*hugs Mark*


*hugs Laura*


*hugs Ian*


*hugs Oliver*



Well, I wish I knew what to say here.
I'm hitting a low point, where my words just vanish... I wish I knew what was so upsetting to my brain. I'm watching New Moon, mostly because the movie makes me cry, and I feel like I need to cry.
I'm sorry I'm so whiny... I don't know what is wrong with me.

*hugs everyone* nobody is worthless or pathetic or whiny or bad. I promise. I know that sometimes I say those things too, but really... its not true. Everyone in here is an amazing person.

Tonight was probably my last night out in my Uni town. So sad to be leaving... I move out of my apartment on Sunday... and since i went all out tonight.. i don't know if i'll go tomorrow too... its probably not the smartest of ideas.

Anyway, rambling.
Hope everyone is staying safe.

*hugs felicia, ian, mark, oliver, the other laura, and everyone else who posts here (sorry if i missed you... just did this page.)

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Felicia* Nice Ticker :) <3

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs everyone*

I'm here again.. after another long absence.. lol. Sorry guys xx

*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Felicia*
*hugs the other Laura*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Kaytee* welcome back! how are you?

Thanks Laura *hugs back* I'm okay I guess. How are you?

*hugs Kaytee*

I'm just got up after spending almost 11 hours in bed and I'm still tired. Time for some green tea to wake me up.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Kaytee* Welcome back hun :)

Today started off with a short freak out , followed by finding out everything was okay, I felt okay then , an Hours Skype with my Sister Allison , and I had lunch , then...........Depression .......why?

*hugs Mark, Laura, Laura, Felicia, Ian, Kaytee*

*hides in dark corner* my head is still bad and I still have concussion, but am off shopping with my best friend.

*Hugs Oliver* I Hope you have fun :)

*hugs mark*
*hugs oliver* why do you have a concussion?

Hey everyone, how is every body feeling?

Laura, please please please don't follow through with your plan. I barely know you, but I'd really miss you and I'd be gutted. And I wouldn't be the only one either.

Mark + Felicia = <3 :kiss:

Oliver - how's it going with your concert and your best friend now? Hope your head feels better soon.

Mark - do you know of any particular triggers that might kick off your depression? I find sometimes when I talk to someone I really love, when the conversation ends, it's like, they've left me. And I feel really bad after. Is that maybe what happened to you after Skyping Allison?

Kaytee - hi, I'm MJ. I'm pretty new to the ward, but not to RYL :-)

FallingStar Laura - I hate big life changes like that; finishing a course, or changing jobs etc. It really brings me down. I just hate goodbyes. Well and change in general lol. I've never been to Uni, but I kind of get where you're coming from. Maybe start making awesome plans for the summer? Like, hmm, where are you? An RYL meet?

Felicia - sometimes a good cry really helps; and sometimes you need to do something to make yourself cry, like watching a sad film. You're not whining at all. *cuddles*

Ian - please hang in there. You have us to support you.

With regards to everyone worrying about being sectioned - please remember that if it comes to the crunch and they're really going to do it, you can go willingly, which lets you retain some power over treatment and inpatient duration time etc. If you really can't get out of it, volunteer; it's the better of two evils. I think they only section people who are point blank refusing any treatment whatsoever. And no one here is, because you're talking here for one thing.

As for me; I'm SI-ing a lot more often and more badly. I have a thread in Serious ("Please help? Don't know what to do") and I'm about to create another one in General Support, if any one wants the explanations. I don't feel like writing it all twice. :-(

*Hugs MJ* EPIC post

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs MJ* goes to read your thread in Serious advice...
*hugs mark*

I'm not strong enough to go on another day. I just want to skip tomorrow and want it to be monday already (going to visit M. on monday). There are too many cracks already, if people would stop for a few seconds and look at me they would see the cracks.

Oh and yes ALWAYS go inpatient voluntary if you have no other choice , agrees with MJ.

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs Mark* how are you?

but as long as they don't want to force me inpatient I don't have to, right?
Just when they say that I have to.

NO Laura , unless they give you the ultimatum you don't have to go into hospiatal. *Hugs*

*hugs mark* what a relief to know that. That makes things a lot less scary.

*Hugs Laura*

*Nighttime hugs my wardies*

Night Mark *hugs*

*hugs everyone*

night mark *hugs*

*hugs Oliver* how are you?

*hugs Laura* I'm meh, low, but okish and my best friend is here so I'm safe (well as safe as I casn be considering how I am)

How are you?

*hugs ward*

I wish I could sleep. And I wish I wasn't so useless. I feel like all I do is cause my family unnecessary problems.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Felicia* You are NOT useless . No :)

Evening everyone *sending hugs to everyone who wants one*

*Hugs Kaytee*

*hugs Oliver* wish I could make it better for you.
*hugs Felicia* you are not useless
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Kaytee*

how are you all?

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs Mark, Laura, Felicia and Kaytee*

Felicia you are not useless not at all, infact no one in here is useless.

I broke down in the uni toilets, feel like an idiot :(

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Oliver* You aren't an idiot. I broke down in front of 150 people once, does that make me an idiot?

*hugs Laura* no your not an idiot. how are you?

I'm procrstinating big time, should be packing but instead I'm on my laptop and listening to music

*hugs Oliver* I'm doing that all the time, being on the laptop istead of doing useful things. meh.

I'm trying to translate some of the lists I wrote for my therapist.

*hugs Laura* I'm now listening to my favourite piece of music ever :)

I want to listen to it, too. what is it?

One of my favourites is August Rush's Rhapsody (dunno what it's called.. it's from a movie.). I love it, because it's changeing all the time.

its called Eine alpine symphonie by Richard Strauss, I'm in love with it

*gues to youtube that*

ohh.. I found Augusts rhapsody
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I warn you its long, about 50 minutes, but my god is it amazing words cant describe it.

and I just saw you live in Germany. I love Germany, did german for a level, but have forgotten a lot of it now, but its a beautiful country

I'm listening to part 1/4 on youtube now.

I was in London for 5 days with my class when I was 15 and I loved it there. I really want to go there again, but I don't have the money. meh

what do you think of it?

yeah London is pretty nice, but I've been there so many times that to me its just another city!

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Oliver* what music is it?

*hugs Mark*

For me cities feel different. And I like what London feels like.

*hugs Laura and Mark*

Mark its called Alpine symphony by the German composer Richard Strauss, its an orchestral piece for about 125 players, and it depicts a day climbing an Alpine mountain from dawn until midnight, its beautiful and amazing.

Laura thats fair enough, I really like the german towns and cities I've been to, I've been to Frankfurt, Koln and Dusseldorf, plus a few smaller towns and I like the feel of it, except all the smoking.

There is less smoking now. People have to go to certain areas in restaurants and at train stations where they are allowed to smoke. Otherwise they aren't allowed to smoke anymore. Maybe you were here before we had that law.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Oliver*


So many have left , so many new guys and girls ,I feel bad for saying this but I feel like the lone soldier holding down the fort. sorry

*hugs mark*
where are you?

*hugs Mark and Laura*

*hugs Oliver*

good night all *hugs*

*hugs Laura* night

*curls up in the garden*

just to let everyone know I'm away for an orchestral week from tomorrow, well technically today now and I will have no internet at all. I'm bloody terrified as I'm doing a concerto with them next saturday. see you all in a week

*leaves cuddles, fruit and calorie free cookies, feeds puppy sinclair*