We don't think that of you Nicole because you always offer your support to others, even if you're struggling yourself.

*Hugs Mark* Sorry you had a bad dream last night :( I had a nightmare too, seems like half the ward did.

*Hugs Shad* I agree with Mark, they'd want you to bring this stuff up, if you're honest, they can help you more.

*curls up in corner* I'm thinking so much that I feel sick. Everyone in the family keeps telling me I'm screwed up in the head, I'm the 1 in 4 "loons" that the statistics talk about and I just want to hide. I'm not crazy. I'm not I'm not I'm not!

cuddles mark. please stay safe

*Hugs Sarah* Beleive me you are not a "Loon" , I've been in a pysch ward and seen people when their mental conditions are at their worst and you are not one that fits into the loon catergory

*Hugs Jill*

curls up

What up Jill?

I know, my family just suck so much Mark *cuddles* I'm relatively okay really, its just they like to bully me and make me feel worse and the mean voice does nothing other than tell me they're right ¬_¬

**** the voice Sarah , Can you drown in out with headphones?

hmm noithing im all good. dont worrry.

Jill you want to talk I'm here for a bit:)


*Dammit Billy, You are not a God!"

Its too infrequent to drown it out ¬_¬ stupid thing. Thanks Mark. Music usually works but not in the mood for music or noise either :/ *hides*

dont want to trigger you, im okay

hugs everyone

I want my head to stop being so foggy >:(

*Hugs Louise*

People are watching , I'm sorry wardies, I am not going to be watched without a fight

Whats happening Mark?

FB chat
okay

hugs mark, who is watching you mark

E-on are.
Need Sleep
Dorrr is on chain.
*Night time hugs wardies*

So paranoid that people are going to find me on here... I wish my username request would pass... I've already removed lots of traces off the internet of me, but this is the last one on the list. Grr.

*cuddles Mark goodnight*

Hey Mark, can I still get that FB link pmed to me?

You alright Mark? Night night *hugs*

You can always talk to us Jill,use a hide box if you're afraid of triggering people. *Hugs*

*Hugs Sarah* You're not a loon, you know you're not. Just keep telling yourself that. I love you.

hmm argh!!!!

*huggles all*

*Hugs Kahlia*
How are you?

*hugs Nicole*

Just a wee bit stressed at the moment. Otherwise okay I think.
How are you?

*Hugs Kahlia, Nicole and Jill*

thanks lia. how are you tonight

*Hugs Kahlia, Lia and Jill*
I'm ok thanks Kahlia, sorry you're feeling stressed.

Wooo, been on here half the evening and finally my presence has been noticed by name. I was starting to think I didn't actually exist and I'm just a figment of my own imagination (although according to Descartes the mere fact that I am imagining proves my existence, but that's hardly the point).

Anyway. I'm alright tonight thanks Jill, I hope you're as OK as you can be and safe.

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia* I noticed you hun, I just text you instead of posting on here lol.

I know :) I wasn't having a go, I was just like 'yoo woo, I'm here!'

*Hugs Ian* How are you?

I'm not great lia. How are you?
Hey Nicole you ok?

*Hugs Ian*
lol Lia, I find it easier to talk via text :)
Ian-I'm ok thanks. Whats up? Do you wanna talk?

I'm fed up and i feel like giving up. Dont think i can do it anymore.

*Hugs Ian* Sorry you're feeling low :( Please stay strong, you can do this. I'm sorry that I don't have any advice :/

i was going to post earlier, but the internet had other ideas

sorry i've not been around much and am not being very supportive and doing individual replies, its all going really, really badly at the moment.
can I just sit in the corner with my teddy William.

*creeps over to corner*

~Squishes you~ Of course Oliver. Just relax.

*huggles oliver and offers an extra plushie and blanket*

Heya Oliver :) im sorry that things arnt good for you. Would you like a hug?

thanks guys. Yes please Ian *comes out of corner to give hugs to all who want, then goes back to the corner*

Warning- contains bad language (but is a good song)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FvXH-K7M8s

Kitty! I'm so glad to see you! Don't scare me like that hun!

*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs Kahlia*
*Hugs Nicole*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hug Kitty*

Gosh I'm up early , sorry to have been so freaked out last night:(

*huggles all*

sorry lia that I missed you. i'm barely keeping up with the number of posts at the moment. :-(

i've managed to start another two of my assignments. *le sigh* they just never seem to end. :-( getting a bit over it all.

another gp appointment on monday as well. more meds to get. more money to spend that i don't really have. more time to waste at the doctors surgery that i can't afford to waste.
my housemates' parents' dog (benji) passed away this last week (aged 19 plus) and that affected me (badly) too because in a way i was using him to help me cope with the death of my own little baby girl (dog). she's been gone since 2009 but i'm still struggling to cope with the decision i had to make then. when i'm starting to get unwell i still hallucinate that she is here. i also sometimes feel her crawl next to me when i can't sleep at night - and since i have major problems with insomnia that can happen quite a bit. i often feel like i murdered her, even though i know - logically - that wasn't the case. she would have had no quality of life if she had continued to live both the vet and every single person who knew of her circumstances has told me that ... but it was one of the toughest decisions i have ever had to make and in some ways i still hate myself for it.

sorry, i'll stop the pity party.

kitty, thanks for sharing the p!nk song. i love it and it is so true. i've actually downloaded to my computer to remind me.

*huggles everyone and disappears into the garden to play with puppy sinclair because she really needs some "puppy love" right now*

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope you Dr's appointment go's well .:) I'm sorry to hear about your Dog , I have had family pets that have passed away and know how difficult that is to get over :S

*hugs everyone*