She's made me feel like my self harm isn't bad enough and I should go.

That isn't true. You need to be there and you deserve treatment, it's important that the cuts get looked after so that they don't get infected and you don't have more trouble with them in the future.

They always get infected anyway.

Take good care of yourself. You should stay.

How are you getting on? You deserve to have treatment.

I'm being seen and have promised to wait for psyche after. Going to have to wait until midnight. I cried when a hca brought me some water.

Well done for waiting. That's a long wait though, do you have something to do?

It does sound like you need some tlc.

I don't have anything no and they're using staples which hurt. I don't want them.

Maybe get some rest if you can?
Staples sound rough. I hope they give you some local anaesthetic.

Hah not for the big one. Was absolutely awful. And the dr was a dick so I was a dick back and made him get someone else to do it.
And now the long wait for psyche. In clothes that are covered in blood.

Don't know what to say to psyche. Other than I'm not suicidal but I really can't live anymore.

How did it go? How are you doing this morning?

They were nice. I went home. Barely slept. Work has a medical emergency. I want to cry and go home and cut more. It's because it wasn't deep enough yesterday. The man told me it wasn't at the time but I ignored him and look where that got me.

What did psych say? What happens from here? There is no such thing as deep enough or not deep enough, you are hurting and that's all there is to it. How is your day going now?

I'm so glad they were nice. But it sounds like you still need some support. How are things now?

Psych was nice. We talked a lot which sort of helped. They said I should call to see what's going kn with a new cpn. Said I shouldn't have stopped aripiprazole myself.

My day has been rough. Spent most of it trying not to cry.

When do you next have some support?

Yes, stopping such an intense med suddenly and on your own isn't the best.

So sorry that you've had a rough day. What can help you stay safe this evening?

Need support now. Cut again. Eating quiche.

I mean support from the cmht.

Yes, you do. It sounds really important to prioritise calling the CMHT tomorrow if you can, though I totally appreciate the time difficulties. It's so important that you're supported though. Do you have a crisis or out of hours team you can call when things are really shit? It's different everywhere, but I know in my town you can call the crisis team out of hours if you're under the CMHT, I was wondering if that's an option for you. Do the injuries need treatment?