*wanders in clutching a teddy n a blanket*
I'm...new...on..this...w..w...ward... n kind of... s...s...ssscard n confused...
What happens on the ward???
*stands looking lost and confused near the door*

*hugs* Welcome! don't be scared, we are very friendly. Feel free to chat about whatever.
*bakes some welcome cookies*

*Hugs to Kestrel* I only came here a few days ago, its just a place for us Vetrans to feel a bit safe among each other. Get some support. Welcome!!!

*Big hugs to Fallinstar0317* Sorry to hear you're feeling bad?Want to talk about it?

I've got the alcohol out tonight. I haven't done that in while...drank on my own. :/ Probz not the best idea right now either. Urgh...I feel so weak.

*hugs Miss Angelus back* I just feel like a complete screw up today... and now i feel sick. I'll be fine.. always am.
please don't drink too much on your own! Be safe.

Laura, you're not digusting sweetie and sorry to hear you're feeling sick.

Miss Angelus, be careful.

Leonie, we just come here stay as long as we want and support each other and stuffs, it's sooo much fun *cuddles*

i *think* i'm getting better. been super super sick, and the pain's been unbearable, but i woke up today on my own, and am able to sit up and eat, and overal function, and the pain is minimal for the first time since coming into hospital.

i really hope this means i'm going to be okay.

*passes fluffy pillows, cozy blankies, and snuggly teddy bears to everyone in ward*

*cuddles papabear* Oh I hope so. I hope it means you'll be ok. It sounds good. Take care *hugs* am thinking of you x

*leaves lots of cuddles*
Have read all the posts but things are mega busy and I'm struggling. Thinking of you all.

xxx

*cuddles Papabear* That sounds like good news. I hope it continues.

*cuddles Katie* Hope you are surviving well enough

*cuddles Secrets* I hope things settle down quickly

*leaves hugs and teddybears for everyone and pats for Puppy SinClair*

*cuddles secrets* take care ok x

*hugs kahlia* Erm doing ok.. I guess? Just trying to keep busy but not over do it.

How are you going?

*hugs Shane lots and lots* Sorry I've just been so worried about you, sounds like some progress :)

*hugs everyone*

The party was good fun :)

*Hugs to everyone* I only had the one drink I dealt wuite well. Still feeling **** though

Hope you all feel well soon!
xoxoxo

I can't do this anymore!!!! I just can't!!!! *cries*

*Hugs and love to Boundnomore!* I'm sorry to hear your not doing well hunni!
PM me if you need ANYTHING!!!

I don't care anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. Tired of fixing myself each time this happens.

*sighs and sits in the corner and curls up into a ball*

*hugs yodabearinterrupted* you okay? don't give up on trying to fix yourself.


I am not coping... keep screwing up... big suprise. I'm sorry i'm so useless.

*walks in and sings*
(8)so take a look at me now, coz theres just an empty space, and you coming back to me is against the odds and thats what I gotta face(8)

I dont even know WHY Im singing this. Im mad at him.
I hope he's missing me. I hope it hurts like hell.

Why am I such a bad person?

*leaves hugs for all*

I crashed out for a cat nap earlier. I felt okay until I woke up and saw what the time was (almost 4 pm). So I forced myself out of bed and ate a sandwich to keep me awake. I feel lethargic and like there's no point in doing anything. Every day is just the same. Is it worth going on? I have to go into the city tomorrow to go to the optometrist and take in my broken glasses but I have to find them first. I suppose I should spend the afternoon doing that.

I just wish I could make him see that I love him and I would follow him to the ends of the earth to be with him always ....

*hugs everyone* sorry I've been quiet for a while, I've been reading your posts and thinking of you, but kind of just musing in a corner, I haven't had much company recently so maybe I've just lost my voice.

*cuddles Puppy SinClair who gives her a big sloppy kiss and bounds over to Kahlia for a hug*

I'm doing okay, I'm going to Croatia on holiday on my own for a week on tuesday, I have a new job which starts in september, have to move cities, find somewhere to live and it's all a bit stressful, but I seem to be coping in that I am 4 months free now. I wanted my own little place, but a nice one is above my budget so i have to settle for a house share again. Anyway, have to go for my run.

Papabear, am so glad you're feeling a little better

*hugs Kahlia* I hope that your wrist is finally on the mend, and that the start of your course is going well despite computer problems, and he does know you love him

welcomes all the people new to the psych ward

*hugs Arwen* how are you hun?

*hugs Helen* hope you're doing okay

*hugs everyone else* I hope things start getting better soon

*cuddles hannah* good to see you again (or hear from you again :P) hope you have fun on your holiday :D and all the best with those plans *hugs* take care x

*Big hugs for everyone*
Sorry, feeling a bit crappy so don't feel up to individual replies.
I've stopped eating, but not through choice. Everytime I have food I just can't eat it, I don't know what's causing it but I just can't do it.
Dad's making me some lunch now, which is nice of him considering he made me a really nice meal yesterday and I just picked at it. He's making me some scrambled egg - Hopefully I'll be able to force it down...

*Hugs to all* I hope everyone starts feeling better soon.

I came home to my mum just being a moody bitch. This isn't what I need right now. I wish she knew how I was feeling...make her see how much PAIN i'm in again. But I can't. No one knows. No one CAN know what i'm feeling. Gotta be the strong one again, gotta hold everything together.

I'm sick of this.

she lied she lied the one person i cud trust and she lied to me im sooooooooo angry. why i dont undestand well screw her screw them all.

I managed to force the food down, but it's given me a dodgy tummy.
It's like I've developed an allergy to food!

I can't believe how much everyone's changed in a year. My whole family seems to know I have an issue with food which isn't fun.

Am still really busy, my inbox is open though.

*leaves hugs for all*

argh!!!! i want to cut, everthing sucks tonight. usally speak to freind on msn, but she not on. **** cant do this

I shouldn't be posting here, but...

What goes up must come crashing back down.

Turns out i'm not that important... Iwas invited to one of my best friends birthday party and nearer to the time they decided,obviously, not toinviteme. It went on and I wasn't informed of the proper details orinvited on the day likeI was meant to... So obv Isuck and they don'tcare.

ROFL!

Whole cabinet of alcohol. Pure spirits. I'm alone.. Already got the rum! HAHA. Gonna drink it all.

*hugs Katie* thanks, hope you're doing okay

*hugs Arwen* sorry to hear about the food, hope it clears up soon

*hugs Miss Angelus* sorry to hear that your mum doesn't understand, but you're not alone.

*hugs Cheryl* that's so hard hun, take care, ok?

*hugs Secrets* good luck with the family, tis tough

*hugs Shadowedsoul* sorry to hear you're struggling hun, I'd say message me whenever you want but I'm going on holiday so I wont be around for a week, but after that

*hugs Labyrinth* you're very welcome to post here, friends can really hurt sometimes, but the ones that matter, they care

Feeling better now that I've been with my boy again. I'm glad to have him, he makes living easier.

Had an absolutely incredible physio session earlier. 4th session, and 3rd time on my feet in almost a month, and I walked across the room without the walker and hardly touching the railings alongside me.

unless something horrible happens, i go home in a week!!

Shayne that's wonderful news!!! *throws party for Shayne*

I'm getting mighty sick of having to wear my wrist guard. My thumb hurts less when I use it but it is still almost as restrictive as the cast.

I saw my optometrist today and got told that my eyes haven't changed so no need for new glasses, and he fixed my old glasses for me so they are as good as new.

I'm feeling anxious today but I guess you get that some days.

My laptop should be back before the end of the week. Yippee. I cancelled the order of my new desktop until I get some more money behind me - by which time I'll get a better system so it's worth the waiting.

*leaves hugs for everyone*
*send hugs from Nicole [mouse in darkness] to everyone*

*Hugs Secrets* Nice to see you pop by :) My inbox is always open for you too sweetie.

*Hugs Shadowedsoul* Sorry I wasn't around last night, I would have chatted to you for a bit. Hope things have simmered down a bit, how are you feeling now?

*Hugs Kat* That's horrible hun, do you know why they did that to you? I hope you managed to get through the night without drinking too much (I'ma hypocrite, I know...)

*Hugs Hana* Thanks sweetie. Hope you enjoy your holiday!

*Hugs Ashley* That's nice :) Glad to hear you have someone to keep you happy.

*Hugs Shayne* That's fantastic news! I'm so pleased! Keep us updated?

*Hugs Kahlia* Anxious feelings pass, I hope they have for you :)

*Sends hugs to Nicole* Hope she's doing okay

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I'm hoping this grotty feeling will pass soon. I don't feel up to doing anything, just sitting around on the sofa or on the computer. I feel weak in both senses, physically (since I haven't been eating), and mentally (because I'm lazy and disgusting).

**** this tbh. I give up. It's jsut easier to let myself feel this way then fight it.

*gives everyone hugs and lots of them*

Sorry I haven't been around for the past couple of days, been really busy and tired and stuffs.

*hides from the real world for a bit*

*hugs miss angelus* you alright? keeping fighting is a good thing. I know it's hard, but please try to stay safe.

*hugs MammaMia*

*hugs Emmz* This is a good place to hide :-)

Hmmm... had a major breakdown. good thing my boyfriend was here otherwise i don't know what i would've done. Got a crying hangover today heh.

Rawrrrr.

Would anyone like a cuddle?
Im giving them away for freeeeeee

I want cuddles :(

*cuddles* Then crawls away again

*hugs Helen*
*Hugs Jade again :)*
Love you allllllllllllllllllllllllllll

cuddles are always good =D

I got to do some weight lifting today in physio. I'm nowhere near as strong as i was before i got sick, partly becuase i lost a lot of muscle tone from not being able to move and use my muscles (which, i think, was the most devastating part for me) but my physiotherapist says i'm way stronger than most people would be in my situation! so i feel pretty dang good right now.

*leaves hugs for everyone, along with a fresh supply of blankets, pillows, teddies, sweets, and coffee/tea*

*skips off, singing to myself*

good to see you back papabear. missed you. big bear hugs for you hunni. thanks zoiwe, hmm no its all got a lot worse, i looks like i may end up looseing my job.its complete bullshit, a no win sistion. but im screwed. and because of that and how i was feeling last night, i have now got some really stuiped thoughts running through my head. driving home from work nearly crashed my car, and to be truthfull i wish i did. =/

im such a bad person sorry guys. im just screwed up i mess everything up

I'm struggling so much...urges are back stronger than ever but no time to think.

*leaves hugs*

I feel sick. I managed to eat, and it just made me feel so ill.

*hugs all*

I'm going to Paris tomorrow morning so won't be posting. Will be back Friday evening :D xxx