. *nods*

Kahlia1981 06-06-2010 05:36 AM

*huggles/waves at all*

Firstly, welcome and welcome back to the new faces and to those who haven't been in here for awhile.

Secondly, sorry for the length of the post in my thread that I linked to - but you can see why I didn't try to repost as much of it as was relevant in here ... would have made it way too long.

Thirdly, I'm just stopping by for a quick read so my apologies for not giving you all individual replies, but I want you all to know that I have been reading and am thinking of you all.

anarchistl0ve 06-06-2010 07:51 AM

Aww thanks for thinking of us even if it isnt deeply personal. Just knowing I am cared for means alot to me lately<3

xxjuliexx 06-06-2010 07:54 AM

hi anarchistl0ve i'm julie
welcome

Kahlia1981 06-06-2010 08:09 AM

How are you doing Becca? *offers hugs if that's okay*

Hey Julie, how are you doing hun? *big hugs*

xxjuliexx 06-06-2010 08:22 AM

i'm f--e.... just f--e :notsure:

anarchistl0ve 06-06-2010 08:57 AM

Kahlia hugs are always welcome. I am a little better not perfect but better

Kahlia1981 06-06-2010 11:32 AM

Julie: *hugs*

Becca: Sometimes all we can wish for is to be a little better. A little better today than we were yesterday. *huggles*

Just dropping in quickly to say that I got my assessments back and I have successfully completed both of the subjects I attempted. I have therefore passed Stage 1 which I only started on Wednesday last week lol. Woot!!

*leaves hugs and safe care packages for all on the table*

Doikers 06-06-2010 11:44 AM

*Plops into computer chair*
Good morning , afternoon , evening everyone :)

Way to go Kahlia!! Congratulations on completeing your first 2 sections :) Proud you should be :)

*Hugs Anarchitsl0ve*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Wolfos*

Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Shadowedsoul*

Hmm I don't know how my day is going to go yet today, optimispic smiley face !! :-)

xxjuliexx 06-06-2010 11:51 AM

thanks for the hugs guys

frenchhorn 06-06-2010 11:55 AM

*cuddles all who want cuddles*
wow there has been 12 pages since I was last in here, I've been away on an orchestra course with no internet for a week. I shall catch up with stuff at some point, but atm I am too sleepy to concentrate.

xxjuliexx 06-06-2010 11:57 AM

OLIVER!!! welcome back man *hugs super tight* i missed u *hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**h ugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs*

frenchhorn 06-06-2010 12:12 PM

*hugs Julie back* I've missed everyone in here too,

I've sort of skimmed read through the pages I have missed.
Nice photos April, looked like you had a good birthday and that certainly is a beautiful cello, have fun learning it.

Doikers 06-06-2010 12:50 PM

HEEE *hugs Oliver* Welcome back !! :-)

katnovia 06-06-2010 01:40 PM

good to see you oliver, missed you! *Huggles*


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