I think I'm in a state of shock. Is that possible? Cause all that happened whas bad news.

:hug: Sorry you have had bad news do you want to talk about it?
My pm box is always open

It's just something we were talking about in therapy yesterday.
We were talking about changes that I could make to make my home a safer place and dad is the unsafe part in my life. He doesn't live at home, but I have a lot of contact because 'my' horse belongs to him. Stopping contact would mean that I can't see the horse anymore and with that I would lose my main skill. Besindes... my horse can't be simply replaced by another horse. He's too awesome!

:hug:oh that's hard to deal with am sorry that i cant suggest anything that you can do but i hope you work out and stay safe

hugs everyone

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Louise*

*hugs Alex*
*hugs Louise*
*hugs Ian* how are you?

I dunno what to do. My therapist said that I should do things with baby steps. The thing is that the horse usually made me feel useful and happy, now it all makes me sad.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Alex*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Louise*

:hug:
how is everyone today ?
Voices are really loud but i have just taking my medication so hopefully it starts to work soon.

I'm not great. Fed up. As you know my grandad passed away yesterday and im in a bit of a mess we all are. To make matters worse iv been very stressed at times due to other problems. I have to attend a course thing through the jobcentre and its made me very stressed and deppressed. I'v made complaints but they dont seem to care. I'v got an appointment at the doctors on Friday its just like a review but im going to speak to them about it because iv just had enough of it. I want to see if they can sign me off of having to go to this awful place because its to much.

Im stuck up there every bloody day jobsearching for two and a half hours which is rising to 3 hours because i havent had an interview. Its not my bloody fault. I'm sorry to moan im just pissed of with this place. I'v explained to the staff how it makes me feel being here but they dont even try to understand. I know they are doing there job and they only do what they are told but i cant cope with being there. I want a job i really do, im not lazy but the problem is the time we have to be there and the fact im there everyday its just to much. I got so stressed and fed up last time i ended up hitting the wall.

*massive hugs Ian*
*hugs Alex*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs ppl who I may have forgotten to hug*

I had a dentist appointment today. So much pain. I think he likes to torture me.

hiding under my blanket crying

*sits with*
hullo.

sorry in pain from dentsist laura :(

thanks for sittting with me
i've been having lots of flashbacks tonight. Feeling very scared

:-(
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ad.php?t=77244
could help.
<3

Hard to catch up , sorry , *Hugs*

*hugs princess* sorry I don't know your name. How are you today?
*hugs Heather* thank you for replying to my thread in A&B
*hugs Mark*

no prollem <3

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

Sorry, my name is Patti. I baked cookies, anyone want one?

*Hugs Patti* Ohh Ty ! Nom's

*Hugs Ian* I'm so sorry to hear about you Grandfather :( *Huggles*

*hugs Heather*
*hugs Mark*
*hurs Patti*

'hi everyone' hugs

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Patti*

How is everyone?

I'm ok, haven't been up long. How are you today? hugs

How are you Patti?

Hi Doikers, I was doing fine. But, now not so good. 'hides under blanket"

*sits near*

thanks for sitting with me. i don't feel safe right now

I is here if you wana talks. *sits near* i share elafint mhm.

*Hugs Patti*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Alex* It's almost 11am not can you wake your Husband?

:hug:Had to wake my husband up early because of the voices they where telling me i must die
feel like i should but i talked to my husband about it and am feeling OK now .

That's good Alex :) Have you taken your meds now?

Thats good Alex :) *Hugs*

*group hug*

*hug*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heather*

Morning Wardies ! *Hugs*

*hugs all*

how are you?

*Hugs Laura* Hows you?

*hugs Mark* how are you?

therapy was great and shitty at the same time today.
I have a session with my mom next week... urgh.

*sits with*

*Hugs Laura* It's to early to tell atm.

*Hugs Heather*

How are you all?

I've got an appointment with my psychologist today. Not really looking forward to it because it takes so much effort to try and hold my emotions inside. And I miss my previous psychologist.

How is everyone else?

you dont gotta hold emotions in, that what counseling for. <3 [know its hard to let emotions out tho]
*offers hug*

im...ok.

*Hugs all*
*Curls up*

*hugs all*

Work is busy... but unless I am doing work, my mind wanders to terrible places. My dreams can be occasionally frightening. I hate it. Feb/March/April are always terrible times for me. I don't like being the keeper of things. People tell me stuff cause I am so personale and always listen and make them feel better. I wish I could have that reprocity, but I shut up cause I am afraid to say anything.

Sorry for the rant, just had to say something before I do something wrong. Cause doing stuff wrong gets attention. And its the only way to get attention from the people who are supposed to love me.