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Damnation. 07-01-2009 10:50 PM

>__O I know how you feel, Lucy

*Sits in corner and rocks*

Accidentally Abstract 07-01-2009 11:13 PM

*sends hugs*

Damnation. 07-01-2009 11:18 PM

*Whimpers and curls up*

Can't...take...much...more...

Pomegranate 07-01-2009 11:38 PM

Dayna- I think going to see the doctor may be a good idea. Do you know what has triggered these emotions today? Here if you want to talk about it? *sends safe hugs and some chains to help you hold on*

Lucy-I can't make it stop honey. I wish I could. What are you scared of? *cuddles*

Nicole- Sorry things are so rough for you right now. Did your psychiatrist give you any advice on how to handle things atm or any extra support? I hope the light comes back on soon, remember there is always hope.

Mary Anne- I hope work wasn't too draining and things are better for you tomorrow. Glad you are feeling more in control though.

*hugs Louise* Are you ok?

Ravyn? Kahlia? Jem? How are you all doing? Hope you had a good sleep Ravyn x

*leaves hugs and pillows for everyone*

Accidentally Abstract 07-01-2009 11:40 PM

Going back to uni.
I talked to my GP today & she wants to see me on Friday morning, so I'll be honest with her then & see what happens.

Thank you.

*hugs all*
x

Pomegranate 07-01-2009 11:48 PM

What about going back to uni scares you? I am glad you are seeing your GP Friday hun x

Damnation. 07-01-2009 11:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Pomegranate (Post 1341830)
Dayna- I think going to see the doctor may be a good idea. Do you know what has triggered these emotions today? Here if you want to talk about it? *sends safe hugs and some chains to help you hold on

I think it's just the general stress. This whole saga with my friend (in spite of the talk we had - nothing's changed), the eviction, the mindset that I will lose my friends...it's all taking it's toll on me. I fear a breakdown. If it's not yet already started.

Really, I'm losing whatever I had left to hold on for, if I haven't already. I'm only still breathing because I don't have the courage to try and change that. And LMAO, because I don't have enough of a spine to talk to anybody like my housemate or relatives about anything, they all think that I'll magically be cured by doing some stupid ****ing confidence building course. Except that could backfire. Badly. If I start to believe that I can accomplish what I want, then the next time I feel suicidal...

Pomegranate 08-01-2009 12:00 AM

Dayna you have to be honest with someone in real life about what is going on. Someone who can help you. Anything you have lost can be regained or replaced with something new. It sounds like things are really stressful at the moment and that is bound to be affecting your mood and making you worse. Please try and take measures to stop a breakdown before things get worse. For what it is worth, I AM worried about you and thinking of you.

Damnation. 08-01-2009 12:04 AM

I don't know what to do. Too long I've taught myself to keep things bottled up. I can't hurt my housemate by telling her anything

Eclectica 08-01-2009 12:07 AM

*Hugs everyone*

Dunno what's going on. I went to Tesco with mum and literally had to switch off... I stupidly enough felt like I was being followed. Everyone was talking about me... Watching and following.

I can't feel pain also, which scared me... Not being able to feel the pain makes me wanna try to be able to, like I tried last night, but failed. Woohoo.

Pomegranate 08-01-2009 12:10 AM

Katrica that sounds really dangerous hun. Have you told anyone you can't feel pain? Please stop trying to make yourself, it wont come back until you can figure out what triggered it to go in the first place. It sounds like your experience was really frightening. Did your mum say anything?

Dayna- Eventually that bottle will become full though. Your housemate probably wouldn't want you to keep everything bottled in. Could you try and write her a note or something explaining what is going on if you can't talk to her?

Damnation. 08-01-2009 12:13 AM

Emma: The last time I tried that, I sent her an email...which led to a spoken conversation x_o;

*Hugs Kat* Sorry, I don't really have anything to say

Pomegranate 08-01-2009 12:16 AM

Did the spoken conversation help at all? Is there anyone else you would consider speaking to like your psych or another friend? (sorry, my advice isn't that helpful *hugs*)

Damnation. 08-01-2009 12:19 AM

Spoken conversations tend to lead to me avoiding eye contact (resulting in me getting a great look at my feet), and clamming up. It doesn't help at all. Although I think it's only for people I'm close to, friends, family, that sort of thing. I've been able to talk about difficult things irl to people I don't know that well. So again, it's just getting around my housemate, and sorting out a doctor's appointment

'Could you phone the doctors for me, please?' (awkward with phones FTW!)
'Why?'
'Just want to see what he could suggest about my sleeping pattern [/blatant lie]
'Oh, okay then.'

Bleh

Eclectica 08-01-2009 12:21 AM

I told my mum about the whole being followed thing, can't remember what she said. Bad bad bad memory problems right now. It#s starting to happen more and more now though, feel lke I'm being followed most places. And I always feel like I'm being watched.

The pain thing... I dunno.

ravynsoul 08-01-2009 12:31 AM

Nicole - Thanks for the hugs and hot chocolate! *hugs back* - Don't apologize for letting out your emotions.. how was the hypnotherapy? I hope it helps with your sleep and with your night SIing. *offers candle to help light your way*

Lucy - glad to hear you're back safe; good news about seeing your GP - hope the visit goes well *hugs*

Mary Anne - Glad to hear you're more in control; hope the positive feelings keep lasting. Let us know how you're doing. *hugs back*

Dayna - we'll beat the computers yet! *hugs* it sounds like you've had a rough day... I think Emma's offered some wise suggestions... I hope you are able to talk to someone in real life before the bottle gets too full [that's not a fun feeling]; keep letting out your thoughts and emotions here if it helps you! I find it easier to talk to strangers in real life than those close to.. I think it's because I can distance myself from them if need be.. maybe that's part of it for you? *hugs back*

Louise - *hugs back* how are you doing?

Emma - thanks for checking in with me; I did sleep better only woke up a couple of times; so not too bad. How are you doing today??? *hugs back*

Katrica - *hugs back* are you maybe able to talk to your mom about that? I hope you get feeling back soon..

*leaves hugs for everyone else* *hopes those who haven't checked in for a while do soon.. *

ravynsoul 08-01-2009 12:33 AM

Katrica - didn't see your most recent post, before I posted... what about talking to your doctor about the pain, memory thing, and feeling like you're being followed?

Damnation. 08-01-2009 12:36 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ravynsoul (Post 1342029)
Dayna - we'll beat the computers yet! *hugs* it sounds like you've had a rough day... I think Emma's offered some wise suggestions... I hope you are able to talk to someone in real life before the bottle gets too full [that's not a fun feeling]; keep letting out your thoughts and emotions here if it helps you! I find it easier to talk to strangers in real life than those close to.. I think it's because I can distance myself from them if need be.. maybe that's part of it for you? *hugs back*

Yeah, 'rough day' sounds about right. All the little poisonous thoughts that I had last night have come back. The mental images of suicide that I had last night haven't though, so that's something to be grateful for

Eclectica 08-01-2009 12:37 AM

I should be seeing the psych for the second time soon... Hopefully... The pain thing I think will pass but the following and memory things have been there for years. Getting worse and worse. And I'm gaining more paranoia kidna things. Always worrying about my mum. I listen to her movements, listen out to hear if shes calling me, think people can read my mind :[

ravynsoul 08-01-2009 12:40 AM

Dayna - ya, that is something to be grateful for.. and I hope they stay away from you too! And hopefully the poisonous thoughts go away. I find they can be quite draining and make even a good day awful. *hugs*


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