(((hugs))) Katch

((((Katch)))

I totally understand chick. :( It sucks.

it doesn't matter - nothing matters - i dont know what to say

Katch... I love the picture in your signature!!!! What is that supposed to be?

*hugs everyone some more*

I see Emma in here yay ^_^

*passes around cold drinks and cookies*

MMMMMM cookies!!! :hop:

*hugs Katch* people are horrible sometimes hun. The worst thing is, most of the time they don't even realise they are doing wrong. But it is their short comings not yours that make them act like that and in the same way you would not punish a child for something your pet did, you should not punish yourself for what they have done. You are already suffering from it anyway. Stay strong xx *hugs Ally* I DO want you to keep fighting and doing it though :P so you have to. Besides you CAN do it and 'If one can, then one must'- not sure where that came from....my friend says he made it up...personally I suspect plagiarism but the thought is in it nevertheless. Alexx, Katey Lou, Susan, Zowie and anybody else I have missed off....how are you all doing now? *sending you donkey loads of hugs* Has Chloe abandoned us btw? *shouts for Chloe to get her arse back in here* *sprinkles more hugs and blue smarties* xxxxxxxxxx

It's a photo I took of a 3 toed sloth - believe t or not they are really cute.

damn it, stupid thing has turned my text into one huge block!

*hugs* everyone i'm so sorry everyones struggling.

things are going pants right now my mums been out just got back and has had a go at me for no reason just topped off how i was feeling i thought i'd just managed to hold onto soemthing tonight to keep me going but its gone and now i feel lost and i dont like it. my heads telling me stuff i dont like and i dont have energy to fight it :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

Can you call the crisis team hun? x

i kno theyr are ther but theyl want me up at the hospital and i cnt do that and mum wil want to kno why and i cant tell her she doesnt know. its just a mess. i wanna just curl up and be left to it. but i kno it will uoset ppl but thats what i want

Essentially the choice is up to you sweetie- give yourself the chance to be safe and happy or hurt yourself and have to deal with all the crap that comes from that. I know the crisis team can be really friggin crappy (we disagree on many things lol) but they can keep you safe x

Katey Lou - Just want you to know I am thinking of you - but i dont reply ebcuase I'n no good to you or anyone right now -i'm sorry
i just want to be black and blue and to dissapear and never be found. i dont want them to look for me and i dont want them to find me - I dont even want them to miss me.

Katey, please stay safe, we care aout you.

Urgh I feel ridicously crappy and unloved for some reson. :| Even though I know I have an amazing family and so many amazing friends :)

*hugs* Katch its ok thankyou am thinking of you too.

i cnt choose because i kno if i ring them and yeah they can be very vey crappy at times i'll get really annoyed with myself because i've let them stop me again. but then if i dont ring them i kno wot i'll do.

its all just amess cnt it all just go away!

..........................................hugs to all ...................................
can't see a way out of my thoughts tonight

Stay strong Katey && Katch please :( xxx

Goddess I am soooooooooooooo stupid. I just posted in the Mental Health forum...
and yesterday I posted in the SI forum. Why did I do that? People are gonna think I am crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hell... who am I kidding? I AM CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!! *sits in a corner - rocking herself and crying*

Bound by Thoughts, hmm I don't know if I should be insulted by that 'crazy' comment. Nah, just teasing *hugs* So what if people think you're crazy. F**k them. Besides, posting in those threads does not mean you're crazy.

Have you read them? Read them and you'll see. Yes I am crazy... and a pathetic excuse of a human being!!!!!!! *cries*

*runs into a dusty old corner and stares....*

I stopped taking half of my medication and I'm not going back on it so I'm pretending that this is one of those psych wards in which they don't give a crap whether or not your taking your meds and let you run around and do stupid **** like hook up with married men...right, blame it on the meds and not on what a stupid amoral f**k you are.

No, Amanda, you are not crazy and you are not a pathetic excuse for a human being. Sweetie, you're struggling, we all go through it. We all have times where we feel we're nuts, times when we feel pathetic and useless... But that's the illness talking hun. Please, take care. *hugs*

Katey, sweetie, please be careful. We love you too much to lose you.

Katch, *hugs* I don't know what to say to you sweetie, but please remember we love you.

Helen, what's up sweetie?

Monarkh, whyd you stop taking your meds hun? Have you told your psych/doc? Please hunni, take care.

*hugs everyone*

Me? I'm on my way through the first of two bottles of wine. I'm exhausted, I feel crap, I desperately want to cut... This f**king sucks:crying:

((((((((Katch))))))))
((((((((Amanda))))))))

Yeah, no wheezing and coughing today. :hop: Fumigant must be mostly out of the house.

Three shirts cut out.

Husband replaced the battery in our SUV today so I can drive it tomorrow. Tonight he is at the photo lab so I can cook what I want to for dinner without him complaining about the smell! :hazard: Bring on the bean soup.:-)

Hmmm... Two bottles of wine (equivalent of 6 glasses) in just a little over an hour. I feel like I'm going to be sick but I won't let myself... That's a waste of alcohol...

I can't wait to cut, to bleed, to hurt...

ahem. time differences emma, time differences....i hav an exam in an hr :S so will get back to y'all later xxx

Goooood luck chloe!!! xxxx

All the best for ur exam :-)

Hi everyone, hope you're all doing okay this morning <3
I start my new job today. I'm very nervous but a bit excited!

Good luck in ur new job arwen :)

Hope u have a good day and an enjoyable one too!

Good Luck Chloe & Zowie <3

I still feel like utter ****. Well empty. I feel pretty crap about myself and still want to cut. Joyous days. I don't like college but I have 5 more college days left of lessons.....so might aswell hang on cus I have most of thursday off as it is...

well my exam would have been better if hadn't had physics questions in it.......

I'm sure it went okay hunni *hugs*

I better go to college now >.<

Ahem
*is feeling slightly ignored*
Thankfully though, I am not hung over (wonder of wonders... And a lot of water before bed). I cut pretty deep on my wrist though and since I'm right handed I'm noticing it a lot *ouch*. *rolls eyes at herself* Duh.

Anyway, on to more important things lol

Cloe sorry your exam had physics questions on it:pinch: blech. How do you feel about it otherwise?

Helen, I'm sorry you're feeling so crap luv. Please don't cut, it's not worth it.*snuggles*

*hugs Jeremy, Cloe, Helen, and anyone else that should want/need it*

*yawn* Think I'm going to try and catch a few more hours sleep before I need to get ready for uni.

Hey
Hugs ((((everyone))))
Hope people are feeling better
Good luck in your new job zowie!

I'm ill :( got some horrible sicky thing just to make me feel even worse

*hugs Jo* I'm sorry to hear you're sick Jo :-( I hope you feel better soon hun.

*hugs everybody*

Hope you're feeling better soon Jo :)

Ally, I hope you got some sleep sweetheart xx

Ugh. I feel better, Jane made me laugh. We were having a giggle and she was telling about pud (the baby) wriggling and kicking. Cuuuuute. At the same time though, I still feel crappy. Haven't cut (yet?).....and yeah feeling bit empty. Scared aswell :(

I do feel a bit better now, think it was one of those 24 hr things

Hey helen try to hold on to the happy stuff, sounds like you had a good time, those feelings are annoying how they always creep in but keep trying hon.

I'm a bit messed up on meds so just going to hide over in the corner, yell if you need anything xx

I need to try and hold onto the good stuff. I'm just bit jealous of my friend lol, well her grade....we were on the same team for one unit and she got an A :( I got a ****ing D. Tho....I was having a pretty rough time whilst doing the coursework. It's not fair. I dont wanna be jealous.

Helen, being jealous is natural hun *Hugs* Don't stress yourself too much over it.
Jo, hope you're feeling a bit better now x

My first day of work went okay. I had to take all of my piercings out which was a serious inconvinience (there are a lot of them!) And I was standing working for six hours with just a 15 minute break.
Dunno how long I'll be able to stick with it, feel like a bit of a failure for finding it so tricky when other people manage work so well.

Love you all xxx

Zowie. That's literally breaking the law. You're entitled to least 30 minutes break (I believe). When I'm at work, I can have 30 mins for lunch and a 15 min afternoon break (which hardly anyone takes...)

Glad to hear it Jo. Sorry about your grade Helen, that's rough.

Wow, I'm sorry, I can't really support atm, I'm exhausted, feeling lousy, and I need some food...

*hugs Ally*

I'm glad you've gone to eat :)

Ima gonna curl up in this corner ok?
I don't need this right now...

sory about last night everyone, i'm still here, not exactly in one peice but am here :crying:

*hugs* everyone

*hugs everyone*

What's wrong guys :(

My mind is racing so fast I can't even tell what it is racing about... ARRRGH!!!!

last night didnt go too well and i ended up at that old place called AnE! :'( and it didnt help at all. had the crisis team out today went to uni to try and fin out what was going on wiht my crb and they couldnt tell me anything wich didnt help at all. and now i'm worrying about the operation i have tomorrow! my mums coming with me and i'm dreading it

Good luck with the operation tomorrow hun. I know they're scary but I'm sure it'll be worth it yeah?

*hugs everyone and hands sweets & cookies if wanted*

*hugs everyone*

How are you doing now Ally? Did you get some sleep? Hows the wrist?

*hugs Zowie* Well done on your first day at work :)- don't worry about comparing yourself to other people, other people don't deal with the same stuff you have to. Congratulate yourself on getting a job instead!

*hugs Alexx* what's up hun?

Katey-Lou- sorry you ended up in a+e hun. Good luck with your operation too. Hope it goes alright :)

Bound by my thoughts (sorry I don't know your name), the brain is both a wonderful yet also incredibly annoying thing hun. Hope you feel a bit better soon *hugs*

Jo, glad you feel a bit better now hun *hugs* and I know you said you want your blade back in the other thread but you did the right thing (as little as I realise that helps you right now)

Helen I have replied to your other thread hun but have some more hugs lol *scatters hugs and thoughts for you*

*pokes around for Susan, Callie, Chloe, Katch and Jeremy and leaves hugs and milkshake*
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Me? Well....I have now graduated from wanting to cut. No. actually thats a lie. I want to drink and cut and od and all those other things I shouldn't want, but I have now reached the point where even more than those things, I just want to lie in bed and never move again, perhaps even fall asleep for a few months until life gets easier. This is the longest I have been without cutting for...well...quite a while. I have so much to do this week and I don't know where to find the energy, especially for tomorrow. I am worried the eulogy is far too long as well *sigh*

*goes to rock hidden in the corner*