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Detour. Derail 22-05-2008 03:36 PM

Why am I being such a fxck up?!
I CANNOT start or hold a relationship....DESPITE the fact that I WANT to....
I'm happy with what we have...but at the same time...I want more.
I'm just...filling in...til some stunning girl comes along really. Then he'll be off.
No that's not true >.<
but it is. In my head anyway.
uhhh.
I don't want to lose him.
Please don't let that happen.
SO pissed off about yesterday.
fxcking TOTM.
Everyone's always like "uuuuh you're gorgeous. Anyone would jump at the chance to date you"
bloody PROVE it then. Coz at the moment...I have all the proof AGAINST that in my mind.
14 months of being single.
Oh yes....because everyone IS jumping at the chance....Jeez.

Detour. Derail 22-05-2008 03:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jetforce (Post 782075)
anything i can do to make it better?

How can I stop being a mess?
How can I get rid of all the damage that past relationships have caused.
How...can I change...to be something people want...

Jetforce 22-05-2008 03:42 PM

I dunno how to answer that

But being u is the best thing u can do....it's the only think u can do really.

**me thinks u look lovely and wished u'll find a good man that loves u back the same way**

And dw, i've been single for almost 4-5yrs...and i know it gets lonely but keep searching i suppose. Coz that special someone will pop up one day!

Auburn Shadow 22-05-2008 03:44 PM

Sorry... I wish I could help... but... I... I have no words. Not even words for myself.... Just found out my mate's mum killed herseslf... Why... why does everything happen at once? Why...

*cries*

notgoingtocutnotgoingtocutnotgoingtocut.

Detour. Derail 22-05-2008 03:49 PM

*sigh* :(

Jetforce 22-05-2008 03:50 PM

*cuddles hana*

How u coping so far? Maybe u ring a counsellor or somebody to talk things over...might help a bit?

Hang in there hon! take care of urself and try not to cut :( although i know it hurts alot..

Auburn Shadow 22-05-2008 03:55 PM

I'm... empty. I don't know how I feel... Gonna head to uni counsellors and see if I can talk to someone there... but after that... I don't know... I don't want to cut... I can't undo 2 months... but... it's the only thing I know how to do...

I'll let you know when I'm back... thanks.

Jetforce 22-05-2008 03:57 PM

I'm sorry alexx *cuddles u tightly*

U'll find somebody one day :-) just don't give up...and things will turn out well despite the bad times atm..

~*forever_broken*~ 22-05-2008 04:02 PM

*snuggles Alexx, Hana, and Jeremy*

Alexx, hunni, you really are adorable... And I love you dear. I'm sorry you're feeling so crap atm.

Hana, sweetie, I am SO sorry! That is SO hard to deal with luv, and I'm sorry you have to try. Please don't cut hun, please...

Jeremy, you and I are emailing atm. *cuddles her super cool sheep :-D*
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*sits in her corner and sobs*
IwanttobedoneIwanttobedoneIwanttobedoneIwanttobedo ne:crying:G*d damn:crying:

Jetforce 22-05-2008 04:05 PM

*cuddles my bunny* lol

Detour. Derail 22-05-2008 04:50 PM

I really need...some form of affection right now.
I knew when i started getting closer to him...that he can blow hot and cold...which is fine because so can i...
but there are things i desperately wanna ask...and dunno how to phrase them....

GRRRRR!okjvoekrnvo4kmnptbjvmnv
*goes into a corner and breaks stuff*
Why do I have to fall for people so fxcking hard?! >.<

lil-princess 22-05-2008 04:56 PM

Heya everyone :)

I hope everyone is ok, *huggles all round* i'm around if anyone wants to chat just let me know if you do :)

I thought i'd let everyone know i've just posted in the picture board there is pictures of me after my Race For Life in there :) if anyone wants to go have a look your more then welcome. I am soo achy today it's not fair lol i sooo should of taken it easy yesterday.

XXEmzXX

Jetforce 22-05-2008 04:58 PM

*kisses alexx* lol does that help :P

*jem does a runner to his bed*
Time for me to crash i think, get rid of these bad thoughts *Curses them*

Gnite all..xxx

blondiebear 22-05-2008 05:02 PM

Ally dear daughter, what time do you get up?
But then I was a slug-a-bed this morning. And I forgot to put a new carton of diet burpsie in the fridge last night so I'm drinking it warm-ish. I'd rather not dilute it with ice. Two nights ago I was short on sleep and I'm still feeling it. I have some caffeine chewing gum, it may come to that.

Otherwise, I'm doing okay. My brother friend phoned this morning. My husband is making jokes.

*cuddles chloe, amanda, ally, alexx, hana" Ally dear I check in here at virtual psych ward before I look at vets support. I'll go there next.

*brings on some rice crisipies, snitches jeremy's marshmallows, makes rice crispie squares*

Last night I mentioned doing the dishes to my husband. Quipped he, correctly I should add, that I usually don't do the dishes until I run out of mixing bowls to eat my cereal out of. Bwat.

Detour. Derail 22-05-2008 05:06 PM

Thanks Jeremy and Susan *hugs back*
Night Jeremmmmyyyyyyyy

~*forever_broken*~ 22-05-2008 05:52 PM

*hugs Susan*
I'm glad you're not having too bad a morning... apart from being so tired.

I got up and used the bathroom (cause y'all wanted to know that), brushed my teeth, and put my contacts in (when I thought I was going to lectures and work)... Climbed back in to bed, re set the alarm, lay there feeling awful... Emailed my professors and told them I would not be at lecture, massaged my boss and told him I wouldn't be at work, sent a text to a gal in my research group and told her I wouldn't be on campus... And am not planning on getting out of bed again...

G*d I wish I could cry :crying:

blondiebear 22-05-2008 06:30 PM

You arre crying. You're just doing it with words instead of tears. I know what is like to hurt so bad that you can't cry. I've been there so many times in the last two years!

*cuddles Ally*

dark_light 22-05-2008 07:13 PM

*sits in the corner and cries*
Why can't i do this?

Detour. Derail 22-05-2008 07:18 PM

I am gonna cry.

zowie 22-05-2008 08:16 PM

*Hugs Alexx and Jo* What's up Jo, what can't you do?

The crisis team have just today stopped seeing me. I feel like everyone believes I'm doing fine when I'm not.


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