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1ofmany 01-08-2008 11:50 PM

*brings in a bag of toys*

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Think an injury i did about a month ago is going to scar buts huge and means i will have to constantly wear semi long sleves...why was i so stupid and why does it make me want to do it again.


So lost. So wish i could ask for help. Wish i knew why i wont cry.

~*forever_broken*~ 01-08-2008 11:50 PM

Was going to drink but decided to leave the alcohol for Monday after my therapy session (oh, God, I don't want to go to this one). Instead I am eating cake batter and drinking caffeine free dirt Pepsi. Woo-hoo...
*WARNING: possibly triggering content to follow... But I can't hide it on my BlackBerry*

I can't even cut, it is SO not fair, I've got no motivation or something, I can't explain it but I want to cut, I just can't... :crying:

~*forever_broken*~ 01-08-2008 11:55 PM

Marc, I can't tell you why buy I can tell you that very rarely can I cry, and I know, it sucks... *hugs*

1ofmany 01-08-2008 11:56 PM

I feel the same as you (no motervation) For anything practicaly. *hands over a fluffy sheep toy*
baaaa
*sigh*

MammaMia 01-08-2008 11:57 PM

*massive cuddles Ally*

I'm glad you're not drinking tonight at least :)

MammaMia 02-08-2008 12:16 AM

2 minutes is better than 2 seconds :]

1ofmany 02-08-2008 12:19 AM

Have to start somewere...

~*Rainbow*~ 02-08-2008 12:23 AM

*checks in*

I think i need to be in here................i need to be somewhere....................somewhere safe

blondiebear 02-08-2008 12:23 AM

*cuddles Ally*
*cuddles Zowie*
*cuddles Jess* Do you need us to phone the doctor for you or drive you down to the walk in clinic?

Brother, we all have days like that, sometimes jobs like that. Hopefully things will settle down, in time.

Had a good meeting last night and another good meeting this morning. My sponsor after the meeting today, my sponsor praised me for having positive sharing. People were nice about me showing off my new sun-shirt too.

My hands are shaking today. Sometimes happens with the meds. I'd considered doing the changes to my shirt pattern, drafting the pattern pieces with the necessary modifications to make it into a denim jacket but not with my hands like this.

I plan for the denim jacket to be my birthday gift to myself. The denim has a pink pinstripe woven into it.

I'd still rather be shaking than as depressed as I was this time last year.

And yet again, i talk too much.

1ofmany 02-08-2008 12:26 AM

Head feels wrong, better go. Will catch up later.

~*Rainbow*~ 02-08-2008 12:30 AM

is it wrong to feel like giving up?????
because if it is then i will put my hands up and say i am wrong!!!

everything is going wrong and there's no one to help!! they have all left me - thay have all given up on me - even my best mate gave up on me


i am a failure

~*forever_broken*~ 02-08-2008 12:42 AM

*hugs Marc* I love sheep... *sigh* sorry you're in the same boat there pal...

Yeah, Helen, decided to leave it for Monday when I really need it...

*retreats to her corner with her stuffed sheep and attempts a nap*

BoundNoMore 02-08-2008 01:58 AM

crap crap crap my life is one big pile of crap.... does it ever ****in' end???

Casper_Fading 02-08-2008 02:03 AM

and we have the first blister. dammit. at leat i'm going riding today. it's better than nothing! >.<

~*Rainbow*~ 02-08-2008 02:23 AM

*hugs* to all - even though im falling down i am here for anyone to chat!!!

blondiebear 02-08-2008 02:31 AM

I want to shred and i'm not quite sure why. Probably the same doggone thing that people see as normal and I see as a character defect.

Spit.

Sixx, what's up with you?

~*Rainbow*~ 02-08-2008 02:36 AM

BlondieBear - im sorry i dont kow you name - but whats up??? *hugs*

blondiebear 02-08-2008 02:39 AM

My name is Susan, but I like being called Blondie.

Same old same old for me. Feeling needy, want to put a lid on it and just have to live with it.

btw, shred is my form of SI. I won't say what it is but that is my name for it.

BoundNoMore 02-08-2008 02:41 AM

*snuggles Blondie*

blondiebear 02-08-2008 02:50 AM

I so hate this! It is something I hate about myself. I'm comfortable in my own company for a bit, for a day maybe. But not for longer and not if i'm in a bad place.

The last two times I SI'd were because of being needy. it took many weeks for those marks to heal. I actually wish the last one had scarred though people told me it was better that it had not.


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