Hi all.
Am down. Exams looming, res school looming, very poor result in a subject, been ill, all of which on top of everything else is tripping me off the deep end and whispers are louder. Didn't sleep at all the other night. Burying myself in books to avoid my reality. Whispers are encouraging me to hurt myself.
Don't know what to do.
*hugs for anyone who wants One*

Hey Annie, Am sorry you are down *Offers Safe Hugs* Are you still ill? What is res school?

Sorry you are feeling down Annie.

I hope you can be on the same continent with your love Mark. I can only imagine how hard that is.

I'm feeling on edge. Hubby asked how I was doing. I told him stressed and worn out. Pretty much got no response. Typical. :/ I feel like I'm drowning and instead of treading to breathe every once and awhile it just feels easier to drown instead.

This is too hard, feels like everyday is just a battle to stay alive.
I hurt myself tonight and I don't know why, it didn't help. It never does.

Still a bit flu-ey. Just finished my antibiotics.
Residential school is a week of practical learning for External students. It's a full week, study wise, and I'll be away from home the whole time. Which is good and bad.
Just feeling not ready, especially with all the crap going on right now.

Oh Ashley , I'm sorry you are struggling so much *Offers Safe Hugs*

Will you be far away from home , Annie?

Yup, interstate. Which in Australia, is generally hours away.
* hugs for Ashley and Mark and Kathryn* - these were supposed to be handed out in the previous post. I'm having trouble with viewing and responding to whole things right now.
Kathryn, I've had similar responses from the man. It left me feeling empty, angry and worthless. Have no advice on how to deal with it. But I feel for you.

Ashley, we keep fighting, in the hope that things will improve.

How are you all this Bank Holiday / Memorial Day / Whatever Day it is where you are ?

Exhausted, yourself?

Had my first CPN appointment this morning, it was hard going.
First day back at work tomorrow, I'm terrified.
Hope everyone else is well.

Exhausted Also . . . . But that's Par for the course these days.

Sent you a short PM Ashley .

How are we all atm? *Puts out Cake*

Alive and unharmed. Convinced myself to put off urges again. Headache. Exhausted, but that also seems par for the course.
Good luck with work Ashley.
* starts the kettle for tea and coffee*

Well Done putting off the Urges , Annie *Hugs* I know how hard that is :(

I am Anxious and so so sad .

Very Little has changed , the insecurity is immense.

Does anyone know how to make a CV or Resume?

How are we all today?

Really struggling right now.

*disappears into pillow fort to cry*

Sorry I have to hide all this, keeping strong for the world but I just can't...

*Hugs Kahlia Tight*

I'm a nurse, I'm supposed to look after people. How can I do that if I can't even look after myself?
I'm weak and hurt myself and now it's looking infected. I thought going back to work and having something to do would help but it makes no difference. I come home and still feel the same.
I was invited out with a friend today and said I would go then today just ignore her all day because I couldn't face it.
How is everyone else doing?

PS. Mark you can get pretty good CV templates online. My dad altered mine (he's a business manager and reckons this makes him an expert :ermm:) if you like you can use it as a template.