I am not really a veteran. Been on here a year. But I need somewhere safe. I can't be brave anymore. My parents make me feel trapped and hopeless. Need hugs.

*crawls in quietly and hides under blanket* I am just going to hide here until my depression magically disappears and I can be somewhat okay again. I highly doubt that will happen considering this time my depression has been getting quite bad and I am on my sixth month of misery. I am going crazy I mean my depression never goes away completely (and while hard I have managed to deal with it for the last 12 years) but this time it is at it's absolute worse and I am hopelessly stuck in it and there isn't any way out.

I'm back again after yet another hospital trip and all I want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. After an event in hospital I've started having flashbacks from before my first ever ECT sessions. Losing those memories is part of the reason I'm still alive. Right now I don't know if I can cope with this or even if this is just the world telling me my time has come. It's getting harder each day to get through and I'm not sure whether it's worth fighting or even possible. For now I'm just going to hide in a corner with my pillow, blankets and bears....

*curls up in corner with some books and a warm blanket*
Life is bad sometimes, I just wanna get away for a little.

*curls up in a corner crying and cuddling my bear*

My GP accidentally triggerred me into a severely suicidal situation where I've been planning out my next suicide attempt and ensuring that my husband will not be the person to find me, that noone will find me until it's way to late for me to be recovered and that the plan will work perfectly. Am I doing the wrong thing? Does it even matter? What am I supposed to do to stop the flashbacks, the overwhelming depression and the almost constant and frequent triggering..... Especially when I'm not able to take medications to help me cope... Maybe I just need to accept that my time is coming and I need to b e prepared for it when it does. Or I can just keep hiding in a pillow fort for the remainder of my life....

*sigh*

I'm so over having kids right now. I can't handle all the meltdowns. I just want to craw into my son's fort and never come out. Just let me curl up with a blanket and pillow and I'll be alright. Maybe.

*disappears iinto a corner to cry*

It's time to listen to the song lyrics and just "let it go".....

I guess I will stay here for a lil while... very suicidal and trying to stay safe but its mot working very well :(

-Finds her little curling up space and her teddybear- don't wanna....

How are you doing today Matt?

Can I disappear from this world for a while? I can't handle daily life and right at the moment I can barely manage to stay alive for a day. My brain, the flashbacks and the hallucinations are encouraging me to just give up and give in but I don't want to hurt those that I love.

So torn right now so I'm going to hide away from the world in a pillow fort with my teddy bear.....

Im in rough bout gang, I feel worthless, not important unloved, i been trying to draw but yeah

*quietly creeps back into her corner*

Its been a while ward, but life has just beaten me down and now I feel like I need to be back here.

*gives Shattered N Scared a blanket and some hot tea*

Thanks KneeSocks, I needed that =)

I have some chips to share.

Anytime! Ohhh yay chips *takes one* thank you!

never been in this ward hope its different than my last
*sits in the corner alone*

checking in for an extended stay once again

*curls up in the corner with a pillow, blankie, and teddy bear*

hugs are always needed and very welcomed...pm me if anyone needs any in return...im a great hugger in return as well! *hugs to all who need them*

*hugs caiden* Welcome back, did you find a warm corner?

*hugs for everyone, especially caiden *
Feeling on the verge. Not quite bad enough yet.
Keep wondering why I come back... It's not like I know anyone.
I've missed ryl. And everything.
It's all a bit stirred up. I'm triggered, I wanna but I can't.
I think all my protective factors have turned into triggers.
Eh... Ain't good. But never mind.

If this was a real ward I'd be trying to hide or trying to look after someone.

*looks hopefully for a volunteer*