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Scarletdreamer 20-03-2010 11:44 PM

*cuddles all*

Nicole, sweetie, what's up?? *hugs*

Hels, hope you sleep well!! :) ♥

Mark, how you doing tonight?? any better?

Kahlia, how's the cyclone progressing? (sorry to make it sound like a "work of art" being "in progress" ... heh) and how are YOU feeling?

Sorry to any that I missed... oh, and Joc, good to see you back!! (forget how many pages back that was, but still, good to see you *squish*)

I'm okay... I guess. Today has been a pretty weird day if I dare say so myself. :-/ Gonna update my r/v thread in a bit...

MammaMia 20-03-2010 11:47 PM

Ha. Been to sleep, woke up & got all upset when trying to go back to sleep. So have got up again :| Will be up most of the night now I bet >.>

nicole94 20-03-2010 11:51 PM

i feel crap :'( flashbacks are awful. i just wanna hurt myself. i havent self harmed in over a week. i usually do it 30-40 times a day.....i need it. i wanna cut. i wanna OD. i wanna jump outta my bedroom window. i cant take this!!

shadowedsoul 20-03-2010 11:57 PM

hugs nicole, sorry your having flashbacks. tryand stay safe okay.walks in and curls up in corner, want to hide for a while, bad day just got worse. =/

Scarletdreamer 21-03-2010 12:01 AM

Am struggling myself...

*squishes for everyone, along with calorie-free cookies and juice boxes!!*

Updated my r/v thread... :crying:

nicole94 21-03-2010 12:03 AM

*group hugs* looks like we're in for a bad night........

Kahlia1981 21-03-2010 12:11 AM

*hugs all*

April - the cyclone missed us by miles. Seems to have missed any major land areas. We've got a bit of rain this morning. I get what you mean about cyclone : art work. Me ... I'm starting to come out of depression. Oh, and the hospital is trying to kill me. And there is absolutely no paranoia in that whatsoever. Twice they have administered OD's and refused to treat the results ... is there any wonder I think they are trying to kill me...

*hugs everyone and curls up tightly in a ball to wait for the rain to stop or at least slow*

MammaMia 21-03-2010 12:19 AM

*cuddles everyone tight* Keep fighting people. Or trying to anyway :)

It'll get better..

nicole94 21-03-2010 12:21 AM

*hugs everyone* i feel............awful. thats it. i cant even think of anything to describe the way im feeling. it hurts. im so upset i'm physically hurting. i feel like someones ripped me to shreds then jumped all over the peices. i cant take this!! :'(

Scarletdreamer 21-03-2010 12:26 AM

*cuddles Nicole* I understand the feeling, sweetie, I really do. :( That's kind of how I feel at the moment... just want to curl up and die.

:crying:

MammaMia 21-03-2010 12:27 AM

Please keep fighting you two. Don't want to lose either of you :( *cuddles tight*

nicole94 21-03-2010 12:28 AM

i cant keep fighting. i cant. it hurts too much.........

MammaMia 21-03-2010 12:33 AM

I know it really hurts. But it WILL get better. The pain will end, you just got to keep going. Don't OD Nicole. *cuddles*

Ow, can my period pains please go **** off now? I had them epically bad this morning, they got better but have slowly hurt more through the day. It's horrible >.> Hopefully'll be gone when I wake tomorrow =) But for now, OWWWW :@

nicole94 21-03-2010 12:36 AM

i cant OD, i have no pills. I cant cut. not properly. i have no blades. i dunno what to do........i dont see how it can get better. people have been telling me that for 3 years, but its just getting worse.

MammaMia 21-03-2010 12:47 AM

It will get better eventually honey. But you have to go through this **** to get there. Like they say, there's no rainbow without rain. *cuddles* Glad you have nothing to harm with..

nicole94 21-03-2010 12:50 AM

i know but-3 years?? how much longer is it gonna be? and i know its good i've got nothing to harm with but well. its just making me think about doing even more stupid things :(

PrincessSparkle 21-03-2010 12:56 AM

Yeah sleep is good...I get awful grumpy when I'm tired, no fair on anyway who's around me lol!Only times I get real bitchy is when Im either starving or sleep-deprived!

PrincessSparkle is wondering how to talk to teen sister about whether or not she's still self-harming and maybe she might be better off in foster care?

:(

MammaMia 21-03-2010 01:00 AM

Nicole, there's good days, maybe you're blind to them right now as you're struggling so much. Which is understandable. I've gone through one **** thing after another (it feels like it anyway) since I was 13, maybe younger. I'm now 20 & somehow still fighting. It is really epically hard, but the good times have make you believe they will come back.

Princess, why do you think you'd be better in foster care sweetie? Talking to your sister about your self harming sounds like a good idea *cuddles*

Kahlia1981 21-03-2010 01:10 AM

Nicole - I've been going through **** for about 12 years now ... I do have some good times, but there has been an awful lot of ****. For me, a lot of the problem has been in regard to actually getting some sort of treatment that is suitable. Don't give up hope. I know, easier to say then do. *hugs*

Hels - Hang in there sweetie. *big hugs*

Princess - *hugs you*

*hugs everyone*

And once again I have to say it: It can't rain all the time ...

MammaMia 21-03-2010 01:21 AM

*cuddles Kahlia*

Am having a fight with my head. Urge to cut just randomly came on. SCREAMING. Shut up. I'll be fine. Always fine. *hides*


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