If it helps you could tell yourself if you don't you'll get yourself one of these http://shop.recoveryourlife.com/inde...product_id=102

Maybe caged animals would be allowed , I used to have Mice , they are cute and nice and quiet (exept that they get on their wheel at night , but that you aclimbatise(sp?) too) , Maybe thats why john is allowed his Parrot , which incidently is also named Sam hehe (No offence intended Sam)

Thats a good idea Crimson . I already bought myself one when I in fact "qualified" for it , That seems yonks ago.....

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise* :)

*hugs Mark and Julie*

*hugs Louise and waves to Owen*
How are you guys?
*hugs Mark* Still urgy or has it eased up some?

*Hugs Back Owen if okay* * waves to Owen in sleeping bag* Hey Owen , Thankyou for my hugs :)

The urge is still there but it seems to have eased a bit which I am grateful for , I can still feel it tugging at me under the surface , it only takes the most seemingly insignificant thing to trigger me over the edge , I MAY go to bed soon , can't injure whilst sleeping .

"Asleep is the safest place you can be"

I'm number one on curveball now Crimson , I noticed you are number 5 I think , are you going to take my throne?

lol i dunno... i've only played curveball a couple times. mahjong keeps me distracted longer without making me anxious.

*Hugs My ward mates Goodnight* *Waves to Owen Goodnight*

Take care :).

*hugs Mark goodnight*

night mark, take care x

*cuddles everyone*

*cuddles Helen* How are you doing?

*hugs Crimson* Really shitty. You?

*waves at Owen* How are you?
*hugs Helen* Struggling but hanging in there...

*Hugs everyone* I'm sorry so many of you are struggling :(

Thank you so much Owen. How are you apart from tired?

Sorry you're struggling too but glad you're hanging in there.

*hugs Ian*

WOW that was awkward... I got a call as a employment reference for the person who used to volunteer here... I tried not to keep him from getting employed but what can you say when they ask why/how they left their time here if they found out someone else got the job they applied for and just never came back and didn't reply to phone calls to see if they were coming back or not... >.>

*Waves to Owen*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Ian*

How is everyone feeling today?

Hi Owen :) How are you tonight ? ( You have night right? )

Drinking Coffee Owen , I have to go to the post office to post a "New home" Card to my best friend and also a Christmas card to her :)
Why are you frowny Owen ?

I'm sorry Julies Daddy was mean to you Owen :(

:( I sorry he was mean to any of you :( What did he do ?

Awh , I'm sorry Owen :(

*Sits next to Owen*

*Spots and hugs Lindsay* How are you?

Thanks for the hug, Mark *hugs back* How are you today?

I'm feeling okay Thanks Lindsay. Been buying Essantial oils for my oil burner and candle to burn online , Just generally trying to make a relaxing atmosphere here . I burn inscense which is nice but leaves me walking through a fog inside my flat , I'm amazed it didn't set of the Smoke Alarm the other day , My cooking has set that off in the past ! hehe. How are you Lindsay?

Sounds nice. My cooking sets off my smoke alarm almost every time!

I'm ok, a bit better than yesterday but still feeling vulnerable. I saw my doctor this morning to get a medical certificate to say that i'm not fit to work. I also wanted to ask about a rash that I have over most of my body but didn't get a chance to say anything. My doctor always assumes that i'm there because of my mental health.

I don't know about rashes Lindsay ,perhaps you could make an appointment to see your Dr ONLY about that , then he won't get side-tracked by your mental health issues if you just say " I'm here because of this rash" he will examine it . *Hugs*

Are you off to bed Owen , it must be late there :)

Yeah, i'll do that but i'll have to wait for a while because I see my doctor too often.

Hope you sleep well, Owen.

*Spots and Hugs Oliver* :) How are you ?

*hugs all*

sorry i've been gone for a while, was admitted to hospital last onday after my crisis team appt and only got discharged last night.
at least i at last got an actual diagnosis out of it, emotionally unstable borderline personality disorder and depressive disorder NOS.
which is a relief to know especially the personality disorder, but i'm bloody scared.
sorry for no individual replies there are what seems like a million pages since i was last here

You've been through so much, Oliver. *hugs*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry you had to go throuh that :( Sometimes it can help having a Name to go with all your feelings though *Hugs*

*hugs mark and lindsey* how are you both?

I am feeling okay although stull urgy :( and getting too stressed about Christmas , wrapping , buying , generally begining to panic slightley, " who have I forgotten? what if they get me a HUGE presant and mine is only small etc... The usual.

10 Days Self Injury free though . .... Can it last? Who knows.....

You're doing really well, Mark. I have faith in you.

I'm ok so far, just waiting to run out of things to do and then i'll be back down again. *sighs*