*Waves to Owen*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Ian*

How is everyone feeling today?

Hi Owen :) How are you tonight ? ( You have night right? )

Drinking Coffee Owen , I have to go to the post office to post a "New home" Card to my best friend and also a Christmas card to her :)
Why are you frowny Owen ?

I'm sorry Julies Daddy was mean to you Owen :(

:( I sorry he was mean to any of you :( What did he do ?

Awh , I'm sorry Owen :(

*Sits next to Owen*

*Spots and hugs Lindsay* How are you?

Thanks for the hug, Mark *hugs back* How are you today?

I'm feeling okay Thanks Lindsay. Been buying Essantial oils for my oil burner and candle to burn online , Just generally trying to make a relaxing atmosphere here . I burn inscense which is nice but leaves me walking through a fog inside my flat , I'm amazed it didn't set of the Smoke Alarm the other day , My cooking has set that off in the past ! hehe. How are you Lindsay?

Sounds nice. My cooking sets off my smoke alarm almost every time!

I'm ok, a bit better than yesterday but still feeling vulnerable. I saw my doctor this morning to get a medical certificate to say that i'm not fit to work. I also wanted to ask about a rash that I have over most of my body but didn't get a chance to say anything. My doctor always assumes that i'm there because of my mental health.

I don't know about rashes Lindsay ,perhaps you could make an appointment to see your Dr ONLY about that , then he won't get side-tracked by your mental health issues if you just say " I'm here because of this rash" he will examine it . *Hugs*

Are you off to bed Owen , it must be late there :)

Yeah, i'll do that but i'll have to wait for a while because I see my doctor too often.

Hope you sleep well, Owen.

*Spots and Hugs Oliver* :) How are you ?

*hugs all*

sorry i've been gone for a while, was admitted to hospital last onday after my crisis team appt and only got discharged last night.
at least i at last got an actual diagnosis out of it, emotionally unstable borderline personality disorder and depressive disorder NOS.
which is a relief to know especially the personality disorder, but i'm bloody scared.
sorry for no individual replies there are what seems like a million pages since i was last here

You've been through so much, Oliver. *hugs*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry you had to go throuh that :( Sometimes it can help having a Name to go with all your feelings though *Hugs*

*hugs mark and lindsey* how are you both?

I am feeling okay although stull urgy :( and getting too stressed about Christmas , wrapping , buying , generally begining to panic slightley, " who have I forgotten? what if they get me a HUGE presant and mine is only small etc... The usual.

10 Days Self Injury free though . .... Can it last? Who knows.....

You're doing really well, Mark. I have faith in you.

I'm ok so far, just waiting to run out of things to do and then i'll be back down again. *sighs*

Lindsay, could you not see someone else about your rashes? :( *cuddles*

Mark, I'm sorry you're still urgy. Keep hanging in there & try not to stress too much *hugs* .

Oliver, sorry to hear you've been in hospital but glad it's got you a diagnosis, hopefully they can help much better now *hugs*

*Squishes Helen :D* How are you today Helen?

*squishes Mark* My nose will not stop running :( But I got my assignment mark back, got a C BUT have hopefully upgraded it to a B :D Also met my tutor for first time this term (she's been off with a broken collarbone)

I'm low but feeling a little better...

Oh I'm sorry your nose is runny :( I hate that ! Whats this silly situation? maybe us wardies can help?

*Makes Turkish Apple Tea for my wardmates*

I hate it too, damm cold. You can't help :(

*curls up*

*Hugs Helen Tons and makes her a Lemsip*

I just had some hot chocolate with cream on the top. But it didn't cheer me up. :-(

*Hugs Lindsay*

I just picked up my monthly Meds and I think *THINK* that they got them right this time !!! That makes it the 3rd time in 14 months they got it right :S but hopefully it will stay right now .

How do they manage to get them wrong?

heyyyy mark =]
*offers hugs to lindsey*

I honestly don't know Lindsay , they give me the wrong dose too little then too much and they have missed out whole meds before , It's a releif to have them okay for the Holidays :)

Hi Heather *hugs back*

As soon as this weather clears up i'm going to the train station, just to see if I feel like lying on the track.

*HUGE Hugs Lindsay* Please please don't do that:( You would be missed terribly by all of us and if you are feeling that Low you really HAVE to bring it up with a professional , whomever you choose to tell please don't go to the tracks , please reach out hun, people are there to help.

There's nothing that anyone can do. There's no point.

*Squishes Lindsay* Please try hun, people do care. PM me if you want to . I'm going to eat then bath but I'll get back to you . My advice is crap , but I'll try .

*Hugs Lindsey.* I don't know what to say, but I agree with Mark. I would miss you. We all would. There are things to live for, things can get better now matter how hard it is to believe right at the moment. There's a girl I once knew, she was abused by her father, in a psych ward at 16, severe SI and numerous suicide attempts. But she's happy now. Things got better for her. She found love with a woman and the struggle was long and hard, there were slip ups, ups and downs and big big messes. Things still got better. And they can get better for you too. I promise.

Hey Lia :) *Hugs*

Lindsay, please reach out for help, darling. I agree with Lia. things will get better. I feel hypocritical for saying that, considering how I've been lately, but they will. I love you, and I'm only a PM away if you need me.

*sigh* I saw my team yesterday. That is all. Uni work is slowly getting done. I won't sleep for the next two days. whoo.

*Hugs Felicia* *Makes a Ovaltine for you to sleep better tonight*

I hope everyone is okay :) It's certainly been a quiet evening on the ward :S
I want to go to bed but it's too early ,isn't it *Sigh* I'm feeling low this evening and urgy and triggered and I want to drink or sleep , I just don't want to have to deal with these HORRID urges , I've gone 10 days , what odds that I''l screw up on the 11th day? sorry

*Hugs Mark*
My day's been so busy I couldn't get on the ward as much.
I don't know what time it is where you are, but if you want to go to bed, then I don't think it's too early.

it's 9.15pm , maybe bed very soon.

*Night time Hugs Felicia*
*Night time hugs all the rest of the ward*