*hugs Lia* yeah unfortunatly many LGBT people have been murdered its horrible, I fit into both worlds being gay aswell :p night, sleep well

*hugs Lore, Shad and Ian*

Trying to stay strong/brave for today.....but it hurts :(

*hugs Helen* we're here if you wat to talk.

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Shad* WAY TO GO YOU !!!!

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Lore*

*huggles all*

*Hugs Kahlia* How are you?

*hugs Mark* How are you, dear?

hey felicia :)
and everyone else im just too lazy to go through the page :P
gah so freaking bored

*Hugs Felicia* I'm Feeling okay , which feels odd to me heh . A bit depressed , I guess about my Grandma but it's depressed not Depression. How are you ?

*Hugs Heather* How are you ?

im... eh. ok i guess.

*hugs mark*

*hugs everyone*

Hey all just visiting.

You alright Lindsey?

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you this evening?

*Hugs Lia* How are you too?

*hugs shad* i remember you as well! Nice job on staying free! I'm glad that you are feeling better!

*hugs lia* how r u doing hun?

*hugs oliver* the vigil sounds like it would be hard to hear :-/ Hope you are doing alright today.

*hugs ian* I read your r/v. I'm glad that you are able to get through the low times, even without a clear coping mechanism. Sometimes just knowing you have gotten through before can help a lot. I tell myself that sometimes. Very proud of you as well.

*hugs mark* Glad you are feeling okay at the moment. I know its been really hard lately with your grandma but I think you've been doing really well dealing with it, despite everything else.

*hugs helen tight* whats up hun? You are a very brave and strong person.

*hugs heather, lindsay, and and kahlia* how r u doing?

*hugs felicia* yeah, it does sound like we have pretty similar stresses with uni and all lol. How r u feeling today?

I'm back in my hometown for break now. Hoping to go shopping today for a winter coat so i don't freeze to death walking to class anymore lol. Feeling low but I'm okay. I'm busy enough with other stuff to stay distracted I suppose. Plus, I can't SI when i'm home b/c I can't let my family find out again.

I'm... okay today. Just low and extremely low on words... Kinda mad at people in my life.. Idk.

*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Lindsay* How are you this afternoon?
*Hugs Lia* How're you?
*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry you're dealing with depression. I think you've handled everything sooo well *extra hugs*
*Hugs Laura* That's how I feel about break too. I got a winter coat yesterday! I hope you find a nice one.

*hugs laura* hope break isnt too boring etc.
<3

I'm ok. Starting on a different antidepressant this evening or tomorrow morning and i'm looking forward to it. I've felt so low being off antidepressants altogether.

*Hugs Laura* Have fun Shopping:)

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Felicia*

Ugh. I have to get blood tests done tomorrow. So. nervous.

(edited - not worth the support clearly)

Laura, I did answer your question but I'll pm you x

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Felicia* I hope your tests go well

cries...

*limps in and flops down in a bean bag chair*
today sucks. freezing rain... i fell... the temps are supposed to get up to the 40s today... tomorrows gonna be a mess. i may just stay freaking home tomorrow. as it is from my fall this morning i was 45 min late to work and i have a bruise developing from hip to ankle on one side :( ... my arm got landed on too...

*Hugs Crimson* I'm sorry you got wet ( I hate that ) and that you fell ( I Hate That Too ) *Makes hot chocolate for you*

*Hugs all*

I'm sorry Helen. I hope you're alright.

*Hugs Louise* What's the matter?

I'm alright for all those of you who asked, my sister's doing my nut in, but that's nothing new.

Oh, and good luck Felicia, I hope everything goes well. My friend had a blood test the other day, she was really scared, but it was alright. Her arm ached afterwards, but apart from that she was alright.

*hugs crimson* I hate it when I get huge bruises... hope its getting better soon.

*hugs Mark*

*hugs Louise* how are you?

*hugs Helen*

hugs Felicia*

What's your daughter's name Helen? You don't have to talk about her if you don't want, but sometimes it's nice to talk about those who aren't here who we miss dearly.

Thanks, Lia. I'm absolutely terrified of needles... and test results, but mostly needles... so I dread blood tests.
*Hugs Crimson* I hate that you fell, that sucks.
*Hugs Lore* How're you, darlin?
*Hugs Mark*

*hugs everyone* thanks guys. it's just sore right now... Saturday was fun though. a friend talked me into going with her to a pole dancing class and then we went out to a couple of bars. it was pretty awesome.

now that i'm not in such a sour mood... how is everyone?

I'm alright, Crimson. Just tired, midly upset, busy, and absolutely despising being an English major right now haha.

Ah, Felicia, you're making English at uni seem less and less appealing right now. It's the only thing I am any good at though. And I do love it.

I looked it up in my Journal and Calender today . If I can make it through tmorrow I'll be 1 week free :) Only thing is now I've realised that it's all I can think about :S

Mark, *hugs* you can do it, I'm around if you need a chat. =)
Lia, If you love it, you'll be fine. It's just stressful, and (I think) more time consuming than other majors. I love it, usually. I'm just very stressed, cause I have like 5 papers due on the same day. English at uni is usually awesome.

Paypal won't clear payment into my account but people have tried to pay me , I even made a new e-mail and aypal accounts but that didn't work. Damn IT!!!!!!!!!!! I am so stressed , SO triggered . sorry . :(:(:(:(

Ill trade you, Felicia. I'll go to uni and you can come to work lol
*hugs Mark* Congrats! you can do it!

I believe in you, Mark. My condition management worker told me to day that how we phrase things is important. Instead of saying 'I don't want to self harm' (if that's what you're saying to yourself) try saying something like 'I want to be in healthy and safe control.'

things have been hard today.

hugs everyone

*hugs Louise* Do you want to talk about what has been happening?

one of my friends has landed in hospital and is not well at all.

*Hugs Louise*

I screwed up.
I cut.
I took 2 Diaz first but didn't give them the chance to work.
It's beeding / bled more than expected , I wasn't in control.
I feel I've let you all down , You were kind to me , kind words .
There goes the 1 week milstone .
I can't go on like this :(
Sorry.

You haven't let us down Mark. You still did really well to make 6 days, you should be proud of that. I'm sorry you didn't make it as long as you wanted though. *Hugs*.

And Louise, I am sorry about your friend, I hope she/he is alright.

*Hugs Lia* I'm So fed up of Self Injury , I want to stop but I can't , I need it . FFS it's been going on 16 years:(

You CAN stop Mark.
It takes time, strength & hard work.

hugs everyone, you have not lets us down mark

*hides*
i quit.

*HUgs Nicole hard* Please don't.

I think it's best I don't post in here again.
I'm sorry.

No it isn't Helen. We would all miss you so much. What's happened?

we would miss you helen if you did not post here again

*hugs lia.* :(
*hugs helen* please do. whats the matter?