No problem.

Dont worry amanda we cant think of everything...you helped and i helped together its perfect!

*lays down in fetal position and holds head and moans*
Arrgh!!! I HATE MIGRAINES!!!!!!!!!!

i just broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years.
what have i done.

Chloe sweetheart...I'm sorry
*huggles*
dya want to talk?:(
*understands you might not want to but asks just in case*

i dont know, it was via msn (i know, how terrible) and he got angry and went offline, so i dont know whats going to happen now.

i cant believe it.

*cuddles Chloe*
Do you mind if I ask what brought on the break-up?
(if you want to tell me it's none of my business and to **** off... please feel free to...)

I'm sorry hun.
But surely there had to be a reason why you dumped him?
You had to have been unhappy....
It'll be ok...
I've dumped people via MSN before...but text is definately worse :/
*hugs and sends you my MSN address incase you want it*

Ditto

it just, wasn't working. it's a long distance relationship and im just getting too sick to deal with it now. he kept saying for months that he can deal with my illnesses but i know he cant. he thought it was just due to us being far away that we were drifting apart but it wasnt only that. i just cant face it anymore. i know he loves me more than i can love him because im too sick to give any strength or love to anyone else. and i cant see that changing in the near future. he doesnt deserve to have to look after me, he needs to let go and meet some nice normal girl.

well that turned into a bit of a rant didnt it. sorry.

You never know positive things may come out of it.

*hugs Chloe*
I agree with Many, maybe it's for the best

is k manda, i'm k :) *pets cloak*

chlo... waht hapened?

*cuddles chloe*

I am going to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling. Speek soon.
Stay safe everyone.

Have a good stare Many 0_0

*cuddles Chloe*
*sigh* illness is what keeps me worrying that I'll never have another relationship :-(
I'm sorry, sweetie, that you felt you had to break up with him... I hope you are able to get some comfort in the fact that you believe you did what was best for him...

I do wonder though, hun... What is best for YOU?

jess, my life happened :(

ally i think its best for me, cos now i can be upset but for a legitimate reason, if that makes sense? i think i needed to let him go. but it doesnt stop it from killing me.

*drags chloe under the invisibility cloak and lei's her*

honey, if it was best for you then it was. no, it doesn't stop it hurting but it's better to hurt a little now then to hurt a lot later when it just collapses in on itself with a big ka boom!

*turns away from the lei'ing going on under the invisibility cloak* lol

I know hunni, and it's gonna hurt for a while. But it will get less, it will *cuddles*

*drags all in as well* a good lei'ing will make you feel better

*snuggles*

I missed something... or maybe I'm just a retard... but what's the deal with the whole "getting lei'd in Vet's" thing???
*is confuzzled*

pop over to vet's general and hunt the thread down! I will link it later but right now i have to go take a client out >.>

be back in a few horus or so

token guy??? what's that? (sorry... I'm stupid)
*grabs some chocolate*

I can't add anything today as I'm a step away from a massive slip. I just want to offer my support to anyone who needs it. Sometimes a hug shared between those who need one can lift someone up. And we hurting people all know that we need that sometimes.

Yesterday I had to explain to my friend that I slipped. I thought he was going to be incredibly angry but he just smiled at me, told me that he knew I didn't want to give in to it and that I must have been feeling terrible and hugged me while I cried. I even managed to get my sense of humour back after awhile.

I'm so glad that he understood .... but I still feel like I let him down. But worst of all - - - I let me down.

Hugs to anyone who can accept them. Please feel free to use my shoulder to cry on if necessary.

Kahlia

oh hahaha ok
SouthPark rocks my face off :P

Thanks for the hugs Kahlia
*hugs back*

http://recoveryourlife.com/forum/sho...=52596&page=25 hey amanda, here's the Lei party link *nods*

*sits in her corner and tends to her latest cut*
Long... Deep (though not as deep as I've done before) and painful... Hmm... Maybe I can go deeper...

Hubby just called from work... has to stay late...
I hate... hate... HATE being alone at nighttime
*sits in corner and rocks*
so lonely and scary* :-/

*runs and snuggles with her RYL daddy*

*snuggles close as she is scared*

*spreads hugs through the ward*

Ally... no more... please! *clings*

Amanda *gives you a special light* This is a bit fo the light out of my heart. As long as you hold it, you will enver be alone in the dark.

I swear, I think I'm paranoid... schizophrenic...something!!! :notsure::crying::angry:

Oh Jess... that is the sweetest *sniffle* thing anyone has ever said to me *gives you a bear hug* thank you soooo much!!!!

:-( I was being serious...

is anyone else highly nocturnal (aka it's way easier to sleep during the day) but while you are wide ass awake at night, all the noises (crickets, etc outside) freak you out???

*hangs head in shame* I am a FREAK!!!!!!! :-(
YIKES!!! *spins around, loses balance and falls down when she hears a noise... cries*

I can insult myself if I want to

I'm a total day person, solar powered. But I love these summer nights here on the edge of the desert. Crickets the soft dry air

You know there is a difference between schizophrinic and schizo... They're two separate disorders...

*hides in her corner with her DSM*
Sorry... BA in psychology *shrug*


Didn't cut any deeper btw... Already hurts like hell...

Hey Susan...
about Jeff's shirt... is it a real shirt?
I thought you were talking about a "virtual" shirt.

really?!?!!!! I never knew that...

No, Amanda, you can't because we love you. *cuddles*

no daddy... it's not you... trust me... it's me...

Lol yep, they are. Very similer but two different diagnoses. Yes, I know I am a nerd lol

How can ya'll love me... when i can't love myself? i don't deserve to be loved :crying:

"virtual" shirt yes. However, I am still a seamstress. And figuring out how to do our virtual shirt still gives me something to think about, expecially if some of the fabric for the 188 flannel bags comes in this week.

I can do a real shirt. But if you're not in north america, shipping is gonna be a turkey.

I yelled at my husband yesterday about my hearing problems. It has been so much easier for me to understand him today. So, I'm glad we went.

ah... ok
can you do stuff like... idk maybe quilts too? (I'm in N. America)
*wheels in head turning... giggles*

Oh, I'm sorry lovely RYL uncle Jeff... I kind of left the building for a bit I guess. *hugs* getting ready for bed as I am exhausted :yawn:

I've done two quilts.

We all deserve to be loved!

I am the token blonde and token redneck.

Mmm, but see Amanda luv, that's the thing... Others see our true value while we are blinded by pain and lies we have been told or lies we tell ourselves... Such as that we don't deserve to be loved...