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xxjuliexx 18-12-2010 12:45 PM

nearly sleep

one_step_closer 18-12-2010 12:55 PM

I hope you're managing to sleep, Owen.

Doikers 18-12-2010 01:35 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you today?

youngatheart 18-12-2010 01:47 PM

Hi everyone, how are you all today?

FlyingNy 18-12-2010 02:07 PM

*Hugs Sam Mark and Lindsey*

How's everyone?

I'm alright, just annoyed since there's a good layer of snow outside and it's falling fast and heavy. Usually, I am a child at heart and love snow, but not when I am meant to be getting a train all the way to the city tomorrow. I can't get there any other way and by the looks of things, they won't be running tomorrow, which means 35 down the drain and a good weekend screwed. I was meant to be going to the theatre to see Ghost Stories. And today, I was meant to be going to lunch with friends, but she cancelled without an apology. So my good weekend has turned into jack (nothing). *Sigh* oh well. It will soon be Christmas.

Doikers 18-12-2010 02:20 PM

*Hugs Lia* Maybe you can get your Train money back ?

*Hugs Sam* How are you?

I've just had my Neighbours 16 year old son in , made tea for him , His Mum dropped him off and he walked up to his Dad's/My Neighbour but My Neighbour isnt in and his son wasn't wearing and kind of thick jacket or gloves and it's cold here so I asked if he wanted to wait in my flat. He has just gone out to find out if my neighbour/ his Dad is in now .

Doikers 18-12-2010 02:29 PM

Well My Neighbours back and has his son in:) He could have come back to say his Dad was back but in the end after he was gone for a few minutes I went looking for him because he just vanished heh , Oh well all sorted .

youngatheart 18-12-2010 02:33 PM

*hugs* Lia ~~ sorry to hear about your friend today, the least they could have done was apologise and I really hope your day tomorrow isnt ruined.

*hugs* Mark, Im fine thanks. Got a bad back and the painkillers madem e feel icky so won't be taking them again. Cant be drowsy whilst looking after 4 kids! haha
That was nice of you to let that lad wait in your flat, its too cold to be waiting outside!

Doikers 18-12-2010 02:42 PM

*Spots and HUUUUUUGS Oliver* How are you Oliver?

*Hugs Sam's Bad Back* Is there another kind of pain killer you could take?

MammaMia 18-12-2010 03:08 PM

*sends big cuddles for all* Am busy this afternoon doing stuff (mostly tidy related lol) as my Nan wouldn't let us (me and my Mum) go visit her. Plus my room really does need tidying & stuff =/

misskitty112 18-12-2010 03:27 PM

*hugs ward*

FlyingNy 18-12-2010 03:34 PM

*Hugs Felicia and Helen*

I'm kinda used to people letting me down without being sorry. No one's ever sorry, because I don't have feelings you see. I put on a front so much, they think I don't give a toss. I don't have emotions and I'm not worth an apology. The odd thing is, I actually don't mind being cancelled on. It's annoying, but people have other things to do, I accept that. It's that they can't even manage a polite 'sorry' that I do mind. Anyway, end of rant.

My other friend is a babe. She paid the extra money to insure our tickets, so if we can't get there, we should get our money back.

Sam, have you tried normal painkillers? Or are they not strong enough?

Doikers 18-12-2010 03:42 PM

*Hugs Helen* You're a busy bee :)

*Hugs Lia* Yey for getting your money back !:)

*Hugs Felicia* How are you hun?

misskitty112 18-12-2010 03:51 PM

*hugs Mark*
I'm debating boycotting the celebration of Christmas.
I don't like this unfair splitting of holidays my family has put on me.
I don't want to have to celebrate with my stepfamily instead of my actual family.
It's not okay. at all.

Doikers 18-12-2010 03:52 PM

My Mum on Wednesday ish said to me How much longer are you going to be on the Antabuse for, you've been on it longer than anyone said....

I saw Hannah L had Wine yesterday and it struck me how totally normal it is for people of our age (30) to treat themselves to a glass of wine or a beer every so often.

I am low and a little alcohol would help, short term , and I can't keep cutting , I cut because I feel Low, I drink and it numbs it down so ...I don't cut , and I'm not talking about getting totally pissed , just comfortably numb , that "Glow"

So I went out and bought some alcohol , I can't drink it yet as I was taking Antabuse up until yesterday morning but after Christmas I'll give Drinking responsibly another shot I think, I'll make it my new years resolution perhaps .

Doikers 18-12-2010 03:53 PM

*Hugs Felicia* That does sound unfair , Can you see both ends of your Family perhap , if not both on Christmas Day one on Boxing day?

misskitty112 18-12-2010 04:05 PM

I'm already spending Christmas Eve with my grandparents on my dad's side.
And I was supposed to see my grandparents on my mom's side Christmas Day, and mom was supposed to come to their house too. But she called me and said Christmas was at her house, so I asked my grandparents and they threw a fit and said I had to choose, they don't take substitute holidays, and my mom's said the same thing.
I just won't go anywhere, damn it. I'm not going to be the cause of this fight.

Doikers 18-12-2010 04:07 PM

Awh *Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry hun, but you are NOT the cause of this fight no way.

MammaMia 18-12-2010 04:08 PM

Mark, is that really a wise idea? :| You don't seem to able to use it responsibility. Yes alcohol DOES numb it, but also makes depression worse. If you're not careful and didn't have anti-abuse, you'd be drinking it an awful lot by sounds of things. God I'm trying to say helpful things but it's coming out all wrong & nasty >.>

Felicia, that sounds really **** honey :( *hugs*

Lia, glad your friend got insurance on the tickets. I might get that for when I buy tickets to see my bestie in Feb as it could still snow & everything :S Sucks that people don't apologies when cancelling :( They should do it even if they have the idea that you have no emotions or whatever when you do...*hugs*

Doikers 18-12-2010 04:18 PM

*Hugs Helen* You didn't come over as nasty hun :) I just , I know there's a chance I'll not be able to control it but I just feel so crap ALL . THE . TIME . Ack! I don't know what else to do. Thanks for replying though Helen:)

FlyingNy 18-12-2010 04:21 PM

I've just decorated the Christmas tree all on my tod, but I do feel rather festive now :)

Felicia, that sucks about familes. You shouldn't have to chose, it's not fair on you. But I don't like the sound of you just spending Christmas on your own. What about your brother? Are you seeing him at all?

Mark, i agree with Helen. I'm not sure it's a good idea. I tell myself I will do something sensibly, just one more cut, it won't hurt, just carry those pills to feel secure, you don't need to take them...when really it's a problem in itself that I even need that 'one cut' or that bottle.

*Hugs everyone*

*Spots and gives special hugs to Kitty*

Doikers 18-12-2010 04:22 PM

I'm just going to crawl back into bed until 5pm.........:(

*Hugs Lia* Thanks .

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 04:27 PM

*cuddles everyone* I got some shoes to match my dress today :) Alas they're heeled sandals so whilst going from home to my nans I'll be in big wellies :p

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 04:35 PM

Oh Mark I hope you're okay. x

FlyingNy 18-12-2010 04:41 PM

*Hugs Mark* Stay safe.

*Hugs Sarah*

Doikers 18-12-2010 04:52 PM

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Sarah*

Well I got out of bed , GOD I feel like crying but it just won't come :S To top it all off now I have an headache , I'm going to take some pain killers and put re-runs of Friends on . Trying to force myself to feel better doesn't work .

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 05:06 PM

*cuddles Mark* I wish I could do more for you. :(

misskitty112 18-12-2010 05:24 PM

*Cuddles Mark* I'm sorry. I love you, dear.

Well...My day just got shot to hell. My mom causes so much stress, my grandparents don't even want me around anymore. They told me I should quit uni and leave their house. *sigh*

I think I'm just gonna lay in bed and cry now.

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 05:26 PM

Oh Felicia *cuddles* I hope they don't mean it. My family have said that to me more times than I care to remember :( I just wish I could rescue you all and run away somewhere safe where everything is happy and lovely :(

Doikers 18-12-2010 05:27 PM

*Hugs Sarah* Thanks , just having people around helps

*Hugs Felicia* I love you too hun :) I'm sorry you are in such a difficult position:(

Cazki 18-12-2010 05:30 PM

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen*

Doikers 18-12-2010 05:31 PM

*Hugs Ian* How are you this evening?

misskitty112 18-12-2010 05:33 PM

*hugs Mark and Sarah* I love you guys. You're pretty much the family I wish I had.

I hope they don't mean it. But I know they do, my mom causes problems for them, and if I'd leave they wouldn't have to deal with it. Somedays, I wish I could just die and solve all their problems. Then no one would have to deal with me.

I really need to wrap Christmas gifts, but I can't... not now.

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 05:34 PM

I love you guys, you mean the world to me. You're amazing and there have been times when the ward has kept me going. I just hope I've helped everyone as much as they helped me.

Mum was on about my weight gain today... I saw my nurse Tuesday and she wasn't concerned by it at all. Mum keeps saying its a health scare, but its just because I'm not as small as my sister. What she doesn't know is she's skipping meals to be that size, I don't skip meals. But I'm not the perfect daughter. I'm the crazy messed up fat one that doesn't deserve their attention. Yeah sure skinny jeans give me a bit of a muffin top with my hips, but I'd just gotten comfortable with my shape and she goes and does that... Ah sweet Relentless. Caffeine...

Cazki 18-12-2010 05:35 PM

Im ok thanks Mark, im sorry your struggling :( *Hugs* im sorry that alot of you are struggling in here. Hope you all feel betterr soon. I noticed that the ok thing on the moods has gone weird lol.

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 05:38 PM

*hugs Ian* glad you're okay :)

Doikers 18-12-2010 05:41 PM

*Hugs Felicia* Please don't Die Hun , We would all miss you SO MUCH

*Hugs Sarah*It's good that you are comfortable with your shape:) don't let your Mum make you feel bad about it Hun.

I just had a bath to relax me, But Sitting on my bed right before hand I had a Suicidal URGE not a thought an URGE , the first one I've had since I was last Depressed , and it's scared me , later I will light inscence and candles and try and relax , eat first though , Does anyone know what I can do about my Urge ? sorry........

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 05:44 PM

I don't know Mark, just stay distracted then sleep I think. Last time I had one my fiance made me go to hospital, as in called an ambulance and they forced me to go up there.

Don't die Felicia, we all love you here, I know I do, you're like a sister to me <3 All the ward is like my family <3

She keeps telling me its for my health, but its not. Its really not.

nicole94 18-12-2010 05:50 PM

*hugs everyone*
We have about 5 inches of snow now. It looks lovley. But i'm still really triggerd :(

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 05:51 PM

Hi Nicole *cuddles* I'm here for the next 2h if you need a distraction x

misskitty112 18-12-2010 05:54 PM

I agree with Sarah, Mark. Try to keep yourself distracted. I always put on super loud upbeat music and try to dance it away. of course, I completely understand if that's not your thing.

Sarah, don't let her get to you, I'm sure you're fine the size you are. And it's super great that you're comfortable with it, don't let her take that! And you're like a sister to me too <3

Trying to distract myself, watched my dance recital from '07. That's the last year I danced competively. I miss it. I want to go back, kind of. Too bad I can't.. .oh well...

nicole94 18-12-2010 05:55 PM

*hugs sarah* thanks hun :) My family are all going out soon, so i think when they are gone I will have a nice relaxing bath and calm down :)

Doikers 18-12-2010 05:58 PM

*Hugs Felicia* Music really helps , Dancing hmmmmmmm I don't really have the room and I have to be aware of bothering my neighbors ( There are 4 of us in this building but music is a great Idea :)

SparkleKitten 18-12-2010 06:10 PM

Does seem good, shame my poor legs fail. I need to give it a go really, I'd be more for ballroom though than anything else :)

Doikers 18-12-2010 06:18 PM

*Hugs Sarah* I'm feeling a little better now , I'm going to light my Inscence and candles now................... Okay Done , now when Fiends ends I'll put on some music :) What are you up to Sarah?

marshki 18-12-2010 06:18 PM

how are you today?
i'm so not in the christmas spirit...need to hide under the tree

risenfromperdition 18-12-2010 06:19 PM

*hugs felicia* no dying *pokes gently*
ily :(
sorry things are so rough for you :/
here if i can help at all.
stay strong sweetheart.

*hugs mark :)*
hi to everyone else :)

misskitty112 18-12-2010 06:20 PM

I'm glad I could help, Mark. :) Maybe one day I'll teleport you to my house, and we'll go dancing?

Oooh, ballroom is so much fun, Sarah!

risenfromperdition 18-12-2010 06:22 PM

i wish i could dance lol

misskitty112 18-12-2010 06:24 PM

You can dance with me, Heather. I'll teach you. mhm :)


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