*hugs everyone, especially sarah cause i spies her.*

*cuddles all* I kinda want to go live in my dream world, where I'm safe in a room at the top of a lot of stairs where its safe from the whole outside world and I don't have to leave because I'm safe and protected and have nothing to worry about at all. Is that strange? I mean really this girl is a stranger but I feel safe in there. I wish I could hide inside my own mind sometimes.

*hugs sarah* no thats not strange sweetie, i think we all want to escape at times, and we all have a perfect place for that to be, wether its a real place or not. are you ok?

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Ryuu*

*Hugs Jill*

*hugs mark* how're you tonight?

Watching star trek , feeling numb still :(

I think I'm okay, I just want to disappear into there. Its safe and happy and people can't get to me to argue or anything. I just think its been too much recently and thats how my mind has reacted. I dunno :/

mark-aaw sorry to hear that :( is there anything you can do that might make you feel better?
sarah-i know the feeling. it will get better.
*hugs you both*

I don't know Nicole , I hope just watching ster trek movie and staying on here and then sleep and hope (HOPE HOPE HOPE) I wake up feeling better tomorrow .

How are you tonight Nicole ?

i will wish for you :)
i'm good thanks mark, 3rd day in a row getting along with my sister :) and we're both staying at our grandads again tonight, then college tomorrow :D gonna stretch my ear peircing later and put a tongue bar in there which is gonna be painful :/ and then getting my cartilage peirced on friday.

OOOh Nicole Good luck with your piercings , I have none but they sound painful but are super cool to look at :) Yey!! for getting along with your sister :)

thanks mark :D i now have my lip, tongue, nose and ear lobes done, i'm stretching one of my ear lobes and getting my cartilage done friday then when i get some more money im getting my tragus pierced :D and they arent too painful mark. (well, my lip was, but the others werent.) and its amazing me and my sister are getting on :D we can be nice to eachother when we want to :/

Nicole , *Dumb Question* what's a tragus? Belly button?

My lip didn't hurt at all. I've had a few more, erm, intimate piercings in my time, so I can compare them to that. Most painful was ear cartilage, the bottom, thick bit (inner conch) has to be the most painful thing ever though :p

Mark - this should help (its the little flap bit)

http://www.londonpiercingclinic.co.u...0map%20bme.jpg

hi everyone *hugs*

Hi Laura :) *hugs* how are you?

HEE Thanks Sarah That helps tons :)

To be honest, not that great and I can't seem to concentrate on uni work. Ive gotten nothing done this weekend. Fail.
I don't know.. I think work is keeping me going b/c i know i have responsibilities there. Which is good i guess, but just doesnt always seem worth it.

*Hugs everyone* Sorry for lack of individuals.

*Hugs Jill* It's a deal. Thank-you for caring. I love you too.

*Hugs Laura* Hugs are all I have tonight , again . sorry

Hugs are fine Mark *hugs*

I'm feeling really stressed and I can't seem to wind down :/

*hugs Mark*
Oh yay! I got a new halloween costume today! I now officially have enough costumes to dress up every day on halloween week.

WOW!!! Felicia :) thats going to be a spooky week :P

haha, I only have like one actually spooky costume. The rest are just fun.
I adore Halloween and dressing up.

I like dressing up, but I have very few costumes

It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep.

*Hugs Felicia*Halloween photo's !!! when it comes of course ,I want to see your costumes :)

*Hugs Lia* I hope you got some sleep and feel better this morning .

*Hugs Sarah*

*hugs everyone*

Just had a holiday club this morning so now really tired.

*Hugs Louise* Hey:)

*Spots and hugs Lia* How are you?

I've got to run out to a meeting , back in a little while .

cuddles everyone.
lia: im so glad your okay and didnt do anything to yourself, would really miss you girly <3.
way to much thoughts running through my head and they will not shut up, someone please shut them up. curls up into a ball.

*Hugs Jill*

I have a cold. Keep away from me.

thanks mark, im in a bit of a mess today, feel so triggered. thoughts in my head are really loud. most are really stuiped thoughts. trying really hard to keep my mind off the thoughts. i hate this.
awww that sucks hun, hope you feel better soon. mark how are you today?

*Hugs Lindsay* :( Nuts

I slept shortly after posting last night. Maybe the internet screen made me eyes tired.

Sorry to all those who already read my post, it was stupid. I deleted it before anyone else did.

*Hugs Jill* How are the meds working out for you? Are you still taking them? I'd miss you too, I wish there was something I could do :/

*HUgs Mark* How are you?

*Hugs Lindsey* You alright? Apart from the cold.

*HUgs Louise* Sorry, being blind, didn't see you there :)

*Hugs Felicia* Haloweeen isn't a huge deal over here, but I'm watching horror movies with a friend this year and a couple of years ago, we were in school so I wore a mask all day. That was fun :) I hope you have a good week.

hugs lia. erm, don't feel any diffrent, but its my 4 day of taking them, so might not see any diffrence for a good while yet which sucks. cause right now i wish i had something to make my head shut up. sorry. hows you today lia ?

*hugs everyone*
feel like **** right now, am so triggerd :( i'm still at college, gonna be here for at least another hour :(

*Hugs Lia* Don't be sorry Lia , it wasn't stupid if it's how you feel

*Hugs Jill* Meds can take a while to kick in , keep going .

*Hugs Nicole* Whats triggered you so much ? *Hopes you're safe*

blah. i love that out of 5 topics, of course i get picked to do a presentation/class discussion on 'embodiment' ie ed's and body image... goody. fml o_O

*Squishes Heather*

hows you mark?

hi everyone

I'm odd thanks Heather . cold and getting ready for a bath , feel lonely a bit but it helps to talk to you guys :)

we are here for you mark

*hugs louise* how r u doing today?

*hugs heather* im sorry you got picked for that topic, I know it'll be hard, but maybe you'll find some of the information interesting/helpful? I don't know. Its always good to educate yourself about things though...

*hugs nicole* hope you managed to stay safe at college.

*hugs felicia* sounds like your halloween is going to be a lot of fun! I have yet to decide what I am going to be yet.

*hugs mark* how r u?

*hugs lia* glad you were able to get some sleep. How are you feeling today?

*hugs lindsay* sorry to hear you have a cold. Drink lots of fluids!

*hugs sarah and jill* how are both of you?

*wanders around looking for april, helen, kahlia, crimson, oliver, and other wardies*
I'm just circling in and out of bad and extremely stressed... aka. same old thing. No need for a big update, you guys will be sick of hearing from me.

Laura we are here for you anytime you need to talk?
How are you Heather?

I could be better

Hey guys its been a while since i've been anywhere around here. I sadly just felt I lost my connection with this place. I'd like to reconnect with RYL, with new people and old people. So hi =]

*Hugs Laura* We're NOT sick of hearing from you , no such thing :)

*Hugs Louise*

Hi TheSuffererComplex :) I'm Mark .*Hugs if okay*

Hi Josh, how are you?