I dont' want to beat it just yet... tongiht will be the last ones ever. i swear *nods* yep.... i'm just going to make it count.

:( please be safe jess. i know i can't stop you if you really want to do it. but i really wish you wouldn't. it feels like it will help but really it doesn't. is there anything you could do instead?

i just... iw ant this. really badly. i dun know why.

*hugs jess*
leave it for now talk to me instead!

sorry i wasn't about when lots of people were hurting

dont b sorry. is k.

i'm k.

no you're not hun, but its all right not to be ok all the time. you've come this far, you're still here, just keep reminding yourself of all the good stuff, like hairy nipples :p and shopping malls in sydney - you had fun, right? and think of people you love, they don't want you to cause yourself pain sweetheart.

hey diamond. hope you're ok.

i need sleep now. will check back in tomorrow.

i giggled... :P thanks sweets. sleep well.

i really am ok. tat's the problem. i'm not bothered that this is upsetting people. i shol dbe. but i'm not. *sighs* soz.

take care hun sleep well
i am going to go sit in the corner snuggle up and try n stay safe!

*tackles di and squishes* i'll snuggles with you *nods*

It is early. I'm getting a very slow start. I want to go back to bed, not shower. More caffeine gum.

*snuggles jess up, hands blondie a coffee and sneaks to the batroom*

i have o go nw. wil chekc in gain in moning. let people know i knew when to sop an stuf. pokay? okay. night.

*hugs jess* you know where we are hun

*cuddles jess*

Hope ur ok there...

*hugs jess*

I wish I liked coffee. that is why all the diet pepsi, caffeine.

Hi Jem, Hi Diamond

Really struggling at the moment, my dad's calling A&E.

awww hun whats up?

hi blondie

Had an awful day. Beth's been really violent and hurtful, I just didn't know what to do with myself.
Went to A&E and got given some PRN meds, lorazepine.
They wanted to admit me, and he called the hospital to sort out admission but there weren't any beds so they sent me home with the meds.
I don't feel safe, I kinda wish I had gone to hospital.