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horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 08:29 PM

*floats down some independant hugs for you*
..thankyou..just thank you.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 08:41 PM

Thanks for the offer but I'm not in a majorly hugging mood, I'll keep the helium balloon though. Sorry you're not feeling so good either. Sorry if I sounded off in my other post, i don't know how to do the medium bit right now. I feel like i'm mentally twisting inside over odd things and I can't understand the size of the reaction against the size of the problem.

1ofmany 27-07-2008 08:56 PM

wow balloons are here now (i am back). We all react to things differently and what seems small to one person can be huge to others.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:02 PM

hi 1ofmany *floats a balloon over to you, a sparkly one*

I think I'm OK. I think I've realised it's to do with emotions. I'm still a novice where emotions are concerned... I think... I think I have a crush on someone :-s

1ofmany 27-07-2008 09:03 PM

I still feel like novice with emotion...well i cant deal with them anyway (my own that is).
Aww well thats good isnt it?

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:13 PM

I have no idea. It doesn't feel good, it feels horrible. Its confusing and ugly and potentially destructive. It's like a chance for the one person in my life I care about to hurt me, purely because I stupidly allowed myself to start caring about them. I can't seem to undo this. I don't understand how this is a requirement to being human :(

1ofmany 27-07-2008 09:15 PM

So your worried from the start that the person will hurt you?
Being in a relationship (if this is what you mean) isnt a requirment to being human.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:27 PM

(I'm borderline and) I tend to over idealise certain people.. I'm worried because I'm almost sure I'm just another person to them, whereas they are becoming the centre of my world at a fast pace. They can crush me with a word without knowing it, and often do. I think this is normal for a crush? But no, I meant why is the feeling of this towards another person even possible. I shouldnt feel anything towards this person, nor any other. I've been "dating" someone for a month, but they have just gone home from uni miles away, and I don't care much for them anymore and not entirely sure why I even dated them, we barely talk but I'm meant to be still dating them. I do not understand any of this situation.

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 09:31 PM

relationships are indeed complex for borderlines, sucks to be right right now i am feeling needy with my cureent fella, and still needing to SI

1ofmany 27-07-2008 09:33 PM

Sounds like the one your dating you dont have strong feelings for...as for the other person and the feeling....I get that with my best friends, they can say somthing and it will cause my world to crumble but they wont realise it...
Sorry i am not much help

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:34 PM

*offers hugs should you want them* :(
Also, it's ok, I don't expect answers.. I just needed to ramble I guess.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:42 PM

*offers supportive hugs to mors should he want them*

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 09:48 PM

hi mors hun *hugs n snuggles* can listen if you need to vent?

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 09:56 PM

*Storms in and throws herself down in a heap*

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:00 PM

whats up voice?

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 10:19 PM

I just hate being so full of anger....
I'm only angry because I get shouted at when I cry....
plus...I feel like I have to hide ALL my scars out of "respect" for my family....so I had some big thick dressing gown on this morning and I was so hot and I thought "this is stupid"

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:22 PM

*hugs* i know that feeling and it's not right, if you feel comfortable with your scars then you should be able to be comfortable rather than soooo hot! and you definately should'nt get shouted at for crying!

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 10:26 PM

I do though :/
"Turn those ****ing crocodile tears off alexx"
yeah..has she ever considered that I might ACTUALLY be feeling upset...
*Sigh*
*curls up in a tight ball*

effervescence 27-07-2008 10:30 PM

poor alexx :( i dont like your mother.

i feel like crap today. like actually physically sick. but i have to go to my lectures. LAME.

Jetforce 27-07-2008 10:32 PM

*cuddles alexx and chloe*

Hope u guys feel better soon xxx

Yeah, i got lectures too chloe ughhh....


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