How are you Solo Hun ?

cuddles all, curls up. today not a good day, feel icky today just want to hurt myself. cries

*Hugs Jill*

thanks mark hugs back. someone please make this hurting go away. curls up and cries. sorry

hugs everyone

*Squishes Jill*

*Hugs Louise Heaps*

hugs mark and jill

*hugs everyone*

I hate my life. how do I change it? or should I rather end it?
wow.. that rhymes lol

*hugs to all*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs mark* how are you?

Been better Laura , How are you?

my life sucks. could be worse I guess...

I hate everything. I hate myself.. my name. How I hate it when people are using my name. It's like a stab everytime. No... I'm not only hating my real name. I even hate my username and any nicknames.

I hate my dad. He's treating me as if I'm dumb. As if I don't know anything and he keeps telling me the most obvious things over and over again. Even after I tell him that I got it 10 times. And when I get annoyed and tell him that I'm old enough to think for myslef he starts to get so... ugh

I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have posted that. Just ignore it

Is anyone around? I need some help!

*hugs solo* i know you posted a long time ago, but feel free to PM me if you need to talk.

*hugs mute.scream* I'm sorry you are feeling so upset.

erm... I'm sorry if people using my name are making you feel uncomfortable since its your name as well... :-/

*hugs mark, louise, and lindsay*

*hugs Laura* it doesn't upset me when ppl are using your name to say something to you..
*hugs Solo* how are you?
*hugs everyone else*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Laura*

Falling Star Laura ~ Thank you! I may still do that. You were up late/early unless you're time is different than mine. Were you ok?

Mute.Scream Laura ~ I'm better now than I was last night, but still kindof a wreck.

~Hugs Mark~ Any better today hun?

I am struggling a bit Solo , but maybe slightly better , I am meeting my Social Worker tomorrow so maybe she can help.
*Hugs Ya* How are you hun?

I guess we'll take even 1 step in the right direction. I hope your social worker is able to help! One thing that's great about you is that you always have an endless supply of hugs to give, even when you're not doin well. ~Hugs ya back~ My husband would be jealous! I'm a bit better than last night but needin a bath, which is triggering me.

Do you have a shower instead Solo ? *Squishes*

Yeah, I may do that, but I really want a bath!

Well get like all the sharp things out of the bathroom first maybe hun?

That'd be good if I can do it! I do need the shaving razor though. A lady's gotta take care of certain things ya know?

Cool Solo :) Ugh I hate shaving !

*hugs solo, mute.scream laura, mark, and everyone else*

This feeling will pass... it will pass.. right?
I hate that I get like this where I am triggered all the time. When I get home later today I will probably injure. Then go to work and be all happy. My friend Max at work tells me that I am always happy, even when i say i've had a bad day I'm still happy. He thinks its strange.

He is the first person ever that has ever commented on that fact.

I guess I really do hide things really well.. maybe too well..

*Squishes Laura*

I do the same thing Laura n get the same kinda comments. If they only knew. Thank God they don't!

Solo - (But I always know, maybe not always though) :) Not trying to sound like a creeper or anything, but you know what I am talking about.

Sorry to barge in... I think lotsa people do so! I know I do.

You are a creeper Libz! Lol!

I know arent I? I just oddly know when something is always up, you arent the only one though on here, if that makes you feel better :)

FallingStar Laura: I'm the same. Injure and I'm always all happy even if it's just minutes later.

Today there was a dressage riding show at the castle where my horse lives. They had a show with the pirates of the caribbean soundtrack. That triggered me a lot. Usually I run away before the music starts (if I know beforehand), but it was so loud.. running away wouldn't have helped. I stayed, got triggered, but I stayed the rest of the show. I injured after the show, in the bathroom (dirty bathroom.. but meh). Sometimes I can calm down and not injure (or inure less) but they had this fast and exciting music all the time.. didn't give me a chance to calm down. Couldn't focus just had to cut. so sorry.
My great aunt (grandpas aunt) died today. so sad. she was 97 I think, couldn't eat/swallow for the last 2 weeks or so. she didn't know who I am when I met her in town... was like that for 4 years or so. still sad. I'm really bad at coping with death. Acutally.. I am not able to cope with death.
sorry for the rant.

*hugs all* how are you?

*Hugs Laura* I recently lost my Grandma, It hurts I know , Here if you want to talk hun

thanks mark *hugs* sorry about your grandma
There'll be a funeral ths time. I don't think I can go there. It would just remind me of him. Even though he left 4 years and 1 week ago.
I can't even cry. going away next weekend to get a break from my family and everything.

I need someone to talk to confidentially.........

you can pm me if you want to.

*Night my wardies*

Crimson if you read this PM me , if not I'll re-itterate this later.*HUGS*

hey all
*Sits in corner*

*Hugs everyone* I'm fed up and im struggling :-(

~Hugs Megz n Ian~ What's up you two?

Hi everyone.

Man, it's hard to be in an industry that has turned to crap and seems to be going down...and I want to change it from the inside but I know I won't change anything...it'll end up wearing me out and I'll end up quiting, disappointed and defeated. But still I feel like I have to, at least, try or else I wouldn't be able to forgive myself for criticizing and yet doing nothing about it. I'll never care more about profits and science than people...ever. I'd rather sell fries for the rest of my days than that. I'm just frustrated. I'm totally misunderstood by my peers and totally out of place, all they care about is money and they look down on and badmouth the people they're supposed to be helping and understanding. :(

*Huggles* I'm sorry :(

Hey solo. long time no seeeeee.... ugh I'm sorry I'm just reallyyyyyy anxious again

whats goin on Megz?

*sigh* I'm had a bad thought about my bro again... and he is starting to have depression issues because since I am a junior and it is starting to get to college time a lot of attention on me. I feel so bad because it was that thought and he is already vulnerable and.. ugh...

I'm sorry hun! I'll pray for you and your brother.

*Huggles* thanks :) that means a lot to me. how have you been? I haven't been here in a while

*hugs everyone*

I'm alive, still <3