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FlyingNy 01-09-2010 01:51 AM

I'm sorry things didn't go well Oliver.

Helen, have you heard anything?

Has anyone heard from April today? I'm worried about her.

The movie scared the crap out of me. I need to try and sleep now. At least I have company.

Do you ever stop missing someone? Doe it ever get any easier?


anarchistl0ve 01-09-2010 02:03 AM

Is it sad that I cant wait for hoodie season

FlyingNy 01-09-2010 02:09 AM

No, it's not sad. Neither can I?

Can I die now? Someone. Let me. Head hurts. Am sleepy. Urgh.

MedicAsh 01-09-2010 02:17 AM

*waves to everyone*

Still having a tough time. :( I thinking that I need help and to get back on meds

risenfromperdition 01-09-2010 03:45 AM

im only allowed on for 15 bloody minutes so annoyingly no individuals but will hopeuflly be able to tomorrow when im stuck at stupid uni from 8 [class isnt til 10:30 ><] til 5 ><

taz35 01-09-2010 04:00 AM

*hugs Laura* I wish I could, but it's so damn hard... I can't help but feel like an attention seeker... it's a mindset that's been deeply engrained since 9th grade when I got called an attention seeker in gym class because of my cuts :( And now I feel like I can never tell anyone. And like Mark said... it will be okay in the end <33

*hugs Mark*

*hugs Lia* I'm still not sure. Every person I've missed, it still hurts to think of them... but I guess it depends too whether the person is still alive or not? I think it does get easier to an extent... :/ And I thought April had posted earlier... =/ Maybe not, maybe I'm just so used to her posting that I assume she has done so...

*wanders around the ward looking for April*

*hugs Jill* I didn't see your original post, but as a nursing student, PLEASE see a doctor if you think you've had a stroke. Even minor ones can be fatal if left unchecked, and if it WAS a stroke, you need to have your brain scanned ASAP. I hope you're okay <33

*cuddles Oliver* Sorry it didn't go so well Oliver, and it really sucks that people bullied you at your group. Could you tell the person in charge? It really doesn't seem right =/

*hugs Reaper* I hope you didn't cut <3

*hugs Crimson*

*hugs Hels* I hope your pain starts to go away soon <3

*hugs Becca* No, it's not bad. I want hoodie season to get here STAT. I'm tired of being questioned about my scars/cuts EVERY single day ><

*waves to Ashley* Can you talk to your doctor maybe to get back on meds?

*hugs Heather* Ouch, that's a long day =( Hope it goes alright for you!

*hugs Jess* I spy you!

I just got back from work, and I'm kind of in an up mood.

anarchistl0ve 01-09-2010 04:09 AM

I think hoodie /long sleeve season is my fave time of year..

must confess :( i cut I kept holding it in and i just spilled over :( im sorry everyone

risenfromperdition 01-09-2010 04:11 AM

*offers gentle hugs to becca*

taz, the annoying part is really i only have classes from 10:30-1:20 and 3-4:30... so im stuck there for 2.5 hours before the class, and then nearly 2 hours between the 2 classes >< blah.

taz35 01-09-2010 04:12 AM

*hugs Becca* Try not to beat yourself up over it... was there anything in particular that pushed you over?

*hugs Heather* Ahhh, I get what you mean. Sucks when that happens :( Only good thing is that at least it gives you time to get work done... which could or couldn't suck, depending on how you look at it.

anarchistl0ve 01-09-2010 04:13 AM

Thank you, i feel like a faliure though
stress about events coming the state of the house due to said events

risenfromperdition 01-09-2010 04:21 AM

here if you wanna talk <3

and taz- yeah but how much work can i possibly have the first day? ><

anarchistl0ve 01-09-2010 04:48 AM

We have friends coming from out of town who have never seen the house, the house in current state looks like a trash heap. not to mention i have to souly clean the whole place.

Kahlia1981 01-09-2010 08:45 AM

*huggles everyone*

Sorry for the lack of individuals, I'm really not keeping up at the moment. :-(

Today I got my uni transcript scanned and I've emailed it to the guy who is dealing with my credit transfer/RPL for my new course. He thinks I might be able to get six (6) subjects credited from the transfer. We were thinking I'd only get three or four so *crosses fingers* hopefully it's worth it.

Doikers 01-09-2010 09:28 AM

Hi everyone *Hugs* I'm not up to doing individuals this morning , sorry.
I can't wait for "hoodie season" either although I ALWAYS wear long sleeves / trousers whatever the weather.

I'm a bit worried about April too :S

I just cut myself accidently whilst shaving ,Ug , way to get triggered first thing in the morning .

SoMuchMore 01-09-2010 09:37 AM

I'm worried about April too.

*hugs mark* im sry you were triggered. try to not let this set the rest of your day, you can beat any urges that come of it. And thanks for your response to my post earlier about things getting better, it was really helpful.

*hugs everyone*

I should sleep. 2:30am is late enough i think.

Doikers 01-09-2010 11:42 AM

*Hugs Laura* I'm glad I was helpful , and yes , 2.30am is most definatley bedtime :) I hope you sleep well .

I just got back from the Dr , He didn't seem to think that I've got Lithium Toxicity which is a releif . My levels are normal , he showed me on his computer. I guess the not being able to get speech out is a side effect of the Lithium and NOT of toxicity .

The One Who 01-09-2010 01:33 PM

I only like the winter because the heat and the sun gives me a sore head. I want it to rain again. I don't really wear long sleeves or that, I don't need to.

*hugs for everyone* I'm not feeling too great.

Doikers 01-09-2010 01:45 PM

*Hugs Claire* I'm sorry you're not feeling good :S

one_step_closer 01-09-2010 01:50 PM

Sorry i'm not around so much, my modem is broken so I can only get online in the library and most of the pages are filtered. I'm thinking about you all.

Doikers 01-09-2010 02:30 PM

April!! I spot you *HUGS*

Doikers 01-09-2010 02:34 PM

I have to go to the cyber cafe and go with the manager to the council offices to have a CRB check (Criminal Records Bureuo) . I am going to be volunteering there at the cyber cafe I think , I'm pretty anxious . Meeting new people and such :S

Scarletdreamer 01-09-2010 02:38 PM

YES!!! I am back.

So sorry to worry you all, I figured I must've been but I had no way to get online. We forgot to pay the internet bill and it got shut off then took forever and ages to come back on. Thank God it's back, though, I've really missed you all and the support I get/give... it's been rough. :(

I have my nutritionist appt this afternoon, ugh ugh ugh... so ****ing terrified. Plus, I don't have anyone that will go with me even though Jarrod's available (I doubt he'd want to go... taboo topic).


So sorry that all/a lot of you are doing poorly as well, can't do individuals as there were FIVE freaking pages (yey!!) of posts since the last time I posted... but... thinking of you all and *cuddles all*

misskitty112 01-09-2010 04:34 PM

*hugs April* I'd go with you if I could :). I hope everything goes well at the nutritionist.
*hugs Mark* I'm glad you don't have toxic Lithium levels and good luck with volunteering :)
*Hugs Lindsay* I'm thinking about you too.

To everyone who said they can't wait for hoodie season, I agree.

*hugs everyone in the ward*

Sooo... I harmed last night. And again this morning. And I *really really really* want to now.... I don't know why I'm not, my roomie's in class, she won't come in, etc etc...
I would update more on my life but it's been an emotionally draining/painful past couple of days and I'm just worn out.

Scarletdreamer 01-09-2010 05:13 PM

*cuddles Felicia* I'm sorry that you feel like such crap right now... wish that there were something I could do to help. :( I feel so helpless in front of all of your suffering, each and every one of you. :( But I guess just by being here I'm helping? I don't know. But anyway, I'm glad that you're not harming now, please try to stay that way... it's not worth it, it really isn't... even if it may help in the shortterm it won't help longterm. :(

*cuddles all*

PoisonedApple 01-09-2010 05:48 PM

This morning sucks. I got breakfast (and have money to eat out for lunch instead of having to bring a lunch for once) and I can't even eat it :(
****ing anxiety! Just go away! *curls up in a ball*

Doikers 01-09-2010 05:51 PM

*Hugs Felicia* I am sorry you are so triggered :(

I got my CRB check in, although I handed over the form only to be told the forms have changed and I had to fill in another . My hands were shaking and I coulden't think :S but it's done . Then I got some (Unexpected) training at the cyber cafe , met a LOT of new people most of whom's names I've already forgotten . It was intimidating being around so many people who knew each other but everyone seemed nice , I am going back tomorrow afternoon .

Oh and I posted Hayleys card signed from everyone today :)

Doikers 01-09-2010 05:54 PM

*Hugs Crimson* I'm sorry about your anxiety :(

FlyingNy 01-09-2010 06:45 PM

I'm feeling so ignored and unnoticed.

I'm glad you're OK April.

SoMuchMore 01-09-2010 07:04 PM

*hugs claire* im sorry you arent feeling well. anything we can do?

*hugs lindsay* its okay, we understand. hope you are alright.

*hugs mark* sounds like the CRB thing went well despite your anxiety! thats great! Glad that you don't have lithium toxicity although the side effects still sound concerning even if they are just regular side effects :-/

yay for hayley's card in the mail! :)

*pounces on april* I'm sooooo glad youre okay!!!!! good luck at the nutritionist. I'm sure the appointment will go alright.

*hugs crimson* i'm sorry that your anxiety is so bad today. i hate anxiety it can be so horrible. Hope that it settles down soon, try to do something nice for yourself.

*hugs felicia* i'm sorry that you harmed, hope that you managed to not do it again. april is right, it really isn't worth it in the long term. (i know im being hypocritical). Hang in there hun.

*hugs lia* I'm not ignoring you hun. whats up?

So i found out last night that my paper is being used as a discussion point in my class today = anxiety through the roof. He only picked 4 out of 30.. why did one of them have to be mine? I dont like having my life picked apart by people in my class... it was a "tell me a story about yourself" essay... its not like i wrote about anything i can't discuss, i wrote about the time when i was 16 and I hurt my foot and wound up having to go back and forth to the hospital 8 times... but just talking in general makes me so nervous. I hate it.

PoisonedApple 01-09-2010 07:04 PM

*hugs Lia*

FlyingNy 01-09-2010 07:08 PM

It's just that...well, it doesn't matter about specifics, but on the rare occasions I try to tell someone something, IRL as well as on this site, that no one listens anyway. So it doesn't matter. I can't expect people to anyway, people have their own problems.

Sorry you're feelin nervous Laura, but take it as a compliment that yours was picked :) It was obviously good to get chosen.

Sorry about the anxiety Crimson. I don't have a lot of advice on that. Is there anything you usually do that calms you down?

SoMuchMore 01-09-2010 07:14 PM

*cuddles lia* we always try to listen in here. or at least i know that I do and several others do. Yes, sometimes people can get a little swept away in their own problems, but you can always come here and talk or PM me or any of us for support. I know that none of us in here would mind that.

and thanks, i know its a compliment.. i hope.. unless i am an example of a bad essay.. but i feel like that would be really mean of the professor. I just get so anxious anyway, stupid social anxiety disorder.

shadowedsoul 01-09-2010 07:23 PM

Cuddles all. Sorry about yestarday.feel very tierd and folishn and not really with it=\

Doikers 01-09-2010 07:28 PM

*Hugs Lia* I hope I haven't made you feel ignored :)

*Hugs Laura* I definatley think having your paper picked is a compliment.

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Crimson*

PoisonedApple 01-09-2010 07:31 PM


Sorry about the anxiety Crimson. I don't have a lot of advice on that. Is there anything you usually do that calms you down?
Not that would help right now. I'm trying to ignore everything and just keep working though. Waiting to hear from my mom, gran is in surgery right now.


*cuddles lia* we always try to listen in here. or at least i know that I do and several others do. Yes, sometimes people can get a little swept away in their own problems, but you can always come here and talk or PM me or any of us for support. I know that none of us in here would mind that.

Laura I'm sure it's a compliment not an example of a bad essay. That would be rather juvenile for a uni prof., I'd think.

MammaMia 01-09-2010 08:29 PM

*hugs everyone*

I've been throwing up since 4am :( Starting to get better though.

Oh & Lia, I did finally hear last night, turns out the phone had broken. Also she was woken up today & is doing really well :D

FlyingNy 01-09-2010 08:54 PM

Glad to hear it Helen :) I said it would be something like that- I was right, as usual :P

It's OK guys, that was selfish of me. Doesn't matter. I consist of minute particles.


Doikers 01-09-2010 09:05 PM

*Hugs Helen* I'm happy your friend is doing better. However , It sounds like you need to look after yourself as well , perhaps you should make a Dr's appointment.

*Hugs Lia* You don't JUST consist of fine particles , I care about you as I'm sure the whole ward does , You can PM me anytime, My advice could well be crap and I may take a while to get back to you but I'll do my best :)

FlyingNy 01-09-2010 09:15 PM

Lol, thanks Mark. 'I consist of minute particles' is my way of saying I'm Fi*e as I've been banned from the word. I looked it up in the dictionary, and that is one of the definitions I got. I know people here will listen to me, but you know what I'm like. Useless when it comes to my own feelings. I just don't think I'm worth listening to or people's time. I've been told I'm not. Last time I tried to talk to someone, I got 'hurry up I haven't got all day' so I clammed up and said nothing and haven't made a proper effort since.

How are you Mark?


The One Who 01-09-2010 09:21 PM

How is everyone? Not really in the right place to read back.

FlyingNy 01-09-2010 09:27 PM

I'm alright Claire. Surviving. How about you? You sound like you could do with a vent. *Hugs*

The One Who 01-09-2010 09:30 PM

Surviving. Just. *hugs* I'm just anxious and confused about life and feeling very blergh.

taz35 01-09-2010 09:51 PM

*hugs Claire, Lia, Mark, April (WELCOME BACK!), Hels (glad you heard from your friend), Lindsay, Jill, Felicia, Crimson, and anybody else I might have skipped*

Was going to attempt more detailed individuals since I forgot to take my meds this morning, but my mind is jumping around and I want to do everything at once so I'd probably get everybody mixed up :/ *leaves big apology letters and calorie-free cookies for everyone*

Lia - you can always PM me if you need to talk or vent <3

Actually, that goes for anyone :) Although I'm not good at giving advice, as I've said before... but I like to listen :) Or read, if you want to be technical...

My back is super sore at the moment, it's the only downer part of today. Took some painkillers for it and hopefully it helps... we'll see.

*hugs each and every person*

Doikers 01-09-2010 09:51 PM


How are you Mark?
I'd would prefer not to answer that right now Lia , sorry.I also am reiterating (sp) my offer of a PM if you EVER need it.

*Hugs Claire*

taz35 01-09-2010 09:59 PM

*hugs Mark* Just going by your status, but sorry you're feeling triggered :( I think you mentioned that your meeting went alright though? I'm proud of you for going when there's so many people :)

*hugs Hels & Jill because I spy them*

The One Who 01-09-2010 10:01 PM

Thanks for the hugs Taz and Mark. I think I need them! My head is killing me right now, it's just come on all of a sudden as well.

taz35 01-09-2010 10:03 PM

*hugs Claire & gives magic headache-away pills* Any idea why? Stress? =/

The One Who 01-09-2010 10:07 PM

I have no idea why. I do have a bit of a cold, may be related to that. But really, it's more of a minor annoyance right now.

shadowedsoul 01-09-2010 10:11 PM

Cuddles all, erm yesterday, it was a bad reaction to somthing I took. Hmm won't be doing that again. Still feeling the effects of it now.=(

Scarletdreamer 01-09-2010 10:16 PM


Still need to process what my nutritionist appt was like, so can't give details, sorry. Brain hurts. Neck hurts. Don't want to think about anything relating to the appt really, but... :(

*cuddles all*

Oh & Lia, I'm sorry I wasn't here to respond to your post(s). But I am here now :P and if you want/need to PM me, feel free, okay? <3

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