*curls up next to Vicki & lets herself cry for the first time in awhile*

*Holds April while she cries and offers to listen if she needs...*

Wish I could cry. I feel happy but I bloody want to cry.

Thanks Vicki... *hugs* Things are just rubbish now between my ears, want to purge & cut but can't do either, don't know what to do about schoolwork, feel overwhelmed, just want to give in... :(

*cuddles Helen* I understand that feeling... well, as well as you can understand any peculiar mix of feelings. You can cry here if you need... or talk... we're here to listen. :)

*walks in and sits, offering an ear to anyone that needs to be listened to*

*hugs*

*waits until everyone is okay.. then disappears*

*cuddles LauraStar* How you doing, love?

*cuddles vicki, april, and helen*

... no point in talking about how i am, its not going to change. Im fine. I always am.

*cuddles everyone*

LauraStar, love, you're not "always fine." No one is. Even if you're fine now (which I doubt, from the tone of your post), it's okay, fine, lovely to talk about how you're doing. Why? Because WE CARE. *cuddles*

Aw Helen, sorry your period is so icky & painful. I hope the GP appt goes okay... do you know when you're going? *cuddles*

I am soo tired... :(

Laura, I agree with April. *big cuddles*

April, thanks sweet. No I don't know yet, going to try make it on Monday. Ow :( I hate hate hate this time >_> *cuddles*

No its really true. its not like i ever do anything thats super final... i mean, even when i OD'd, it still wasnt enough to do anything really bad. So.. see, it doesnt really matter how i am b/c i wont do anything that bad. I talk and talk about anxiety and how hard it can be for me to function on a daily basis, it can be hard for me to leave my house sometimes.. but its not like i can get any of that to change. Ive been to counseling, been on meds.. it didnt help. So, i obviously either have to learn to be fine or figure out a way to make things more final... and im kinda scared of attempting again so... im peachy.

helen - sorry to hear that your "lady friend" (as you put it lol) is a literal pain.

april - that sucks that you're tired. hopefully u get a good nights sleep tonight.

Why won't it stop? :(

*cuddles LauraStar* It DOES matter how you feel, though. We can learn coping mechanisms for anxiety together... because I'm on meds & in counseling and I STILL have a terrible time with anxiety, social & otherwise. My husband gets annoyed with me since I don't cope very well, and I want that to stop. So we can post about it and figure out ways to deal with our anxiety. And anyway, it really does matter how you feel. You may not feel like OD'ing or doing anything "stupid" but that doesn't mean that your low feelings don't matter. I hope I'm making sense... getting ready for bed and am soo tired.

*cuddles Helen* What's up, love? friends again? or something else?

I'm not doing too great myself tonight. Anxiety is awful... I'm trying to cut down on the Klonopin that I take, so I don't HAVE to take 4mg/day, cutting it down to 3mg when possible, but it's not working too well. I mean, I'm doing it, but my anxiety is through the ****ing roof. :(

Plus

*sigh*

Well, I'm going to check a few other threads, then off to bed. Nighty night, loves...

I meant the pain, seems to have settled down finally at last :) Wanted to try have an early night because the pain was too bad to even bother attempting.

o.O why on earth were you up so early april? lol.
unless you're not in est in which case ignore me ><

*hugs everyone*

I'm just going to disappear into a dark corner of the denial tent so that nothing further bad can happen to me.

*cuddles kahlia*

*curls up in corner hiding*

ive never been so drunk in my entire life.. hope all are okay.. bye

I'm in EST, Heather. :P Up so early? when?... lots of people think that 5:15ish is early, but that's nothing compared to the days when I get up at 3:30am!! lol. Anyway, sorry, no, not making fun of you. But yes, I am in EST. :) How're you doing? *hugs*

*cuddles Kahlia and tiptoes into the denial tent with her* What's up, love?

*huggles Helen* I'm sorry that the pain is so bad... do any meds help with that? Over here there's a bunch of different PMS/period OTC meds that can help... but yours might be too bad for that, probably I'm just being dense & stupid. >_<

*cuddles LauraStar* Sweetie, why'd you get so drunk? Talking is better than drinking, & we're here for you. ♥

I'm really tired... lol. We went to bed at 9pm, got upat 6:20am, so a decent amount of sleep... it's just that I'm ALWAYS tired. And I do mean always. >_< Poopy.

I has a kitty in my lap again!! and he wants snuggles - anyone want to share kitty snuggles? :P

Gonna go target shooting again today at my parents' if the weather is cooperative. :)

*hides*

Can't offer much more thann cuddles right now. Sorry

Don;t feel good. Creeps into denial tent for a long stay...