*hugs Georgia*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Aamanee*
*hugs tinkles*
*hugs Laura*

Had another nightmare, I hate being able to rmember by dreams or nightmares. Its quite painful sometimes. I gave in a lil last night, I'm sorry. It was just too much. But only a lil break to stem the tide of how bad it was getting. I, um, did call my old psych and he said he would try to see me today or tomorrow cause he has an open time period in the afternoon and he told me it was good I was reaching out... and after I got off the phone I immediately felt worse than before :(

hugs everyone

*hugs all*

sorry, too tired to read through all posts right now.

*Huggles Matt*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs all my wardies*

Sorry I don't have more than hugs to offer atm.

*hugs Mark* hope all is okay

Hey everyone, *hugs*

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Matt*
*hugs Louise*

I'm really tired right now, so off to get some sleep.

Hope you sleep well, Laura.

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

How are you today, Mark?

*plonks down on floor*

How are you?

im a bit annoyed at myself cause i said i'd do something but i didnt so grr but generally a lot calmer

How are you?

I can understand what you mean about being annoyed with yourself for not doing something, I also feel a bit like that right now. I'm here if you want to talk about it or anything else.

Thanks its just i was meant to go to the doctors with my bf and get my medication upped but it didnt happen and im scared to go on my own :/. Im here if you want to talk?

Are you able to go another day or have a telephone consultation with your doctor instead?

Im going to try and ring on monday as they are shut over the weekend but ill see how i feel then

How are you?

I hope you feel better soon.

I feel kind of low. I don't know how to make things better for myself and I hate being trapped in this 'life.'

*hugs all*

I feel... annoyed? I met briefly with my old psych who was all like "I'm glad you called" and "It must have been really hard for you" -- as if i needed to be coddled and congratulated for doing something i didn't want to do really. Anyway, i told him what had been going on, minus a few things i should have said but didn't cause i was too scared to. He just looked at me and told me I needed to go back on AP meds cause i was losing myself again. He's right... but I hate that he is... if that makes any sense?

the feeling of being trapped is horrible, maybe write out things you would like to do or like to achieve and research ways of doing it? Hope your feeling better today.

Do you hate the fact hes right or the fact you feel you need to go back on APs? It is annoying i was so down about going back on anti depressants but now im on them and feel more normal again its better because i know in the long run it makes things better. Im sorry he was patronizing towards you for calling etc i suppose its his way of being encouraging/supportive. Do you want to talk about what you didnt tell him in here?