She's so lovely but she's so mean about people I tell. I try to justify it with it being my minds creation but its not helping much now

*Hugs Sarah Tons* , Could you play sims a while or listen to some music? or both , to try and get away from Rebecca for a bit.

thanks mark, im really trying to hang on. just want it all to end.

*Massive Hugs Jill* What has made you feel this way hun?

*curls up in corner* i feel like i'm imploding.

Sorry. no words right now.

Laura *Hugs* My inbox is always open for you hun . If you find words I will always listen to you.

Well I've drunk a **** ton of vodka and .........very little effect . where as 8 moderate strength beers or ciders and I'm wasted . It makes no sense . I'm nice and warm but other than that sober as a ... well a sober person

I copy/pasted this remark from a chat I'm having but I'm still pissed off , I don't want to have to think just for tonight

thanks mark, erm i left my job, hmm middle of october. because i was very close to doing somthing really stuiped. since i left i have been trying to find a job, with no luck. im on the dole, which is making me feel like **** and worthless,looks like more shops are going to be closing. making it harder to find a job. now the people that give me dole, are saying that might have to stop, because i voltarly (sp) left my job. wtf was i suppost to do. stay there and end up killing myself. man that people are muppets. sorry

*cuddles everyone*

I fell asleep really early last night :p So went to bed properly at 9.10pm. Woke up a few times through the night, but not like the night before thank goodness. Still in a good mood. Going to go have a shower now :D Been sorting my folder out for hours like putting notes away & re-writing some photocopied ones from October, that I missed from being away lol.

Had to buy two new ones actually. One because a tutor wants us to have a red one for a particular unit & another BIG one (think they're lever arches?) as mine's kinda broken but temporarily fixed. Got a me to you one <3 Money I can't technically afford to spend. Oh well :( Get paid again next week.

Jill Honey , Could you get a note from your Dr saying that is why you left your job? , A Dr's note might help your cause . No-one could expect you to stay at a job that made you suicidal . Could you tell the job centre why you left , It might be difficult but it might help you too. First , If I was you I would try and get a Dr's note.

*Hugs Helen* I'm so glad you are in a good mood hun .

hugs mark. hmm we had to fill out a form stating why i had to leave. in that note my dad told them what was happening, that i had to get signed of work by my doctor twice, and i was very close to killing myself because of my work, and had to put on anti-depressents. also told them that if i stayed in my job, it would have ended up in me killing myself. even think i put in my dr not fit to work note. this new system is so screwed up. i know they had to sort out the people that were screwing the system, but its putting everbody in the same basket. sorry guys.

Rebecca isn't about, she comes and goes at will, been well distracted by tv and Sims 3. *curls up* She's mostly lovely, but she doesn't like me talking about her, she thinks people will try to seperate us and it upsets her I think

Aww thank you Mark *hugs*

sorry im being pathetic. curls up.

You'er NOT being pathetic Jill . Please get a Dr's note hun I'm sure if you present the Job people with it they would take it onboard .

I'm scared that if I sleep I'll wake up depressed again like yesterday :S........

*cuddles Mark* Poor dear :(

*Hugs Mark, Jill, Sarah, Laura, Helen, Elaine and Crimson*

cuddles mark, thank you hun, will give that a try. i hope you dont wake up depressed, but wake up happy. hugs lia back
hugs everbody.