thanks, it went ok. . . it only ended up being 2 and a bit hours Im still not sure though that I can do a full day of school

well I suppose all you can do is give it a go. At least that way you will have no regrets. I am glad it went ok for you. *hugs*

*hugs* thanks again



god I feel awful I just snapped at the guy who is basically my best friend, I feel like crap but thats no reason to hurt him

Hey, everyone. Taking the time to check in. Feelin a little down right now, but I'm ok for the time being

Hi ya all, just checking in...with my blankie...and pillow....and cookies.

hi all! Well done Carole- that's great, I knew you could do it!

emily disenchanted- everyone makes mistakes and snaps sometimes even at people we care about. He's your best friend and I'm sure he will understand and forgive you.

cookies.....mmmmmmm *mouth waters* are they chocolate?

wanted to die but didnt

couldnt harm

that'll change tomorrow

be better off dead

newlife whats going on? whats up? *hugs* do you want to talk about it?

thanks

i dont know how to cope i have no blades to cut but need to

i have to make doctors appointment

i want to see if meds will help

im not sure what to say though

thanks *hugs*

i need meds i think as starting with a counsellor now isnt going to work as moving away soon

maybe they could arrange a counsellor where you are moving to?

thanks

i am sorting that but need something to get me through next two months

and i had counselling before and it didnt help that much

thats understandable. I hope you go to the Dr about the meds and get some support. Please take care of yourself in the mean time. My PM box ia always open x

do you think they would offer me meds?

or would i have to see others?

to be honest I really dont know. But I think there will be some people on here who have experience of getting meds from drs etc and would be able to give more educated advice than I can. I believe I have read in a couple of posts about Dr's prescribing meds and then referring but not sure, sorry. Maybe post in support or a different section and ask specifically?

make me safe
take away all my......
just make me safe please

its all gotten too much
none of this is ever going to change
is it?
its just crap, thats all

you're right it is all crap but it WILL get better. *makes putridangel safe* hope you're ok x

This is never going to get any better.

I have nothing left to give. I have no fight there is no me left in me.

*hugs charcoalchild* Stay safe so you will one day be able to get the 'you' back x

*Checks in for the forseeable future*

I have my last (ever) counselling appointment with my counsellor tomorrow.. >.<

*hugs everyone*

went to doctors-never going back i hate her

what gives her the right to make me feel crap

*hugs everyone* what happenned newlife?

she referred me to counsellor though i didnt want to but i was kind of forced to agree or it would have been a psychiatrist

then she made me feel bad cos i havent told my parents and says it makes it look like i dont love them

*cries*

im so sorry

dont apologise sweety, youv done nowt wrong. your dr was way out of line to say that, not telling your parents doesnt mean you dont love them, it means your trying to protect them and yourself, its not something to feel bad about. *hugs* maybe counselling could help, its worth a try right? if not then maybe try a different dr. i hope you are ok, my pm is always open.

I'm sorry newlife that sucks! Maybe the counsellor will be able to help though- it has to be worth a try right? Did you mention about meds to her?

i wish id never gone-i hate it

i didnt want to see a counsellor again as seen one before and it takes me ages to build up trust with someone and im leqaving here in two months-i wont be able to open up cos i cant

she just made me feel so crap

did you tell her you were leaving? Maybe wait until you move if you really dont want to see a counsellor and go and see someone there. Or you could always ask for a second opinion- her word doesnt have to be final.

i did tell her but she was like two months is long enough-and when i mentioned it takes me time to get to know and trust someone she was like they not there for you to know for life

I have one word for that woman. bitch. She sounds awful but please dont give up, some people just dont understand depression or self harm. Maybe the 2 months will help and I think it may be worth giving it a try. If it doesnt then you could always try and see someone else.

im sorry i cant cope

*cries uncontrollably*

I can't stand doctors like that. They give the good ones a bad name.

She has no right to treat you like that. Is there another doctor in the practice you can go to? You don't have to stay with that doctor, especially if there is more than one in the partnership. You can also complain, the NHS has a complaint form on their website, and the surgery will have forms they must let you have if you ask for one.

I've just spotted where you're location is! I live in Luton too! If it's the GP i think it is I'm not surprised, but there are good ones in the town. PM me if you like.

Take care

Loz x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

dont apologise newlife, you have nothing to apologise for. *offers a tissue* I have to go now but *massive hugs* I hope you are ok. Please dont give up. There is help out there xx

Crawls into the ward.. under a bed with a blanket and a teddy. I think I'll just stay here for a while.

thanks for all the support

i dont think im going to go back to doctors and ill see what i think when the counsellor gets in touch with me

i'm sorry


*curls up*

i need a hug

*hugs Newlife* bad doctors are a terrible curse *offers tea*

thanks *curls up under balnket and rocks*

i want to sleep

im scared of life

*puts on the soothing music and dims the lights*

i.cant.do.this.tonight

clings to anything nearby... the floor will do

*Gives raining inmyhead a big teddy bear and a blanket*
Are you ok?

(((((((( newlife ))))))))

I am so sorry hunni.

*hugs you tight..*

**sobs also** (ignore me)

(((((((( raining in my head ))))))))

hope ur ok

So how are the ward residents doing today? *gets out the tea and teddy trolley*

checks in,finds a corner to hide in.

everything aches

the simpsons movie made me feel better for a while

now i cant rid of the memory ofyesterday

i want to stop thinking about it

*curls up in a ball*

*covers Newlife in a blanket*

im so sorry

i need a hug

or for someone to hit me hard

im sorry