thanks for the hugs everyone hugging u back..
(online is the only hugging i ever do)

oliver i totally know how u feel..

sometimes i just wanna go into the hospital cause its about the only place i can feel safe
when i feel im SH-ing too much. but at the same time i dont wanna stop...

i quit therapy a little while back and tuesday im going back. kinda freaked out about it..

its been a couple months since ive seen him..

anyway hope u all are safe...hugs

*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Alexx*
*Waves to Ninais*Welcome to the ward:)
*Waves To MJ*Welcome to you too :)
*Hugs Ian*
*Waves to Mrs Pan* Welcome!
*Hugs Michelle*

I'm really Triggered and I don't know why ..... I just thought that if I wrote it out it would go away , I guess we'll find out:S

Nope , But I feel better.......I wish I knew why I was triggered but it just came on....

*hugs Doikers*

I feel really unwell. :-(

*Hugs MJ*My name is Mark :) Whats up ?

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

sore and tired. how are you feeling now mark

Hey everyone *waves*

hugs lindsay - how are you

Wanting to die. Life isn't for me and I wish that I didn't have to keep on living for my brother.

I'm pretty Low Louise :( *Hugs*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*hugs every one*

I don't really want to live any more either, but I do for those I care about, which makes me mad at them sometimes, even though it's not their fault, and I do love them. It's just that, y'know.

Apparently I had another breakdown this weekend. I've never felt so bad before. And I really thought I'd seen the worst of it before. :-(

Hi Mark. You're from Wales too! What part?

Hey MJ , I live in Brecon , where are you from?

Cardiff :-)

Oh Cool pretty close!

I added you to my Buddy list :-)
I love your Indiana Jones quote by the way :-)

Ooh Welsh people! I've been thinking about having a little holiday there. I love the accents of course :p
I'm from London, everything's expensive, overrated and crap.

*Hugs Mrs Pan* I'm from the English side of the border but live here now as we had to move for my Dad's job when I was 16 , 14 years ago !

Yay *hugs* :)
I'd have been excited by that move. You obviously love it or you would've moved back!
I see you're an Otep fan, I automatically like you even more lol

*Hugs Mrs*

*Hugs Alexx*

*hugs everyone*

There's nothing to do. I'm so fed up. I want to die. I want to overdose. I just have to wait a little while longer until I get my next prescription.

*Hugs Lindsay* Please call a helpline hun , reach out we care about you .

*Hugs Alexx* Don't do that hun , Could you speak with anyone?

Alex and one_step_closer ; please hang in there. We are all here for you. Keep talking to us. My MSN is on my profile if you want a distraction and/or someone to talk to. Think distraction, distraction, distraction. xxxx

I'm sorry that alot of you are struggling, im here if anyone wants to talk.

*Hugs Mark* Sorry your low Mark

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Alex*

*Hugs Lindsay* Please dont od :( your so lovely, id be really sad if anything happened to you

*Hugs Alexx*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs MJ*

Overdosing is the only thing that I have to look forward to right now. I'll be as careful as I can.

How is everyone today?

Yeah please do be careful Lindsay Hun *Hugs*

I'm pretty Flat , Have no alcohol in the house wondering what S.I. I'll do , Triggered.

*hugs everyone*

Feel so much worse today. the issue of moving came up, and I have the forms to fill out. I can't handle life. I can't live in this world. I so want to go now. :-( I look at Lucy (my dog) and think - I can't leave her. and then she reminds me of Nana, and Bampa, and Lozza, and Hayley-Rose and Emily. And I can't leave them either. But I can't cope any more. I can't handle life. I can't survive in this world. just can't handle life. Can't survive. Can't cope any more. :,(

*Hugs MJ* I'm sorry you feel so low *Offers a massive Beanbag chair*

Mark, I know your post about feeling triggered was a few hours ago but I hope the feeling has calmed down and that you maybe didn't have to act on it. I hope you're okay either way.

*sneaks in and leaves hugs on the table for everyone then hides in her ward room*

I acted on it Mrs Pan I seriously coulden't stop myself *Hugs*

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs Mark*

*hugs Apple*

Got a plan and a date. :-(

*hugs all*
*goes to hide from the 'monsters' under her bed* I hope they don't find me.

*Hugs MJ* Is there anyone you can talk to ? I'm worried about you.

*Hugs Laura*

It's a while away yet. And I'm ringing my dr tomorrow. *shrugs* Feel like I've gone a bit mad and totally lost it. :/

Group hug? We all seem to be struggling lately. :-(

cuddles all, curls up. sorry i have not been about had a really crazy week.

*Joins in the Group Hug*

*Squishes Jill Extra*

*Hugs my Wardies goodnight*

I wish they did group hugs in the actual psych ward lol

:crying: Can I come in? I'm really bad at asking for help... but I'm struggling a lot tonight.

*Hugs Sefka* of course you can come in, your welcome here anytime. I'm sorry your struggling :( would you like to talk some more about whats going on for you?

*Hugs Mrs Pan* How are you?

*Hugs Jill* How are you Jill?

*Hugs Ninais* How are you ninais?

Thanks Ninais... <and the words get stuck in my throat>... I'M SO RUBBISH!
<hug>

and hug Atlantica.

And hug everyone else cos I'm good for nothing else.

*Hugs Sefka back* hey dont say that, you are a good person :yeah: whats wrong? Do you want to talk about it?