Yes we are :)

Please be happy for us :)

*hugs all*

the flat is ok thanks, and I'm living on my own, which I like, but its taking a while to get used to.

yay Mark and Felicia :)

*hugs Angel*

*hugs oliver* hope your internet gets sorted out soon

*hugs mark and Felicia* gratz! do you already have a date for the wedding?

*hugs fallingstar laura* dreams about SI can be so vivid... sorry you are having them.

*hugs louise*

*hugs jeff*

I didn't make the appointment to talk about ED stuff. I don't have an ED (I'm too fat) (I know that all ppl with ED think that, but it is true in my case.) (I know that sounds pathetic). I made the appointment so I can figure out whats wrong with me. There must be something wrong, otherwise all the bad things would have been split between my siblings and me equally, right? He always 'only' yelled at them, but he did do other things to me.

*Hugs oliver*
*Hugs Angel*
*Hugs Laura*

*hugs angel* you could still use this account but only to communicate with your friends. and use the new account for serious things?

Hey I'm going out with my Parents today , Kind of anxious , Have taken Painkillers for my hip and a Diaz so far today , thats all the solids I've had so they should work .

Hi am Alexx * waves*

*waves to Alexx* Hi I'm Mark , How are you ?

Just a few more hours before I see the doctor again, struggling with whether or not to share the details of the past few weeks. Will she freak out or just ignore me. When I called in for help two weeks ago, she just ignored what I was telling her, will she listen now? I don't know what to think, this roller coaster ride has to stop somehow. I know that it is meds issue, but I am also fed up with it.

*Hugs and waves everybody*

Emergency Pysch appointment next Friday as I've been low and suicidal Fantasys and stupid injury . It will be the 3rd different Dr in 3 visits......Nervous :S

it is understandable that you are nervous mark *hugs*

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

*Hugs Mors Certa*

*Hugs Angel*

Not feeling so good at the moment ... i dont know what to do.
Listening to music to drown them out ...see if that works...
So unsafe right now .

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Sorry. I wonder if I could push a scalpel blade all the way through my hand ..?

*hugs all* I'm sorry so many of you are struggling, please all stay safe, you mean so much to me, every single one of you.

*safe cuddles for all who need them*

cuddles mark gently. no sweetie please try and keep yourself safe.

~hugs everyone~ - i am sorry that is people not feeling great - here if you want to talk.

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Lindsay, Louise and Jill* how are you all?

hugs oliver - i am so so. how are you

I feel out of it, like distant.

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Louise*

*hugs Mark*

*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Lindsay*
*Hugs Louise*
*Hugs Mark*

I desperately want to overdose but I don't have enough medication yet. I don't want to die from it, I just want to get away from the world for a while so when I do it i'll probably need to get checked over at hospital and I hate that part of it.

*hugs Lindsay*

I understand what your saying Lindsay, I feel the same.
I have a plan to OD next week, but not to die from it.

Guys n gals, PLease PLEASE be careful ODing, I'll leave it at that , I bet you all know your limits but take care okay??? I can't preach I do the same with the drink

Just finished at the doc, she is going to have the crisis team checking up on me daily for the next week. Not sure how to feel about this development. Don't really like the idea of someone "checking" on me at all. I feel trapped in the whole situation.

*hugs mark, jeff, louise, angel, oliver, lindsay, jill and everyone else who I may have forgotten*

I have to get rid of the food that I just ate. Even though there was almost no fat in it, or sugar.

My dad was spending 2 weeks at his girlfriends place, because he was ill. Then he came back to his place on tuesday. He didn't call me or anything. Now someone told me on facebook that he brought his girlfriend.. that explains why he didn't call or text me. His girlfriends are always more important than his kids. Especially, because I also got told on facebook that he's going to leave for the weekend tomorrow and he didn't mention it to me. I already have plans to visit a friend over the weekend. But if my dad is leaving with his girlfriend I'll have to take care of the horse. Fvck life!

*huggles all*

hey guyz and gals. how is everyone today?

*Sits in corner and wraps arms around legs*

*hugs Angel* I'm sorry that you are feeling like ODing is the only way. Could your husband help you to get through tonight without ODing?
*hugs BWchick* (sorry, don't know your name). what's going on for you?

*hugz back* I'm Meganna! go ahead and call me whatever!

I have just been feeling realy crummy lately....

*hugs Mark, Angel, Laura, Megz, Angel, Jeff, Lindsay, Jill, Louise and everyone else in the ward*

I'm at my parents for a few days, which means internet :), but **** from my father :(

*hugs everyone*
I'm sick of uni work. Sick of it.
Also, I NEED to SI... but I shouldn't before my formal dance on Saturday. :/ Oh, god... what am I gonna do?

I'm sorry, I complain too much.

*hugs Felicia* PLease try to stay safe. I'm here if you need to talk/rant.

that is totally how i feel! except i have only been check out medically twice from doing it..

i thought i was alone in that feeling....

thank you for this..

sorry hi im new here

*Hugz* Hi! My name is meganna! what would you like to be called by? :) and how are you darlin

*Hugs Angel*
*Hugs Jeff*
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Megz*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Felicia*
*Waves to SkinEssays* Hey I'm Mark :)

I'm checking myself in.... :/

I'm not feeling too good today.

*Hugs to all*
*Waves to new wardies*

Just checking in to say hello, can't find the words to express how I feel right now

*Hugs Jeff*

hugs everyone

*hugs all*

Just to let you all know my internet in my flat is being set up on 24th May, so if I'm not around, or only online when I can get into uni then that is why.

*leaves lots of safe hugs for you all*

*hugs everyone*

I feel like a Cliché... does anyone else really not get on with their mum???? I'm only home from uni for a few weeks and she's driving me insane. I used to wonder why I had issues, then I realised I was raised by a she devil.

Blah, I can never be what she wants!!!!!

I think someone needs to put me in a straight jacket...