*hugs Ian*
*hugs Mark* you are not an idiot. Yes, there is a website like that, but I don't know what it is called. You can always make soup with everything in it?
*hugs Crimson* sorry that they are all so uncooperative, I've met a lot of people like that this weekend and I'm glad it's monday tomorrow.
*hugs MJ* my horse always cheers me up hehe. Sorry that you don't have Lucy anymore, if you come to germany we can go for a ride together.
*hugs Oliver* I think most of us have more determination than we give our selves credit for.
*hugs Mara* how many calories does your cake have?
*hugs Louise*
*hugs Ajrandom*

I was away for the weekend and just came home. psych appointment tomorrow... aaahhhh

*Squishes Laura*

*squishes mark*

I think I'm really scared of my Ts reaction when I have to tell her tomorrow that I didn't take the meds. erm.. someone please beam me away from here.

*Beams ya*

*hugs mark* thankies. where am I now? in wales?

Wales yes!

woot!
then I don't have to go there tomorrow?

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs MJ*

I feel fed up to :(

*sleeps*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

Coffee anyone?

Coffee! Yes please Tiff :) *Hugs* How are you?

Tired but ok. You?

Numb TBH , Forgot to take my meds last night so what can I expect ?

*hugs everyone*

I would love some coffee!!!

has anyone invented a rewind button yet? I could do with one!

*Hugs Rhi*

Socially I'm a mess .
To Coin a phrase "EPIC FAIL".

*hugs Mark*

I think all of us to an extent are socially a mess. You're not an epic fail. You're here, and your trying.

*hugs again*

*Hugs Rhi* Thanks hun . I missed (accidently) My meds last night and am not feeling right today.

*hugs everyone*

hugs everyone

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Louise*

hugs mark

*hugs everyone and leaves giant stuffed animals*

I'm so sad that this is my last week in my uni town.

Its going to be a long and horrible summer being forced to live at home before moving to graduate school.

Anyway, I won't whine. I know its not that big of a deal.

*Hugs Laura* It is a big deal hun , I hope the summer passes fast for you :)

*hugs all*

sorry I'm not doing individuals today, but I'm really struggling today.
I keep having worst days of my life. Fvck life

*hugs everyone*
Mark, KitchenPC is a website like what you described earlier. :)

The weekend kinda blew chunks but I got my animals moved to the house... It meant I got to bed late and only got 5.5 hrs sleep but I missed my fur babies :D
Today we're meant to have a barbeque at the house... C's Idea. On the one hand that means I don't have to cook but on the other I just don't feel like dealing with people and having the BBQ means no moving will be done tomorrow either unless it is late at night again... FML

Edit~ Also this morning is a typical Monday already but I had the unique displeasure this morning of our bus being stopped for speeding and having to wait for the officer to give the driver a ticket... this was made more awkward by recognizing the officer from work... :S

So how is everyone else?

*hugs Crimson*

My T told me today that she wants me to go inpatient.

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry hun , how do you feel?

*Hugs Crimson* Please PM me the website , I'm scattered and won't remember your post, sorry.

*hugs mark*
I'm not going inpatient. I told her that and she printed out a referral anyway. Not sure what I'm thinking about that.
Sat in the park for 2 hours. Called a friend and told her while I was crying. Then I wrote a list of reasons why I didn't take the pills and gave that to the receptionist of the T.
I came to the conclusion that I'm going to ask for another appointment after the T is returned from vacation and work on some of the answers she wants from me.

Laura, If she is still persistent on inpatient are you willing to take the meds to keep from being inpatient? If so, maybe telling her that will be a good compromise for both you and your T...?

Mark, sure thing! I'll do that now. :)

That sounds like a good idea.
I'm not refusing the meds, I just feel like I'm not ready for meds.
I couldn't even imagine to ask for an appointment 6 weeks ago. Now she wants me to take meds and go inpatient. It's just all too fast.
How are you?

EDIT: what if she notices that I'd do anything to stay out of hospital? She could manipulate me with it.

I could seriously cry right now! I've been fighting with the anchorage office off and on for YEARS! They denied my hearing loss, denied my knees, denied my mental health, refused to give my daughter her apportionment that they've been giving to her father who hasn't been raising her or even paying child support... And now that comes out...

Have you explained that you feel rushed?

*hugs Crimson*

no.
I wrote that on the list.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson* Thanks!

*hugs mark* how are you?

Hi everyone, how are we all? *hugs everyone*

I don't know what to say to you all today. I want to impart some great wisdom or other that makes everyone feel amazing, but I can't. :-(

The only tip I do have is to use this website called Moodscape. If anyone would like me to buddy them on there, please PM me for my email so I can buddy you. (It's NOT the email I have listed as my MSN).

Moodscape MJ?

www.moodscope.com

Sorry, it's scope lol. I'm thick :-( You track your mood every day and after a few days it's supposed to tell you some stuffs. I don't know to be honest, but it looks good, and I'm on Day 2.

*hugs MJ* sounds interesting.
*hugs Crimson*

Hey guys, how you doing?

my psychologist said about moodscope, is it worth using?

*hugs my loves*

*Hugs Crimson* Thanks for the link :)

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Laura*

*Waves to Owen*

*Hugs Mara*

I am ****ing mad as mad can get , My Dad invites himself up to my flat with his lunch , Takes out a SAUSAGE and eats it on my sofa , I AM a STRICT vegetarian and he comes into my home and eats meat! and doesn't even think that this would upset me , it's not like I'm a secret Vegetarian either , he knows too well. Arrrrg I can't beleive there was meat in my flat and he touched stuff (Including me) With his meat holding hand without washing it ! So mad ,Really.

EDIT:- I'm washing my shirt that he touched , have scrubed my arm and I still feel horrible , Going to scrub my arm again .

I'd be pretty pissed too to be honest, that is just bang out of order *hands you extra soap*

Do you have OCD Doikers?

*hugs julie*
*hugs mara*
*hugs mark* I'm a vegetarian, too. Not as strict though, cause the rest of my family isn't vegetarian and I'm still living at home.
*hugs mrs pan*

how are you all?

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Mrs Pan* I'm not diagnosed but I know I have OCD .