*Hugs Faye*

Sure happiness lol *gives Happiness apple crumble*

Internet's being annoying :crying:

:nono: internet

bad internet *tells internet to work properly*

thanks yummy apple crumble

*hugs mark*

no its just a part of what once was.
and a part of my panic button. *oops* was i allowed to say that?!?!?

*hugs all* how are you today?

hey hun <3 how you doing?
<3

Heather! Hi. I'm okish today. Went to the medieval times festival where I used to ride the knights tournament when we still had the horse. I used to win and it was a bit triggering to go there but it went well. I bought new earrings!

How are you?

yay new earrings. and omgosh thats so cool that you used to ride though- i would love to be good enough to do that ^.^ but sorry was triggring.

im a bit blah and feel icky, but will live.

im not safe and i dont know what to do im really scared and frightened.

anything we can do to help?
*sits with*

*hugs* you could listen to music you like and sing loudly, only happy music or music with a lot of power. I do that sometimes when I'm not feeling safe.

Heather - yeah, I can ride that well, but it took me years of training. I can ride bareback without reins and I don't fall off when the horse starts to rise or whatever. But yeah... it took a LOT of training and I know 'my' horse well. But being a good rider doesn't really do anything good lately... we don't own the horse anymore and I can't ride knight tournaments with other peoples horses.

thank you, i found out just how much im affecting my mum and i feel so guilty i just want to cut. I wish i could run away and her not see my pain anymore. I dont know what to do.

I have an announsment to make tomorrow , sad but positive , night ya'll

night x

Mark: that's not fair to make us wait.

happiness: I don't know in what way you are affecting your mom. But her being affected by you means that she really loves you.

I'm off to bed, too. Good night all.

With my depression she sees me struggling and hates that im not getting better.

hugs you all

*hugs back*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Faye*

Dear Wardies , Today I am ONE YEAR S.I. free exactly :D . I however am struggling and have been professionally advised to not support so many people online so with a heavy heart I am provisionally discharging myself from the ward . I have been here years and dearly love you call , I will pop back and visit often , If you have facebook and want to add me please PM me , or PM me anytime if you need to chat . I am struggling recently with my mental health and if I don't take care of myself I won't be able to help others . Now as I'm crying I will leave Huggles and Fruit for you all. I wish you all the very best , <3 , Mark .

Aww Mark it's good that you're one year SI free, we love you too and hope you pop by as often as you feel able to (hugs)

*snuggles everyone*