Hmm Could you have fruit afters Nicole ? Is the tin a big tin?

*hugs lia*

I didn't have a late night and I wasn't up early but I am tired :S If I try to nap now will I sleep later ? choices choices . erp .

Well I attempted Napping but hardly slept and kept looking at the clock every 10 minutes hmmm :S

*hugs mark* maybe thats a good thing you might sleep well tonight.

Hope so Nicole :)*Hugs* How are you feeling now? The Postie hasn't come today (so far) , Too Icy I reckon

*hugs mark* I'm ok, just trying to decide wether its too early to eat dinner yet :/ yesterday really scared me and i kinda wanna just get dinner over with and forget about it for the rest of the day. you?

I'm feeling okay , numb still but that's hardly even worth mentioning it's so common these days , I've put my heating on just now , I got out from my blankets and realised it's cold now the sun is going in :S

Lol. Its already pitch black outside here. No sun left. And I am in bed cause its warm lol.

Yeah it's dark here too , I'd get in bed but that means I'd have to unplug my Desk top P.C., Plug it in to my bedroom , balance the monitor on my feet , balance the keboard on my knees and put a book or something down beside me to run my mouse on heh :P

lol mark, that coul be interesting XD i have a tiny little netbook :P

I hate the dark, it's miserable.

*Hugs Lindsay* *Lights candles to keep the dark away from Lindsay*

*hugs linsay*
I'm quite strange, i'm scared of the dark, and yet i love night time. :/ heh.

*Hugs ward* I love that you guys are talking about dinner, and evening, and dark.

And it's only half past noon where I live and I just got up. haha.

*Hugs Felicia*

How are you, Felicia?

*hugs felicia* lol, I have eaten dinner, had a bath and go in my PJs. XD its only 6.30pm.

Oh I just bought some Green Tinsel to wrap around my lights from ebay , heh . I'm finding it so hard to get into the festive spirit but I'm trying . Christmas seems more of a hassle what with the buying and wrapping (Eugh) of gifts and all . I'm not excited hmmm.

Nicole, I wish I was as well prepared as you! I hate getting washed, it takes so much effort but of course I do it anyway.

Mark, don't try and force yourself to feel Christmasy, maybe it will come with time. *hugs*

*Hugs Lindsay* I bet you're right . I Hate washing too but still somehow force myself to do it.

lol lindsay-organised? me? never. I am the least organised person in the world XD i just spend half my life in the bath, its so relaxing!!
Hmm, i'm thinking about what college course i wanna do next year, and what college i wanna go to. :/

Heh Nicole , you just gee'ed me into having a bath and getting into my PJ bottoms and my Green Hoodie , :P

lol mark.
Anyone got ay suggestions for a good college?

I suppose I'm okayish, Lindsay. I'm struggling a lot. How are you?
Ahhh, Nicole, I haven't even gotten out of my PJs. I will eventually, but I'm not going anywhere, so meh...
*Hugs Mark* The Christmas spirit will come, darling. Don't force it.

I finished my hugeee project that was slowly causing me to go insane. WHOOO! Oh, and I just have one week of uni classes, and then finals left. EXCITING. Now, I really really have to get the rest of my papers done! Eep!

Way to go on finishing your project Felicia :)!!! *Wishes you luck with your other papers*

*yawns* eugh. i'm tired.

Thanks, Mark! I hope I can do it.

Nicole, I'm tired too.

2nd on curveball , wrapped Dads Little Christmas presant and learnt how to tag someone on FB , heh not so productive today , Tomorrow I don't know , I want to sleep soon , feel fed up ......and tomorrow is.....well I won't jinx it until I say tomorrow.

mmm felicia, i dunno wether i should go to be ealy or not :/ i'm also really hungry and wanna binge :(

*Hugs Nicole* Please don't binge , you'll only feel crap afterwards :( *Worries about Nicole*

I know :( It's silly. I'm trying to rationalise it now, cause i've eaten so little today, i still have lots of leftover calories........

Perhaps bed is a good idea , I'm seriously considering it too , you may feel different tomorrow . When I was drinking last week I looked for any excuse to drink more , any justification or rationalisation , like if someone was mean to me online for instance and I told myself it would be the last drink and there was almost always more , the same with self injury , I can rationalise that all the way around the world and back again, I know that these aren't the same as wanting to binge but it's the closest I know personally , so I guess I can relate in the fact that it's self destuctive behaivior *Hugs Nicole*

I know mark *hugs* I just don't know what to do, i either binge eat, or don't eat at all, i can't seem to find a balance :( Right, i'm gonna have a little bit of fruit, thats all. I don't need to binge.
*repeats that last sentence over and over again*

Okay Nicole that sounds sensible :) *Hugs*
I'm going to head off to bed , *Hugs My wardies*

*night time hugs mark*
EUGH. I hate this family! Yeah, of course i ate my sisters advent calendar chocolates, i've only ****ing carefully counted calories and been near starving all day, just to go and ruin it all on a couple of chocolates!
Jeez. I might aswell just dissapear :(

OMFG I SPY APRIL!!!!!!!! *jumps on and squishes as hard as possible!*

*peeks in*

Sorry I've not been around in practically forever. :o

I have no good reason for that but I really do apologize. :( I'll try to be about a bit more often (i.e., at least every day?)... because I've missed you all. Hopefully none of you are angry with me. :(

Update on my end of things: managed to stick training out for my job and have been there a month now. I "kinda sorta" have a caseload now but not completely... although I've totally been able to drive cars that have municipal license plates!! (i.e., the kind that look very official XD makes me feel important, haha) Hehe. I know, kind of silly and all that but it's nice feeling, well, important. :P I don't often feel that way, so yeah. >_<

The reason that I haven't been "online" (i.e., the interwebz) as much as I had been, is because a new expansion for WoW is coming out on Tuesday and I have been really rushing to level characters, blah blah blah, have done pretty well though!! My head feels a bit like exploding from working at one reputation grind for 2 characters for about 8-10 hours total between yesterday (last night) and today (this morning and afternoon). Guhhh. But I got 8 really pretty riding mounts for all that effort. XD (If you want to see what one looks like, go here: http://www.wowpedia.org/File:Cobalt_War_Talbuk.jpg) But anyway. :3

I will try to be around more, but with the new expansion out... well, "try" is the key word. My guildies on both servers I'm really active on will be wanting to do a lot of stuff (new zones and dungeons, etc., etc.) so we'll see. I MISS YOU GUYS, though!!!!

*hugs all*

*squishes Nicole back* XD

Guess I've been missed?... :P

*hugs april* you have been massivley missed! i'm glad you're ok, and are managing your job well :)
Ooh, I suddenly feel so much happier :)

Awh, I'm glad that you feel so much happier!! *hugs* Oh, and the chocolate? your body probably needed it, starving's no good. Been there done that, and am still struggling with it now even though it's really been 4 years since it's been at its worst. So yeah. Try to eat in moderation... although I also understand struggling with that. Seems like I've been all over the ED map myself, so to speak. >_<

*curls up in the corner*

*hugs april*
The annoying thing is, i actually didn't eat her chocolates. But now i've gone and eaten a load of chocolate, cause she upset me :( silly family.
Anyways, how have you been?

Wow, ward's quite.

lol i know :-p

Hows everyone?

I'm alright thanks. Went to see Harry Potter again and then went back to my friend's and we watched 'Merlin' and 'I'm a Celebrity'. 'Twas fun. You?

*Hugs Lia* I'm glad you had a good time. I'm ok thanks. I dont like christmas i cant wait for it to be over. Sorry to whinge. I like decorations and christmas trees but nothing else. I'm looking forward to my birthday though, i dont know why because im not doing anything, but im planning to have some alcohol lol.

*hugs everyone and then curls up*

*Hugs Helen* How are you?

*hugs Ian* Not too good. You?

Oh :( im sorry to hear that Helen. Whats up? Do you want to talk about anything? I'm good thanks. I'm here if you want to talk sweety.