*hugs everyone*

*cuddles everyone*

I'm really glad I went. Was really good. Think I've finally come up with a cracking plan to get a few issues that have been bugging me (and I've been trying to ignore.) this week. Fingers crossed, I hope I can get it all done this week YAY!!!

*Hugs Lindsay*
*Hugs Helen* That sounds really positive ! :)

No, am not okay.

:'(

*hugs everyone*
april sweetie, whats up?
i had a great time! we got ice cream and sunbathed, then we went to the lake thingy, and it has like a beach bit with sand and stuff, and we went paddling, and there are trees over it, and we were walking across them so we could sit and dangle our feet in the water, and i fell in :/ lol

*cuddles helen, lindsay, april, mark, nicole, JK, kahlia, oliver, and anyone else i'm missing*

Failure.

*cuddles laura* who's a failure hun?

Whats the matter April?

Laura , why a failure?

Nicole it sounds like you had a lot of fun :)

i did :D not having fun now i'm home though :(

aww, why not?

everyones arguing, i want to go to a meet in manchester, but my mum wont let me, she treats me like a child! urgh. it bugs me so much!

I am. A pathetic failure.

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Laura* You are not a failure mate , whats made you think that?

you're not a failure sweetie *hugs*

But i am... b/c I cant seem to figure anything out and i'm not getting anything done that i am supposed to do. And all i can think about is SI and suicide but I don't want to SI anymore, its not like its actually going to help, but if i dont SI the suicide thoughts will get worse... and i need to talk to someone, but my friend is avoiding my message about needing to talk and i hardly talk to anyone else... and its pathetic b/c the only other person i can think to call is my ex and half of all this is his fault anyway...

you're not, really hun.....x

*pokes head out of dark hole*

Laura, honey, there is so much more than SI and SU, but when we're fighting urges the thoughts take over everything else. Keep fighting sweetheart, you've had a big weekend with your Relay for Life, and cos you're physically tired you will be emotionally tired as well ok? When I used to run marathons I would completely fall into a heap of tears at about the 32k mark, the body/mind relationship is a complicated one, be gentle with yourself. *hugs Laura tightly*

April, love, what's happening? Keep talking to us and we'll try and help drag you [gently] out of your hole and keep you safe. *clambers down to cuddle April*

Hugs Kahlia, I know you're still struggling, keep going hun. *hugs gently*

*hugs Mark, Lindsay, Oliver, Helen* hope you're all doing OK, and nice to see things are/were a little bit brighter for you Helen and Mark.

*jumps on Nicole* welcome back sweetheart, I missed you x

I'm undecided as to how I am today, have called in sick to work and will stay in bed for a while and see what the day brings.

Love and strength to you all
x

*prizes JK off her and hugs* hey hun. thanks :D i missed you too xx

*Hugs JK*

lol, thanks Nicole, my first smile for the day
How you Mark? Things still OK for you tonight?