Thanks Lia! The problems have been on another forum and in private messages. I'll check out the r/v thread. Talking to people just plain scares me now too! I have a friend who keeps wanting me to talk to her but I'm just too afraid to now, after past experiences.

~Hugs Oliver~

~Hugs Ian~

*hugs mark, lia, solo, oliver, and ian*

*spies felicia*

*hugs everyone*

hey darling, how'd today go? *snuggle*

~Hugs Laura, Felicia, and Heather~

:) <3.

*Huggles wardies!*

Hellooooo! How is everyone :D

~Huggles Megs~

~Huggles you too Felicia~

how are you solo? Felicia?

*huggles all*

I am home from my trip to hospital. It was an eventful and productive trip, with the bonus of being in a beautiful city that I could explore in my spare time. I am doing so much better now, even though the trip took me to some very dark places.

To everyone I know: *big huggles*
To everyone I don't: Hi, it's Kahlia here and I look forward to meeting you.

I missed you guys so bad. 5 weeks without really being able to get on a computer bites hard!!

*cuddles/hugs/soft furry stuffed animals/safe TLC to all*

*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Felicia*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Megz*
*Hugs Kahlia* Welcome back Hun!!! :D
*Spots and Hugs Charlie*

:O I've been spotted :) morning Mark.
*Hugs everyone*
Welcome back Kahlia!!!

Hmm. The wards empty today.

Welcome back, Kahlia!

Welcome back Kahlia :)

*Hugs Charlie, Lindsey, Mark and Morgana* How are you guys?

I'm Low , feel alone . Sorry Lia , How are you? *Hugs*

You're not alone here, Mark. *hugs*

I don't know what to do with myself. I need to stay busy to avoid feeling really low but there isn't much to do.

*Hugs Lindsay* I know that feeling hun . and Thankyou too

*Hugs Mark, Lia and Lindsay*
I burned my hand on the steam from the potatoes :(

~Hugs all~ Sorry I missed ya last night Megz!

It's great to have ya back Kahlia! I'm so glad your trip was good for you!

You ok Charlie?

*Hugs Charlie* Is it burnt badly Hun?

*Hugs Solo* How are you hun?

*Hugs Solo and Mark*
Yeah it's fine, Just ran it under the cold tap for a bit.

:S Ouch!

I'm really hungry. Roasts take so long to cook -.-

I'm ok. Glad yer hand is ok Charlie!

*cuddles Kahlia* I'm so glad that the hospital was helpful and that you are feeling better hun!!!!

*hugs charlie* ow.. Im glad your hand isn't burnt too badly.

*hugs solo*

*hugs mark* Sorry that you are feeling lonely. The ward is here for you though :-) (if that helps u feel less alone)

*hugs lindsay* could you do something that doesn't necessarily need to be done lol.. or just something for yourself.. take a walk, listen to music, heck even watch tv... you deserve some relaxation.

*hugs lia* how r u doing?

Well there is another 2 months down the drain... It wasn't bad though and definitely wasn't enough... I am pathetic. I know you all will tell me I'm not, and that its a slip up, but yeah.. I'm sorry.

Well Laura , It IS just a slip up , , Try to look at it as once in two months acheived rather than 2 months hard work wasted , You injured one day out of what?...60, that means 59 days you acheived , That amazing , I can't go a day unless I'm drinking :(

you'll get there eventually Mark. I really believe that. *hugs*

I'll try to think about it the way you said rather than wasting time. I don't like how out of control I feel now though. Its strange how SI makes me feel oddly in control and so far out of control at the same time.

Oh Laura Hun , I get that self same feeling :S *Massive Squishes*

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise*

*Cuddles everyone*

*Huggles all*

hi!

God i feel crap! Im tired of it :( dont think i can keep fighting

*Hugz Atlantica* yes you can! we are here for you! what is wrong?

*huddles in a dark corner feeling very alone*

I'm sitting in this ward, and making up a world where I don't miserably fail at everything I attempt.
My life is ridiculous.

*Puts arms around Felicia and Kelly*

whats wrong Felicia? everyone makes mistakes.

You don't have to be alone. we are all here together on the same boat.

Chocollate anyone?

Chocolate sounds nice. Don't worry about me though, I'm just breaking under the pressure of uni/sorority drama. Apparently my sisters feel I'm incapable and untrustworthy *rolls eyes* Sometimes, I wonder why I joined a sorority. This happens all the time.

*Sits with Amy* What's up?

no thanks on the chocolate... made me sick to my stomach earlier tonight :(

I'm not technically alone... I just feel that way when hubby drinks... and now i'm having to police him to make sure he doesn't drive ... ugh!

*Scoots over to Amy*

Hi there! I'm Meganna! call me whatever you like! whats wrong sweety?


that stinks :( *Hugggggggg*

thanks ... he just had the neighbor drive him down to get more cigs... I got the wrong kind cuz I couldn't remember what the hell he asked me to get him :(

I want o blast my music and hide away for the rest of the night... but I have sleeping kiddos and can't ... i hate feeling so out of control

thanks, amy :) ... wish they were real and i could use them :'(

I'm so on edge bout this crap I'm sick to my stomach still I know I need to sleep I have to be up early, but I can't... not til he's home and prolly passed out for the night

*Curls up*

*Hugs Megz*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Kelly*
*Hugs Felicia*
*Waves to Amy*
*Hugs Charlie*