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will be thinking of you and fam mark <3

*comes in and hugs all*

*sits down to read a story for you all*

*Hugs* Thanks Heather :)

*Pays attention to Lore*

*Brags* 4th on curveball AND I figured out how to delete lower scores :P

hahaa heather.
I wrote a short story today...

The following content has been hidden - Reason : trigger? and long

I do not intend to offend anyone with this story. I know gay and transgender people and I like them!

Delayed flight

'Flight number 2648 from Wellington International Airport, gate 13 to John F. Kennedy International Airport, New York City is delayed for 40 minutes due to technical problems.'
This is going to be a long night, I thought. Then I went to get another coffee. The last weeks were exhausting, first the wedding of my cousin in Perth and then the whole thing all over New Zealand. I wish I had the time to sleep on the plane, but I really had to catch up with the paperwork.

Sometimes I'm wondering why I wanted to have this job. I don't hate it, actually I really like it. It's always exciting, never gets boring, or a routine that's the same every day. Sometimes I wish I had one of those boring office jobs, a routine, good pay. I would finally have some time for my family. Wouldn't have to worry about my marriage or if I'll lose my two girls. It's actually just a matter of time now. That's probably the worst, waiting for the inevitable, for something to happen but not knowing when it will happen. It's almost a relief when it finally happens. The inevitable.
That reminded me of the last weeks. I knew he would do it again and I knew why he would do it again. I had the perfect profile. I knew how exactly he did what he did and I knew what motivated him... I probably knew him better than he knew himself. So, when I told the guys that were working the case with me that he would do it again they didn't believe me. I told them how he would do it and I told him why he would do it. The only thing I didn't know was when he would do it again. I could not convince them. That's the problem with foreign authorities, they don't trust us.
I was lucky and only had to wait for four days. The couple was definitely not as lucky as I was. At least he did it fast, they didn't suffer long.

When they got the call that they found another couple from the hotel it was such a relief for me. I don't enjoy it when things like that are happening, but it is such a relief when all the waiting is over.

I paid for the coffee and went back to the seating area at gate 13. The coffee was great, a million times better than the coffee I had in the last weeks. That's one of the things that are the same everywhere. The coffee at the police station tasted like it was made with old dishwater. Almost made me feel like home.
There was a flatscreen at the wall with the news on. They were talking about the surfing world champion ships in LA. Not very interesting. I checked my watch, still 25 minutes left.
The flatscreen caught my eye again, now there was a familiar face on the screen. The officer who was in charge of the case made an official statement that they caught the bad guy. The woman three seats next to me sighted relieved and kissed the man next to her. The case was in the media for weeks, almost always with bad news.
Now they showed the pictures of the victims when they were still alive. My cousin and her husband were there, too. It was the picture we took at their wedding. They went on their honeymoon to New Zealand and got killed after just two days. I got the call when I was on my way to the airport in Perth. Ten minutes later my boss called me, I should go to New Zealand and help the police there. It was because I was already in Australia, so they didn't have to send someone all the way from Virginia. He said he heard about my cousin. He knows that it is not good to work on a case where relatives are involved, because of all the details and you can't get too emotinal on the job. I told him I was fine with it, told him that I hadn't seen them for quite a long time before the wedding, that we weren't really close. I thought I could handle it but it was harder than I thought. I have to admit it was quite a traumatic experience.

To be at the crime scene, to analyze what they did. To see them, look at the wounds, her slit throat and his stabbed chest. To figure out that he slit my cousins throat first. The killer came from behind and surprised them. To imagine the terror on my cousins face when she felt the knife at her throat while he was inside her. The blood on her face, her hair. The killer pulled my dead cousin from her husband, then he stabbed his chest. It was obvious for me that they weren't his first victims. He already had a lot of practise. I remember the photos with all their gruesome details, the pale corpses.
Later, when we were interrogating the killer I asked him why he always killed couples on their honeymoon and why he had the men look away from their wifes. He told him, that he once was engaged but his lover broke up with him and married a woman instead. He felt betrayed by the love of his life.

'Passengers of flight 2648 from Wellington International Airport, gate 13 to John F. Kennedy International Airport, New York City can start boarding. First class passengers please come to the information desk.'

I startled and came back to reality. After I fully realized that it is finally time to board the airplane back home I got up in a hurry to get on the plane.

It's based on a dream I had about 3 years ago. I changed a lot though. The killer was dressed as a squirrel and he put makeup on the faces of his victims to make the look like squirrels, thats why he was gay in the dream. It made a lot morse sense in the dream.

Go Mark! You're gonna be 1st soon

wowww o.O
sounds like Criminal Minds :P

I didn't watch criminal minds in ages.
It probably reminds you of it, because the character is a profiler.

How are you?

yeh i know =p.

im... stressed.
if i finish this assignment in an hour it'll be a miracle =\

I think I need to be banned from facebook LOL!!! Some people are just RIDICULOUS!

Awesome Mark :) Is it helping to distract you?

*Hugs Lore*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Helen* Curvebal really distracts me for a 5 minute stint at a time yep .

I am at my parents sat in the living room with my parents , uncle and brother in law . we are being picked up tomorrow at 9.10am to travel to the funeral .

*hugs Mark* going to think about the funeral tomorrow. It must be hard to go there.

hugs mark - be thinking about you

hmmmm... curveball really is an interesting game, while you're playing it anyway :)
*huggles mark and sends positive thoughts*
*hugs everyone in the ward*
How is every one doing today?

*Hugs Lore*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Crimson*

How are you all?

I'm having a headache, so will probably go to sleep soonish... (no painkillers in the house...)

*hugs all*

I'm really sad still. Oh well.

*hugs wardies*

Mark, hope tomorrow goes smoothly for you guys, all our (from wardies) are with you xxx

Thanks Helen *Hugs* :)

*hugs Mark* You're welcome x

I dont want to take any Diaz before the funeral tomorrow , I may have to take some at the family gathering afterwards but I want to be "sober" to say goodbye to my Grandma .

Good luck for tomorrow Mark. You'll feel better at the end of it, that looming dreaded day will be over. But whatever you do, stick it out until the end. You will regret it if you don't and spend every moment you're not knowing you should be there. *Hugs*

Tired *Night time Hugs My Wardies*

I may not get online tomorrow so don't worry if I'm not about :)

Guys, I don't want to deal with my family anymore. After being screamed at all night and having things thrown at me I've pretty much had enough... ¬_¬

If I'm not about much there's no need to worry about me, I'm mostly safe but I'm pretty miserable. Thinking of you all and wishing you all well over my abscence. x

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry about your family. Do you still live there? Is there anyway you could move out if they're really getting you down?

Hey Kahlia *cuddles* How are you?

Mark, hoe you sleep well.
Sarah, I'm sorry your family are still being such idiots.
Lia, how you doing sweetie?
Kahlia, same question for you xx

*Hugs Helen* I am randomly insanely happy to see/hear from you. I get that sometimes, random rushes of love for people. Be flattered, I hardly even show my IRL friends any sort of affection. Anyway. I'm alright. I was kinda sad earlier, but I'm good now and working on a philosphy assignment which consists partly of the sentence
The idea of A Priori is mostly interesting to Empiricists, they are the originators of the idea and believe this, along with A Posteriori explains all human 'knowledge' in relation to ideas.

By reading this thing, you may mistakinly believe me to be intelligent. I am not. This is a meer figment of your imagination, as in order for anything to be considered true knowledge, it need to be true and justified directly, proven beyond a doubt. Anyway, I have philosophy on the brain now, so I am going to shut up before I annoy everyone.

I am very flattered, awww :D *hugs Lisa* Glad you're feeling better. Being sad sucks.

Hey everyone

I'l be thinking of you Mark *Hugs*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Sarah*

*hugs Ian*

*hugs Helen*

*Hugs The ward* sorry for lack of individuals
People are leaveing after the gathering now , It was a nice service and my Mum and Sister said a great eulogy

*hugs mark* I'm glad it was a nice service. How are you doing?

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Mark* Doing okay?
*hugs Oliver* How are you?

*hugs Crimson* how are you?
me, I have made a thread in veterens support which explains a little, but don't want to take up the ward with me moaning or being depressing

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Crimson*

Feeling okay thanks guys , It's just me and my folks (and the dog ) in the house now , I'm a bit tired , I took two Diaz last night so I would sleep and be ready for today and they did the trick , I slept and am not dog-tired just naturally tired.

How are you guys?

*hugs Mark* how are you? I'm glad it went ok.

*hugs crimson* how are you?

*hugs Oliver*

*hugs everyone*

I'm glad things went ok, Mark.

*hugs lindsey* how are you?

Hayley says Hi and send *Hugs from her and Reggie*

*hugs everyone tight*

*hugs all and then tries to disappear*

My exam is two weeks today and I'm really nervous. AND my agoraphobic anxiety is spiking to an all-time high and I'm not sure why. *sigh*

Mark: Please pass on *hugs* to Hayley and Reggie from me.

Sorry for being so selfish and not doing individual replies. I'm barely hanging on ... it feels like everytime I manage to get a grip on the rope someone cuts it down until there are only a few threads left ... *sigh*

*hugs all who can accept and leaves safe love and care packages for everyone*

*hugs Laura & Kahlia tightly* Keep hanging in there Kahlia, it'll get better.

*cuddles helen* I know you posted hours ago, sorry its been so quiet in here.. i was at work... but I hope you are alright. PM me if you want.

*cuddles kahlia* Good luck with your test. I'm sorry things are so bad right now. Try to be patient, it will get better. It has to.

*hugs mark, lia, oliver, sarah, lore, and everyone else*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Kahlia* I'll text your hugs to Hayley and Reggie now :)

I'm back at my flat now , so should be online a bit , I'm going to a garden centre called "The Lost/ Abandoned Railroad" at 11.30 with Becky my befriender , which should be fun :)

*hugs Mark* That does sound fun!
send my *hugs* to Hayley too :)

*hugs everyone*
Hmmm no new posts in 8 hours... *looks around and sits in a rocking chair on the porch to await the others*