*hugs LauraFriend* thats not pathetic, its change and we humans are crap at change. Be nice to yourself. Did u manage to resist cutting? I hope ur looking after yourself and keeping safe, whatever you did or didn't do. Im sorry ur struggling with this so much :-(

Oh April Sweetie. I'm sorry u felt so crap after eating a lot, i get like that too sometimes, i love to eat and often cant stop myself and then i feel really ill and want to purge to feel better - disordered eating in my case, not an ed. I hope seeing your therapist does help hon. Dont worry too much about ur work sweetie, i always procrastic with everything, i know it can make u feel shitty but u'll get it done, i know u will. Just a couple days of hardwork, you'll get the motivation, it will come at some point. Could u let the prof know whats going on and that ur struggling? from my experience teacher/prof types love to be kept in the loop.

I'm feeling really wound up, i dont know why but i'm a ball of stress atm! I need a release, all i can think of is the warm feeling of cutting but i know that wont help. I just want a release. I've tried throwing things and destroying things. When i was driving all i wanted to do was slam my foot on the peddle and speed. Eek! It doesnt feel like its my own emotion, it doesn't feel like an emotion. I dont know what this is, i dont know why im feeling it.

hope everyones ok x x

i dont think he gets how much he's ****ing around with my head. i can't deal with this. i really really can't do this anymore. if he wanted me or didn't want me, i could deal with it. but this ****ing around i can't deal with.
i want to vanish
x

*huggles everyone* sorry no individual responses.. there have been so many since i was last on.

hm.. going to dinner w/ my bf and that other girl.. should be interesting... and prolly awkward.
On a different note.. i was actually able to write something. I love writing but the muse hasn't hit me in awhile. Was nice.

Feeling really lonely right now, kind of want to destroy something

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry no individual replies .... I don't want to forget anyone.

I just got back from a visit with my new private pdoc. I'm seeing him at his private clinic but the government is paying for it. It went okay.

He has upped my seroquel to 1000mgs and is talking about adding an anti-depressant that has no serotonin in it - because I can't handle AD's with serotonin and they want to stay away from the tri- and tetra- cyclics. Purely conjecture at this stage.

He told me that because he was seeing me privately it was still my responsibility to call the crisis line or go to the hospital if I was in a crisis. Not that either the crisis line or the hospital would actually do anything useful. I think that they would be unable to find their arse (should they have an arse) with both hands (should they have hands). They are completely incompetent. A good nuking would improve the stock 10000000 fold

Meh.

Sorry, am not in a place for many individual responses but wanted to say, Alan, I know kind of how you're feeling right now. Please take care of yourself the best you can...

Just posted in my venting spot, didn't want to flood this thread so you can read it if you want to. No pressure.

:(

*cuddles all*

*hugs alan* im sorry you feel lonely. Be careful if u are feeling destructive. As april said, take care of yourself.

*hugs april* good luck with ur therapist tomorrow. Maybe you should talk to her about how u've been feeling about her... Hope you are less anxious soon.

*hugs kahlia* glad things went ok with ur new pdoc. Im sorry that the hospitals aren't helpful out there :-( that really sucks.

*cuddles helen*

*hugs everyone else*

Ugh.. class tomorrow.. Im tired of this semester already.. time for new classes.

*cuddles everyone*

I'm starting to feel that I don't fit in anywhere. This depressed mood has been going on so long now and I can't see an end in sight. I just want to run away. I keep feeling it would be better for everyone if I was dead, but I don't want to hurt people the same way that I was heart when Jem suicided. I'm scared that I'm seriously going to hurt myself.

Maybe I should just give in, or sit in a dark corner until I disappear.

I'm sorry for being such a gloomy bitch.

Kahlia, Keira and LauraFriend, be strong. You're worth more than these feelings and thoughts that are consuming you. Hold on to life, even be it seems to be the only thing that doesnt make sense. Hold on loves. *cudles to you all* I know how you are feeling, stay strong with me, I cant do it on my own x x x

*Hugs Alan* Dont think we've properly met, i'm Jocelyn welcome to the ward :-) I know the feeling of wanting to destroy something. Did u manage to get it out? were u safe? I hope today goes better for u x

*Cuddles Helen* How are you feeling hon?

*Squishes LauraStar* I hope you have a good day at uni. What are u studying? Are you coping ok with it?

*Attacks April with squashy cuddles* I havent read your rant thread yet, i'll go and have a little looksies now. I hope you're alright sweetie. How's your work load going hon? x x x

I dont really know what im feeling, still feeling like i need a release, but not as intense as last night. I have a long day at the hospital today, my first back at work since i've not been v well. little bit scary. but i need to go and get some camouflage stuff tonight for my arms. eek i'm really very nervous!

April, hold on sweetie! Jarrod loves you, all of you. You are not the burden that u are feeling like atm. Life wont always seem this bleak love. I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. I love you so much April, you are such a valuable part of our family here, we need you and love you and want the best for you. Stay strong sweetie, ride out the storm x x x x

Good morning everyone... time for replies. :)

*cuddles Kahlia* You're not a "gloomy bitch," sweetie. You're simply ("simply") struggling with a lot of feelings & thoughts right now that in a perfect world just would not exist. We're here to support you - don't worry about individual replies right now unless you feel up to it - that's fine. Feel free to keep posting though because we care about you & want to make sure that you're still hanging in there. *more cuddles* ♥

*huggles Kiera* What's up, hon? what's "making" you feel this way - anything external to yourself?

*cuddles Helen* How're you doing, love?

*huggles LauraFriend* Maybe have a talk with him to let him know your feelings on the matter? (about not being able to take him "****ing around")... because that would probably be the best thing I can think of. But sweetie, I'm really sorry that you're feeling so rubbish. :( Is there anything that I can do to help??

*cuddles LauraStar* I understand totally about the uni stuff!! Holy ****, do I understand... :( Wish I didn't though... I wish I could resign up for a new term with different classes (that still filled my requirements for graduation)... so yeh. YUCK. I wish that you felt better about your classes too. ♥

*tackle-squishes Jocelyn* :) Thanks for the support, & for taking the time to read my venting spot. Not a lot of people do, or at least give me feedback - which is fine, I know that journals are more meant for that - but I don't want to fill up my journal with rantings!! lol. Anyway... I know that Jarrod loves me, but it feels - and I know that feelings can't really be trusted - like I'm a burden, just baggage. :(

Good luck at the hospital today!! I hope that it goes splendiforously. *cuddles*

I'm really tired... forced myself to get up at 6:30am even though I could've slept in until seven. My mum's picking me up in a bit to go to my therapist's as my car isn't working still (she - the car - is going to be fixed tonight, well, dropping her off tonight to be fixed tomorrow morning). So I have to be ready for that... & I wanted to get on WoW for a bit too... ugh. I feel so stupid. I am so slow... I really need to get this portfolio for uni ready but it's taking me forever as I have hardly anything for it... it feels like I am sinking, drowning in the waters of uni. Hopefully it's not due today!!!! *cowers*

*hides*

:crying:

*hugs everyone then curls up in a corner crying*

Awh Kahlia, love, is there anything I can do to help? *holds you gently as you cry*

I'm beginning to feel like crap myself. :( Dunno why, guess dreading the appt with my therapist?

:ermm:

*cuddles everyone, try stay safe guys, please* Kahlia, I would hate for you to commit suicide :( I've known you for what over a year now, maybe closer to two, not sure. But you've come through so much - you can do this babe.

For those who asked how I am, I feel really awful. My chest is really really hurting. Has been on/off past couple days (flashbacks triggered it I think) but today is the worst =( Normally doctors put it down to anxiety/stress, not sure if it is just that, because I am really stressed or something else :( Making me feel like I can't breathe, thus trying to make me panic, thus panic attack. Having a bit of a bad day, didn't sleep for ages, woke up at 10am, rang my best friend and didn't want to face the world, so went back to sleep and slept til 2pm (now 3pm ha). Attempting to tidy my room today :/ or least make a start on it. Just want to curl up and die for a while, too much pain. Plus scared that if I cry, that I'll start off a breakdown of sorts like I had last year, I don't want to go through that agin, don't want to put my best friends through that, I never want to self harm (ha will probably happen), od or attempt suicide again. :'(

I have to be strong for everyone right now. One of my best friends says I don't with her, but deep down, I do have to really, although she's on her way back up :) 3 weeks til I go see her woop.

Supossed to be seeing my boyfriend in 3 days. We have a long distance relationship. It sucks. We haven't seen each other since last March (when we were first together). Bit nervous about it, espically as he's probably stopping over....

*cuddles Helen* Sounds like you've been going through an awful lot, love. Wish I could help more than I can. :( I'm sorry about your chest hurting leading to a panic attack; been there done that before.

"Shouldn't" you be more excited about seeing your boyfriend? Long-distance relationships do suck; my husband & I were 1200 miles away from each other from 2006-2007 (although long-distance friends from 2004), which was awful... especially as in December 2006 I got engaged. So yeah. It was pretty icky... I missed him sooo much. But what's making you nervous, Helen? other than the "haven't seen him in almost a year" thing? *hugs* In any case, I hope that it goes well for you. Have you been in touch a lot since last March?

Sending chocolates (calorie-free of course!! :D), love, & hugs to all of you... ♥

*hugs jocelyn* hope you have an okay day at work. I am studying journalism (with a focus in web design) and psychology... I usually cope with school fine but this semester really sucks. I have tons and tons of work. I think what is worse to is that I thought this would be a more "fun" semester, but my classes didn't turn out that way at all.

*hugs april* Maybe our classes will get easier as time goes on (but i kinda doubt it... heh, wishful thinking..) Hope you are feeling better. Let us know how the therapist goes.

*cuddles kahlia* please don't give in! Hang in there hun.

*hugs helen* sorry about the chest pain leading to panic attacks.. That sounds like it sucks really bad. Try to keep busy/distracted so that you don't breakdown (i know that's easier said then done..) Long distance relationships can be really hard... although mine was only long distance for like 3 months... but still...

Way way way overslept today. Good thing i don't have class until this afternoon but i was hoping to get some stuff done. Guess not..
Trying to fight some pretty bad urges. I feel like every little stress is triggering my bad thinking, which is quite ridiculous.. I feel stupid.

*cuddles April and Laura*

Have been really busy this afternoon. New month, new motivation? :P Have cleaned the living/dining room (wasn't that messy), tided, cleaned & hoovered the kitchen, tided & hoovered the hall & stairs, started tidying my room, done a load of wash and another one waiting to start, oh and cooked me and my mum dinner =D Well my family say how I rarely do anything without being asked, never cook for me and mum etc :p So yeah, finally listening :P

I have to say April, that I have been going through an awful lot. Some of which I haven't posted about, partly because of people it concerns are on here and I could get done for flaming (Y) You do help, believe me. Chest hurting and panic attacks suck. I should be more excited, I think I'm still in the mindset of not beliving it til I see it. I am a little excited. Ouch 1200 miles apart suck, luckily ours is less than 100 (well I think, may be more). Not suprised you missed him so much.



Thank you, I'm sure it will go well :) We've been in & out of contact since last March. We broke up, got back together, broke up for a second time, didn't really talk, started being friends, tried for a 3rd time, I panicked and ditched him, we didn't then really talk much til Sept/Oct, and then we got back for a 4th time in November. Haven't split up since, we've had our arguments/troubles but we're trying to make more of an effort and stuff =( But I've been refusing to go see him til he visits me. It's not fair on me. So been waiting for him to visit since Apirl (he nearly made it up in April & June, but we split before he could come haha).

Thank you Laura for yourp ost aswell :) *cuddles* Don't feel stuipd btw x

*hugs everyone*

April: I don't think so I'm afraid. I'm going to ask to try Topomax as a new mood-stabilizer when I next see my pdoc - which will be sometime in March. And I'm really worried because I see my new tdoc on Thursday and I think they are going to charge me $160.00 which is going to mean I can only see them infrequently ... even with my mental health plan which is supposed to give me free sessions.

I just don't know what to do.

*continues crying*

*cuddles helen* wow you seem to have a ton on ur mind. Try not to put pressure on yourself. Just make sure you stay within what your comfortable with.. which u prolly don't even know yet since u haven't seen him.. play it by ear i guess. Seems like you guys have had an up and down relationship, its good that you are getting to see him. I think i would be really nervous too if i was in ur position.

p.s. when u were talking about tidying up your place and you said that you "hoovered" i laughed b/c my boyfriends last name is hoover.. and we call it vacuuming.. so whenever i hear someone call vacuuming hoovering i think its hilarious.. sorry u prolly had no desire to know that but o well lol.

*cuddles kahlia* sorry things are so hard and that you still are not getting as much help as it seems that you need. Its good that you are still trying though with seeing new doctors and all...

Stay safe everyone.

*hugs everyone*
i want to get out of my head. *bangs head against the wall*
and i don't want to sleep. i had some really horrible dreams/thoughts when i was trying to sleep last night and they freaked me out...
and my counsellor was not much help today. she told me i have issues with alcohol. talk about stating the f***ing obvious....
ARGH *bangs head on table*

*hugs Imaginary* Do you want to talk about it darlin??

*hugs Kahlia* dont cry sweetheart - would you like some cookies and warm milk?? and maybe a hug from Mr Monkey??

just realised that thanks to here im a year and a half clear - but the triggers and urges wont go away

*creeps in and hides in the corner*

I'm dreading tomorrow. I have make up for my v visible scars incase they wont let me wear any sleeves or my tubi grip. I'm gonna be on my feet from 7.30am to 8pm and right now my energy levels are so low that i really cant envisage how i will manage..... lots of caffeine me thinks, coffee and pro plus all day long :-/ eek!

Sorry I may try and catch up in a couple days but i have 2 long shifts in a row so i prob wont be around for the next couple days.

Love you all, beautiful people. Keep fighting these shitty illnesses and keep holding on to loved ones and things.

*attempts to start a group hug*

((I've come over all emotional now, i want to cry. bloody depression!))

Lots of posts... :) That's a good thing but I wish you all weren't struggling so much!! *cuddles everyone*

One of our pipes burst (in the ceiling, we're on the bottom floor & this is a 3-story build - WTF?!?) so the kitchen got DRENCHED. I had to interrupt soc class to leave to talk with my husband about it as he discovered it when he got home. :( Some of my books, school papers, and papers for my NP's new office got drenched... yuckie. I hate that!! A bad ending to a crappy day. :(

*hides in a corner*

*cuddles everyone*

Is it bad when even your physio thinks that you should be in the psych ward?

*disappears into a dark corner to cry*

rainbow - that's fab :) yay *hugs* its annoying you still get urges though. stay strong :)

Joc - when you read this, i hope you've had a good day or two and that it wasn't as bad as you thought :) *hugs*

April - that really sucks. hope you manage to get it sorted asap! *hugs*

Kahlia - just....*hugs* we're all thinking of you. can i do anything?

i'm just.....in a weird place at the moment and i can't seem to get out of it. but, on the plus side (?!) i haven't been drunk in 5 days. which is quite impressive. i haven't even had 1 drink. hmph. i want one now though and it's like 10am...haha. i won't don't worry.
i feel so on edge all the time. like all this self destructive behaviour is, at some point, just gonna get out of control and something's gonna happen. i don't know what and i don't even want to think about it. i'm avoiding thinking about a lot of things at the moment......
*hides in a corner*

*hugs everyone*

Laura (Friend): I really wish there was something you could do.

I see my GP in the morning and I'm going to be open and honest with him about a) my ex-tdoc and b) how I'm going. I don't know what the outcome will be, but I guess I have to try.

*hugs Kahlia* i hope he listens and does something to help. take care x

*hugs for everyone*

I'm back from Birmingham ... it went so much better than I expected (: But I'm afraid I'm on a depressive episode ATM.

How's everyone?

*gives hugs to all*

sorry dont have many words tonite except hope u feel better soon xx

argh. i need to be put somewhere i swear. i can't keep cutting like this.
*sits on the floor and cries*

*cuddles Laura* What's wrong, sweetie? Are you safe now?

*cuddles LauraFriend* What's up, sweetie? did you take care of the cut?

*cuddles Kahlia* I'm so sorry that you're having such a rough time right now... that sucks beyond belief. What are you going to talk with your GP about?

*hugs Jet and Annie* How're you two doing today? :)

*cuddles Helen* Yeh I understand what you mean... lol. But if you don't want to, you know, then you don't have to. I hope that makes sense & goes along with what you're saying. :P I hope that the visit goes well... the relationship sounds a bit rocky but what relationship - even a friendship relationship - doesn't have its own rocky bits? Keep us updated. :) How are you feeling this morning? ♥

*cuddles Jocelyn* How're you, love? (whenever you read this) I hope that your day(s) at the hospital go well & that you enjoy them, although being on your feet that long is bound to be painful. Take care of yourself... and update us when you can!! ♥

I'm really tired... the ceiling collapsed in part of our kitchen last night after we went to bed, so it is really smelly... yuck. There are rat turds in among the insulation & all too... NASTY. :( Jarrod took the day off work so he could clean up the mess, which is good... and we locked Daniel (kitty) in a huuuge cage that J bought this morning at Walmart, with his litterbox, food, & water, so he wouldn't be in the way. It'll come in handy when the landlord redoes the ceiling, too... can't wait to have a "whole" kitchen again!!! If you want to see pics I have pics... lol.

I'm kind of low right now... tired & dreading classes, even though I only have two today. :( Yuck. I feel like I will never, ever be a competant therapist... thanks to my last advanced counseling class. :crying: I'm so worried about this!! She keeps emphasizing how difficult it is to be a good therapist, & I'm worried that I just don't have what it takes. :(

*hides*

thanks Annie and April
i'm ok now...i cleaned it up and it's all bandaged up. again. i just feel stupid. today was the first day it hasn't been bandaged up but obviously, i can't see it without wanting to do it again. so i did. i hate myself.
*bangs head against the wall and cries*

Laura: I understand. But please try to let it out without harming yourself? Are you in therapy/meds ATM? Are you safe now? *more cuddles*

April: *hugs* Hey! All is getting better. A bit cloudy but I can trudge on. Thanks, in a huge part, to Manperson's support and love = infinite and priceless. How are you?

*cuddles everyone*

April, yes you were on the right lines. I know I don't have to :) Really want to though. Will see what happens though. Discussed what we're going to do a bit more with him last night :) Hopefully am meeting with two of my close friends and going for food. Or may have a takeaway, not sure yet. So that'll help take the pressure off things.


Things aren't so great right now as always, I landed one of my best friends in hospital. Well, she did take the overdose, I told a friend of hers who had to drag her to hospital. Don't think she'll be leaving any time soon, despite it being a small one. She needs to be sectioned for her safety etc. But we shall what happens with that. Things are pretty good with my other best friend, we've gotten even closer in past few weeks - if that's even possible.

I'm sorry about your ceiling and stuff :( Hope it can be sorted it very soon sweet *cuddles* Am sure you'll be a great therapist.

*huggles LauraFriend* I'm glad that you got it bandaged up... was it really bad? :-S Please try to be more careful, sweetie. I know the urges to self-destruct all too well but even feeling them & letting yourself feel them doesn't mean that you ought to give in to them. Please keep fighting, you can & will make it through this!!

*cuddles LauraStar* Sorry, can't remember if I replied to your last post... I hope that classes get better for us... but I doubt it too. The semester was off to a rocky start for both of us, yeh. Ugh. I wish I could either rewind to start over or fastforward to the end... fastforwarding would be preferred!! lol. How're you doing today? how's the anxiety?

*cuddles Annie* Glad that you're feeling better!! at least a little. That's awesome. And I agree, support from significant others is amazing... my husband is priceless!! :) He's so good to & with me. I wish that everyone could have the happiness in a relationship that he & I do. I know it's rare & that's sad... but anyway, rambling. How're you feeling today?

*cuddles Helen* Good, I'm glad I was on the right track. ;) I'm sorry that things aren't so great for you "as usual" - surely sometimes things must go right? *hugs* - and you didn't land one of your friends in the hospital, you took her there because she needed to go as she was unsafe. Unless there's a bit that you're not telling (which is fine, no condemnation - some things "need" to remain private)... but anyway, don't blame yourself please, love. I'm really glad that you've gotten closer to your other bestie, though. That's awesome. :D

So I'm at uni now, just got breakfast at the café in the student centre... I think I mini-binged, or something, I don't know... or I want to... it's so hard!!! :( I hate life right now. And I have so much uni work to do & I don't want to do any of it. The assignment for advanced counseling won't take very long but I still don't want to do it!! I'm such an epic fail... :crying:

So so so tired... yet if I had coffee/Mountain Dew I would be wayyyy too anxious to function. So damnit!!! I don't have any Klonopin (in the right mg anyway) along, so **** **** ****... meant to put more in my bag before I left but forgot due to craziness related to ceiling & cat. GRRRR. :(

*hides*

*cuddles Annie* i've just started counselling (again) but i'm not taking anything and i haven't been to the doctors about anything for about 18months. i don't want to take anything. i don't need to. i'm just being stupid. :( i don't feel safe. i feel like i'm fighting a battle against myself and it's just.....so hard. *cries*

*hugs Helen* i'm glad things are good with one friend, and getting sorted for the other. i'm sure she won't be angry at you or anything. you were just worried. which is understandable when she took an overdose...*hugs*

*hugs April* thank you. it wasn't that bad but if i don't bandage it up i will just make it worse...it's like i have to hide it from myself. stoopid stoopid.
i'm trying but .... i've got so much work and other crap stuff going on at the moment it's so much easier, and quicker, just to do it and then get on with other stuff. it's not what i should be doing i know. i just....i can't keep fighting myself...i just can't. and you're not an epic fail. at all. :) you're fab on here so i'm sure you'll do really well in your counselling assignment :) good luck *hugs* hope you get your ceiling sorted...lol

*cuddles April* Sometimes things do go right, but not having much luck with that at the moment. Although all the stuff I did yesterday was a good positive :) Trying to hold onto that today. I didn't take my best friend to hospital, a friend of hers took her. She lives in Scotland, and I'm in England :p But yeah, I feel like I put her in there :'(

Got to love your head screaming at you once an idea enters your head. I want it to stop :'( I told my best friend. She texted me and then rang me. She's going out with her children & hubby, as it's a birthday today :) (Her middle child..) She told me to text if I needed her. I want to...but I can't. She shouldn't be sat there checking her phone every now and then. I should have kept my ****ing gob shut.

*hugs LauraFriend* I'm glad about it too. She sounded pretty angry via texts this morning (well last night, but it was in the early hours) so she probably hates my guts so much. I was very worried, 3 weeks ago today, we were waiting for her to wake up from a suicide attempt. So I didn't want to risk that again. If I'd been the one who overdosed, she would have been nagging at me for hours to go understandably :( *hugs*

*cuddles everyone*

*heads to the denial tent* anyone in here to keep me company?

i want to cry. i need to cry. but i can't. :( fml

Laura, I'm in the denial tent love, I never really leave it ;)

*hugs laurafriend* im sorry that you cant cry... I know how that feels sometimes. How r u doing now?

*hugs helen* o good, someone is here. :-)
I'm sorry about your friend, but i dont think u should blame yourself for her needing the hospital. Hope you are alright.. or well as alright as you can be.

*hugs april* sorry that uni is stressing you out.. fastforwarding would be kinda nice... and I am a master at procrastination, even with the smallest assignments so you arent an epic fail for not wanting to do an assignment.

Got my 6 hours of classes tonight.. i really hate going for that long without a break. The first two hours will be okay but im always scared for my 4 hour one b/c we have to do so much and we never know exactly what is going on... plus i get tired of sitting there for so long heh. I also HAVE to work on internship stuff for this summer.. but i really dunno how all that works so i have crazy anxiety. I'm fine with applying but the follow up call... no thanks. I dunno what i'm supposed to say. Leave it to me to freak out about the smallest thing like a stupid phonecall.

*cuddles everyone then heads into the denial tent where everything is okay*

Just popping in to give cuddles to everyone and let everyone know I'm doing better than I was last time I posted...
Hope every one's doing ok :)

*hugs everyone*
i'm going to bed, to sleep, in the hope that i'll feel better when i wake up. fingers crossed i can sleep.....Night. take care everyone

*cuddles everyone*

Patch (new material) is being downloaded on WoW so I thought I'd take the time to come on here & see how everyone is doing...

*cuddles LauraFriend* I'm sorry you're feeling so crap... hope you sleep well. ♥ Sleep is the bane of all something-or-other... some famous quote or something talking about sleep in a good way, can't recall it at the mo though, sadly. My brain's all gone. :( Please try & take care of yourself!!

*huggles Helen* J/w, & you don't have to reply if you don't want to, but why do you think you put your bestie in the hospital? (and sorry for the confusion there, heh) Hope you're doing better tonight... & is it okay if I join you & everyone else in the denial tent? I have to leave it during the day to go to uni... because there is reality there that I have to face, lol... but at night I come back into it!! :D heh.

*squishes LauraStar* I'm terrified about my internship stuff, actually, too. I will be doing it over the summer & I'm scared that I won't do very well in the interviewing or annnnything. :( ****. At least I have awhile until then, kind of. Everything (paperwork-wise) is due 15 March, I think. Urgh. I don't want to deal with phonecalls either. :( Good luck with the 6 hours of class; I would HATE that!! Just think though, each class you get through is a class closer to graduation (or summer, if that's easier). *hugs*

*cuddles Kahlia* How're you doing, love?

Uni was looong today, Jarrod stayed home from work & cleaned up the mess from the ceiling collapsing, and then we went out to eat (Subway) and got groceries. Saw my bestie at Walmart (she works with the bread - not a Walmart employee, employed by the bread company to keep the shelves stocked) and we chatted for a bit. Having lunch with her tomorrow... so that ought to be nice.

WoW should be up in a few minutes so I shall stop typing for now should it stop me in the middle of a sentence... hehe. *hugs, cuddles, & cookies for everyone!!*

Join us :D Denial tent goes with you hun :) It's magical like that!! Turns out my best friend left hospital this morning and been busy. Having a good chat at the moment. Feel proper ****. Ah well.

*walks into the denial tent* i do not wanna do this work. i'm going out and getting very very drunk tonight and i can't wait. **** this work.