*Hugs all* Morning. Well, my sleep isn't as bad as all of yours, but I did wake up at stupid o'clock this morning and couldn't get back to sleep and I have an importnant psychology test today. Joy. I'm sorry everyone's struggling with sleep. *Leaves flasks of malt drink for people to take when they need and copies of Harry Potter* They always help me sleep.

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Splitperson*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Shad* I'm so sorry you are have trouble sleeping , this may sound a lame suggestion but maybe try camomille tea , thats relaxing, so if Lavender oil in your bath or a couple of drop spritzed on your pillow .

*Hugs Oliver*


"The hardest part of ending is starting again"

Oliver *HUGS* Please don't take them , could you maybe go along to the counsellor and hand them in or if you are not comfortable handing them over go to the bathroom and flush them down the Toilet? Please get rid of them somehow and stay safe .

*hugs everyone*
oliver-please please please dont take them!! like mark said, can you flush them away if you can give them to anyone??

*hugs all*

Oliver: please don't take them. Like Mark and nicole said, give them to the counsellor or flush them.

*hugs everyone who couldn't sleep* I couldn't either last night. I woke up almost every hour before I just gave up and worked on uni stuff. (I officially have my Lit Theory and Creative Writing stuff done though)

*Super Hugs Oliver* Please, get rid of the pills. Please.
*Hugs Mark* How're you doing?
*hugs Lore* How are you today?

*hugs everyone* anybody got a warm house i could teleport too? :P
it's bloody freezing here, we have some men come to paint all the windows and doors, so they all have to be left open!! its cold!

Teleport here, Nicole! My house is really warm.

Met with my Nurse Sharron today, She told me Brenda , who I know from Accupuncture and Group has Died in the last week :( It never rains but it pours eh? I don't know what to make of it , I'm just a bit numb :S

*super big hugs* I'm sorry, Mark. I'm around if you need to chat.

Thanks Felicia , I didn't know her THAT well but we were on semi-conversational terms , she must have only been in her 50's.

*hugs everyone*

I really can't take much more of 'life.' Nothing specifically is happening but my mood is so low.

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry your mood is so crap :(

Oliver, no one here would ever want anything to happen to you. Please follow the advice of the others. *Hugs*

*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry :(

*Hugs Lindsey* We're all here if you need to talk.

*Hugs Lore, Nicole and Felicia*

*Hugs Lia* Thankyou :) How are you tonight?

*hugs everyone*

*Squishes Nicole* How are you?

*hugs mark* i..dunno, i suppose i'm ok, just a bit low. sorry to hear that you've not had the best of days (to put it nicley) *squishes*

I'm alright. Better than I was last night. I sunk quite low, but everyone here was struggling. It's alright though, I went to RAINN.

Why a bit low Nicole?

Lia , Whats RAINN? I'm glad you are feeling a bit better at least .

*Hugs Nicole* I hope you're alright.

Erm...it's a helpline, and they have a hotline, so I went and chatted to someone there. It's the Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network. I don't even know if I belong there, but Alex was lovely.

*huggles all*

My wounds from the fall on sunday are mostly doing okay. One of them isn't so good. :( I see my GP tomorrow so I'm going to get him to have a look at it.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of individuals, I'm just not up to much yet - it's not even 7am.

*big hugs for all*

*hugs mark, lia and kahlia*
i'm just a bit upset because i had a bad session with my therapist today :(

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Kahlia* Wow your up early today!! (Tomorrow heh)

*Hugs Nicole* I don't like it when I have an awkward session with one of my many professionals so can empathise .

Hey guys, I just wanted to apologise again for last night :(

*hugs wardies*

I'm not sure what's going to happen.....

Kahlia, I shall reply to your PM asap, same for yours Laura & Ian xx

I had a really **** day. I was still wound up over something. Ended up bursting into tears, so my tutor said I could go outside and she'd be out in a minute. Without thinking, I ended up disappearing to the toilets without informing anyone. So then she was REALLY worried, even searched one lot of loos. She was even considering phoning security team to see if I'd left the campus when my friend (well one) said she'd look around for me first. She found me, I'd calmed myself down and then broke down talking to her :( I told her about yesterday & she suggested I saw my mentor again so went to see her and poured it all out, even stuff over last six years. I feel emotionally exhausted as a result. I've never told anyone as much as I've told her apart from my best friend :|

On a happier note, I've booked my tickets to see Harry Potter on Sunday :D

*Hugs Helen* I'm sorry you've had such a rough day , But Harry Potter Tickets !!! are you exited? (sp?)

Yay, Harry Potter! I'm listening to wizard rock right now. Sorry you had a hard day. It's fine about yesterday, we all have our moments. *Hugs*

*hugs Mark* I'm very excited. Waiting since Friday has been torture but now I have the tickets helps it a little :D

Yay indeed. Thanks for being understanding :) *hugs* Would you recommend RAINN? Feel free to PM me with your reply if you want to, I'm just vaguely looking at their website.

*Night time Hugs My Wardies*

Night night Mark *hugs*.

*Curls up on the floor with a duvet* I'm sleeping in the ward tonight. Night all. Anyone's welcome to join me in the least suggestive way possible.

Hey everyone :)

*Drags herself from floor and sits up.*

Ian, could you please move anything dangerous away from you? Anything you could use to hurt yourself. You're worth so much more.

Sorry im just fed up and dont feel good. I'v been ok all day but now i feel low and i just cant do it anymore.

*hugs Ian* I'm around if you need to chat :) I pop on and off of RYL.


Guys... I'm scared. I've set a date. I can't keep going on like this, and I know... I know, somewhere in my mind that suicide won't do anything except rob me of the possibility of seeing better days. But things haven't been better for years... so i don't know.

Ian, you aren't moaning. I care about you. I'd be really sad if you weren't around. *hugs*

*spots Laura and hugs*

*Hugs Ian* is there anything you could do to make yourself feel safer?

evening everyone

*huggles all*

It has been a long day. :(

I saw my psychiatrist this morning ... It was kind of interesting. We talked about the session I had with the psychologist and why I wasn't going back. My psychiatrist told me that I was too intelligent for the "games" the psychologist was playing. He also said that it sounded like the psychologist was using straight CBT, and not even tailoring it for me, which explains why we were getting nowhere and I was getting frustrated. CBT does not work for me. Personally I don't believe it works at all, but that's me.

Anyway I'll stop clogging up the ward. I'll go into greater detail in my thread (link in signature) when I am able and have the time.

Sorry for the lack of individuals, but I'm leaving *big and gentle hugs* and *safe love and care packages* for all and *going out into the garden to play with Puppy SinClair*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Julie*

*hugs Felicia* Please please tell your Pysch Dr , or therapist or counsellor about your date , I'd hate anything to happen to you :(

*Hugs Ian* You're not moaning mate, thats why we are here , to support each other , things would NOT be better off if you killed yourself :(

*Hugs Kahlia* I do NOT like CBT either , I was my former CPN's guinea pig as she was being trained and I found it too invasive.

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Nicole*
*Pops off to the post office*

*hugs all*

Mark: CBT only works if the person believes it works - like most talk therapies. I had people using it on me and I'm not good at therapies that try to "push" you into doing things. I tend to push back instead of going where they want. *shrug* For me it isn't invasive ... I just don't talk. They get "yes" and "no" answers and nothing else which means they go nowhere and get frustrated and I get frustrated when they just keep rephrasing the questions.

*hugs mark and kahlia*
whats the difference between DBT and CBT? they seem pretty similar to me.

Hope that answers your question Nicole :)

*hugs ward*

*Hugs Helen* How are you today?

*Hugs Nicole* How are you too?