*hugs mark* is the chess working now?

hugs everyone because you all deserve it.

no. I dont.

but you do
*hugs louise*

*Hugs Lore* I got a free membership on a different site , can play 3 times in 24 hours I'm won 1 lost 1 . How are you?

*Hugs Louise*How are you?

*hugs mark* I am am going to move out as soon as possible, because my home sucks.
You are playing online chess? I never tried that, cause I don't know how to play.

I am really tired not sleeping well. how are you?

*Hugs Louise* *Makes camomille tea to help you sleep*

Lore, My Grandpa taught me , it's good because you HAVE to think and it's not violent like my console games and I wanted to take my mind off things.

chess is good to take your mind off things

sounds like chess is a good thing to keep your mind busy

*Spots and Hugs Felicia* How are you ?

-hugs all-

It's times like tonight I wish I could take painkillers grrr

Not feeling myself

*hugs Helen*
*Hugs Ian*

Sorry.. I'm low on words recently.
Just... shaken up, I suppose.

its only me though, dont now why i dont just give up. Sorry.

Don't give up. It'll get better *hugs*

Not feeling good. Feel depressed, felt my mood drop. Tempted to do something.

Is anyone around?

Don't hurt yourself Ian. What's wrong??

Sorry. Feeling low :-(

*sits and be's unhappy*

*hugs ian* i hope you managed to stay safe. please don't do anything to yourself. we care about you here and so many others on this site do as well.

*hugs julie* whats wrong?

*hugs helen* sorry you were in pain earlier. you okay?

*hugs felicia* its okay hun. We understand that sometimes its hard to support or even talk about yourself when you are struggling. Here if you need/want to talk.

*hugs lore, mark, and louise*

Its so weird how being with the same people as every other work day can bring me up so very high and drag me down again. I hate that life always has to be a roller coaster. Just thinking again, sorry.

i'm just all depressed and yucky

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Laura*

I hope you are all okay this morning / evening / night / afternoon / whenever .:)

I dreamt that the whole ward met up last night , but don't remember the details .

the crisis team are coming in 10 minutes, I'm terrified. *hides*

*MASSIVE HUGS OLIVER* I hope it goes well for you and my thoughts are with you .

*hugs oliver* hope it all goes well
*hugs mark* how are you today?

If anyone here has ever been wild camping could you please check out my thread here and if you have any advice I'd be grateful :)

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...40#post2566240

*Hugs Lore*How are you ?

*hugs mark* I replied to your thread

I don't know how I am today... just got up an hour ago.

*hugs thalia* I can see you reading the thread :P

Well I just got up an hour and a half ago Lore heh , bit numb . it's the one week anniversary of Grandma dying :(

*hugs Mark and Lore*

They have just left, it was okish they are coming back on wednesday.
I should go to uni now, but I don't want to.

For whoever it was who asked what a stubby cooler was (I think it was Julie): A stubby cooler is a device made out of wetsuit material which is designed to keep your stubby of beer/can of coke/can of spirits cool even in hot weather - as seen here.

*huggles everybody and waves at anyone who cannot accept hugs*

Things have been interesting lately. My sleep has been getting extremely violent. I got up at about 01:00 am last night/this morning and had managed to unmake the bed - including stripping the underneath pillow. Not the pillow immediately under my head, but the one beneath that. I remade the bed before I went back to bed/sleep .... but this morning I was wondering why I bothered ....

I'm hoping this violent sleeping which was been happening since the wedding is due to my medication timing being disrupted so will start to settle down again. *fingers crossed*

Now, down to the good news. *drum roll* I got my assignment back today and I got a HD!!!!! On one section I even scored an "Exceptional" - a mark ~beyond~ a HD!! I'm just so happy and excited.

Really sorry for being so selfish and rude and only talking about myself. I haven't had a chance to catch up on all of you yet but will be able to do so tomorrow and will try and get myself to be a better wardie.

*leaves hugs and safe love and care packages for all wardies*

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope your sleep settles *Crosses fingers too* Way to go on getting high marks on your assgnment :) Whats a HD ? High Degree? I never went to Uni , Sorry :S

EDIT:- 9th on curve ball :)

EDIT2:- Thanks for replying Lore :)

Mark: Thanks. *big hugs* Way to go on the curve ball by the way. :-) Lol. Uni's don't all have the same marking scheme's anyway but a HD stands for a High Distinction where it goes Pass; Credit; Distinction; High Distinction. For my dance teaching exams I got an Honours with Distinction which would equate to about the same thing. And don't be sorry. No-one can be expected to know everything about everything.

Thanks for explaining Kahlia :) *Hugs* I currently hold 9th,11th and 13th positions on curveball , it's good if you have 5 minutes :)

Mark: Wow. Certainly sounds like the curveball is fun!!

go you kahlia :D

im not gonna be on much this week. buuut all you lot who have me on fb message me and will reply as soon as see, and i'll prolly be on for a bit at night during the week so if pm me will get it =]

*curses at uni ><*

That's great Kahlia!

Mark: you are the master of curveball :P

*hugs Heather* I hope your weeks goes by fast.

I have to go take care of the horse now and it's raining. Don't want to go out now.

I'm meant to be in a class in 15 minutes, but I dont think I can, no concentration, no energy, want to sleep and too anxious. **** life is a mess.

*hugs all*

Mark, you have to delete multiple scores & keep your highest I'm afraid. It even states that in the Arcade.

*hugs everybody* Sorry we're all struggling so much.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Helen* Oh thanks I didn't know that ,I'll take a look.

Well goodness the ward has been quiet tonight . Which is good I suppose as you are all doing things you want to be doing (I hope)

*Goodnight hugs my wardies*

Night, Mark. *hugs*

Night, Mark.

How is everyone else?

*Hugs Lindsay* Not great how are you?

I'm sorry to hear that, Ian. Is there anything you want to talk about?

I'm really struggling not to overdose. I was told by the voluntary crisis team to go to A&E so I did, yesterday, and the psych nurse who saw me basically told me to stop coming to A&E and wasting their time.

Oh Lindsay, that's horrible :( You have every right to attend A&E. I'm sorry everyone's being so useless!!!! Please don't overdose sweetie. It won't make you feel any better xx

Ian, want to talk why you're not feeling so great?

Mark, it has been quiet. I fell asleep LOL (keep doing that!), woke up, had dinner, spoke to my best friend & then been doing various small tasks.

Tomorrow could be an interesting day at college. All girls except three of us are celebrating Eid Mubarak. So we're not sure if our tutorial & class will happen. Depends if 5+ people come in, if so, lesson will happen. If not, we'll just be made to do work which is fine by me. Could phone in 'sick' but I just know I'd waste a whole day & dwell on things.

I'm mostly okay. A little sad =/ Just feeling really vulnerable & fragile. Stuff's getting to me :S

It started yesterday my mood just dropped quite quickly and i just dont feel myself at the moment. Fed up. I'v had depression for some time so im thinking its that, sometimes i struggle.

*Hugs Ian* If you need me, my PM box is always open.
*Hugs Helen* I'm sorry you're so fragile.
*Hugs Lindsay* You have every right to go to A&E.

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Lindsay* Thats awful , you do have the right to be cared for at A&E if you need it .

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Helen* What is This? ^^^^